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[[Li...]]

Hi, I'm scared.  I'm 37 y/o.  Been hook for the most part of 20's and all of 30's to Clonazepam.  I started off at 0.5mg.  I was going through a bad break up when I was 25 y/o.  That's where it all begin.  I've been struggling with depression all my life, memory lost, mood swing, laziness,and bad anxiety. I cannot imagine my life without my benzo. But I don't see any changes happening in my life if I don't start thinking about quitting them.  I don't feel all my issues are related to my benzo's, but I think they've done more harm then good in long run.  Doctors don't understand that someone can be addicted on 0.5mg.  I travel a lot, I will forget my cell phone, glasses, but NEVER will I forget my pills.  I'm now at 2mg dose, because I'm not sleeping... I just want to be off them and learn to deal with life without pills.  I'm scared shitless, I don't know if I'm doing the right thing.  I will see my psychiatrist before I start tapering off. I need to know that my feelings are normal. I'm absolutely non functional right now. I'm looking for support, it is the hardest thing I've had to face.  My mind is all over the place, hope this made sense.

[[Bi...]]

Littlemonsters,

 

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[[Li...]]

Hi LittleMonster,

I so hear you. I'm 20 years on antidepressants and benzos - they've ruined me - stolen socialization, energy, happiness, mental capacity, sleep and zeal for life.

 

Mine started cuz I've had insomnia since childhood. So I constantly walk a tightrope with one side representing being dopey all day from to much Meds, and the other side being incapacitated from sleep deprivation (and still drugged). It's been horrible. I grab for any med in my huge inventory that MIGHT get me through a few hours of sleep.

 

But it's gotta stop. I'm scared to death as well, but gonna start some kind of program soon. I  stumbled on thewayback.org. I might go that route. I'll call there Monday before I but the supps. You may want to check it out. Let me know what you think.

 

Best to you.