Depersonalization

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Has anyone had depersonalization so bad that you can't remember what you look like and can't recognize yourself in the mirror? Obviously on some level I must recognize my image or else I'd be running around screaming. The same goes for family members. It's like I don't have a mental image of what they're suppose to look like. But then I can think back to people ten years ago who had no impact on my life and remember on detail what they look like. I've had dp/dr in varying degrees since I begun my taper and after I jumped. Has anyone had it for this long? Did it ever go away? Please guys I really need some encouragement tonight. I'm tired of feeling like a stranger in my own life. Please help

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I haven't jumped yet, but perhaps some other members can share their thoughts.

 

Sincerely,

 

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this dp dr is pretty wild. I am still having it at 15 months off, but not as bad as it was.

 

I remember trying to walk on a tread mill. I felt like i was disconnected from my body. I was just a head floatingthere.

 

It is a real pain, but like everything else, it improves. For me, it was just waiting, a lot of waiting. I am still waiting, but I can see the end. There it is in the distance, I can see it.

 

You will get better, this is the mantra for us all. I will get better

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I had a dpdr episode that lasted for almost a year prior to ever taking a benzo (thanks, Dr. Hoffman). It was terrifying and alarming, but doing things like spending too much time looking in mirrors or reading about dpdr just makes it worse. The bottom line is that i think actual objective reality is much stranger than we are aware of most of the time, and dpdr is really a result of the usual filters not being applied correctly, lack of ego projection that usually makes us feel grounded.

 

It passed for me after bombarding my brain with enough acid to feed a rave. As terrible as benzo wd is, it pales in comparison to that for me, and I still came out of it okay. In fact, that experience was a useful precursor to benzo wd, because when I start to get into dpdr land now, I just remind myself of everything I just wrote and try to distract myself. If mirrors look strange, don't look in them. If your hands look strange, don't focus on them. Etc.

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The DP is serious stuff in my opinion.....you cant feel the old you and the new you doesnt feel right either...very weird....but it is common and at 14 months off i can tell you it goes away ....it went away for me at 10 months.  Good riddance.

 

Yoy will feel like your old self probably within  the first year off.....hang tight.

 

Everything goes away as mysterously as it appeared.

 

Andy

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i feel it very strongly too,but for me its in episodes,e.g 4 hrs a day,then back to ground,then feeling depressed,then back to depersonalised..no help in my answers i suppose because i just started my withrawal

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Has anyone had depersonalization so bad that you can't remember what you look like and can't recognize yourself in the mirror? Obviously on some level I must recognize my image or else I'd be running around screaming. The same goes for family members. It's like I don't have a mental image of what they're suppose to look like. But then I can think back to people ten years ago who had no impact on my life and remember on detail what they look like. I've had dp/dr in varying degrees since I begun my taper and after I jumped. Has anyone had it for this long? Did it ever go away? Please guys I really need some encouragement tonight. I'm tired of feeling like a stranger in my own life. Please help

 

Yes, absolutely.  Mine is still so bad, but it's better at times (by better, I mean a little better.)  I will say that when I get a full on window, this symptom vanishes into thin air.  I hate this symptom so bad.