Paralyzed with fear

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I hate this feeling; it's like I'm so scared I don't want to move -- all my fears are irrational, but I can't logically stop it.  I can't believe at almost 7 months off, I'm still having this. 

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Hi WTBNA, it sounds bad for you and I'm sorry. I have to ask you; do you get these sickening rushes of adrenaline along with the horrible anxiety. I have been getting them steadily for the last two days and it's just horrible. Making me more and more anxious.

 

I hope you feel better.

Sandy

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Hi WTBNA, it sounds bad for you and I'm sorry. I have to ask you; do you get these sickening rushes of adrenaline along with the horrible anxiety. I have been getting them steadily for the last two days and it's just horrible. Making me more and more anxious.

 

I hope you feel better.

Sandy

 

Yes, this happens, but not all the time.  Earlier in w/d this was with me all the time though.

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WT - Go see if you can find something - ANYTHING to read, watch, or listen to that makes you cry. When I feel the way you do, I find a way to cry. Honestly, I belive this to be one key to something I CAN do to promote healing. It releases endorphins - and the brain SO needs that.  I have cried at least 5 times today as I'm tapering Remeron - to the point I had to clean my contact lenses twice becaus they were so full of tears they were foggy. And yet - tonight I'm windowing .I think the endorphins overcame the anxiety today - finally.  Not that it happens like this everyday - but it helps some.  In lieu of something we can actually do about it -since it feels so weird - crying helps me so much.  Maybe you can try it somehow?

 

I hope it passes soon. Either way, it will pass.

:)Parker

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WT - Go see if you can find something - ANYTHING to read, watch, or listen to that makes you cry. When I feel the way you do, I find a way to cry. Honestly, I belive this to be one key to something I CAN do to promote healing. It releases endorphins - and the brain SO needs that.  I have cried at least 5 times today as I'm tapering Remeron - to the point I had to clean my contact lenses twice becaus they were so full of tears they were foggy. And yet - tonight I'm windowing .I think the endorphins overcame the anxiety today - finally.  Not that it happens like this everyday - but it helps some.  In lieu of something we can actually do about it -since it feels so weird - crying helps me so much.  Maybe you can try it somehow?

 

I hope it passes soon. Either way, it will pass.

:)Parker

 

Hi, Parker, thanks for the reply.  I have cried, and screamed as well today, and it gives a few minutes of relief for sure, but then hell comes back.  I'm so glad you found your window tonight; I put a comment on your post.  You know as of yesterday, it's been 3 whole months since I've seen a real window.

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I know that horrible fear, terror really, very well...I do not want to jinx it, but there have been a handful of times lately where I've been able to rationalize it and make it stop...but most of the time it grows and grows and grows and I can't make it stop...Like you said, crying and screaming help momentarily, but not for long.

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i can relate to this too;  it really sucks.  crying does relieve some of the pressure for me but it is so uncomfortable.  i think for me i just get scared i am not getting well as i am just entering month 9 off.  i try really hard to talk myself down and not let the fear spin out of control;  move a muscle change a thought too.  i call this prayer line a lot and they get me to peace  719-635-1111  ; not on week ends tho.  my heart is with you; what a gigantic ordeal; but we have come so far...then some old sx comes back - right now dental pain in a tooth with a root canal; go figure.  glad it's friday.  we are healing dear one.  keep holding on;  we have so much time under our belt; what a blessing that is...we will never hve to go thru this again...ever never ever

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Been there WTNBA, and frankly I'm in a pretty strong wave the past two days. I know the fear well.

We all do, and you're not alone. At 7 months, you're getting very close to the point where most people start seeing

real healing. I turned a very slow corner from 6-8 months, though I've had many small waves and one massive

one yesterday.

 

Interestingly, I rarely cry... but I broke down badly last night. I do agree with Parker, it can help ease symptoms.

I'm still in rough shape today, but I have to say I felt a little better after breaking down and feel a bit more stable since.

Still way off of my new baseline, though. I'm sure it'll ease as the week goes on.

 

Same goes for you... this is a transitory state. It's so hard to accept that when it's happening. But, the body simply is not

designed to stay in this state. It's like a broken leg. It heals itself over time. All of the success stories you hear give us the same

advice. Healing is guaranteed, as Retired 2010 said in her success story.  Of course, the other percentage are the lucky ones who

heal without real issue and don't even need to come to a board like this.

 

We'll all get there. You're getting very close. I'm 8 months off myself. Hoping I'm close, too.

 

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Been there WTNBA, and frankly I'm in a pretty strong wave the past two days. I know the fear well.

We all do, and you're not alone. At 7 months, you're getting very close to the point where most people start seeing

real healing. I turned a very slow corner from 6-8 months, though I've had many small waves and one massive

one yesterday.

 

Interestingly, I rarely cry... but I broke down badly last night. I do agree with Parker, it can help ease symptoms.

I'm still in rough shape today, but I have to say I felt a little better after breaking down and feel a bit more stable since.

Still way off of my new baseline, though. I'm sure it'll ease as the week goes on.

 

Same goes for you... this is a transitory state. It's so hard to accept that when it's happening. But, the body simply is not

designed to stay in this state. It's like a broken leg. It heals itself over time. All of the success stories you hear give us the same

advice. Healing is guaranteed, as Retired 2010 said in her success story.  Of course, the other percentage are the lucky ones who

heal without real issue and don't even need to come to a board like this.

 

We'll all get there. You're getting very close. I'm 8 months off myself. Hoping I'm close, too.

 

Hi, Bryan.  I'm sorry you are in a wave, but glad you are noticing baseline improvements.  I thought I was turning a slow corner twice, but it seems the beast has other plans for me -- "It's back to the torture chamber for you, WTBNA! Mu ha hahaha!" 

 

Can you describe what your corner turning was like?

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WTBNA--just ride out the nasty anxiety, you'll start feeling better soon. I understand what you mean very well when you talk about the fear you have. Sometimes I'll just be sitting watching a movie and for absolutely no reason I'll start getting that scared feeling and it just sucks so bad.