anyone feel they have no rational normal thoughts anymorei just

[[Ru...]]

I just feel none of my thoughts are rational or normal anymore but that my life is just full of my brain feeding me lies nonstop and I can't come back to reality. Its like being so obsessed by all the thoughts and so stuck in your own head you feel you are loosing touch with real normal life. Anyone else feel this way?

[[re...]]

I feel that way in the morning, at least. I'm ok in the evening. I'm fine when I go to bed. But when I wake up, too early, I stay in a sort of nightmare until afternoon. I guess I'm just going to be crazy for a while.

[[Ru...]]

So do you find you have dp and dr redevan or just totally obsessive like you can't even participate in life you are so obsessed and in your own head or both?

[[re...]]

I feel sorta depressed and worried and nagged by obsessive thoughts and memories. I can't seem to sleep past 3:30 am. I lie in bed and feel weird. Then I get up, have some coffee, go online a while, clean up, get dressed, go to work, focus on that, occasionally notice that I'm still crazy, and by the time I'm driving home, I'm feeling ok. Like I said, I've just accepted the fact that I'm going to be crazy for a while. I don't feel good about it, but there doesn't seem to be any way around it.

[[WT...]]

I feel EXACTLY like this, Ruby.. completely. 

[[Ru...]]

I know wtba I have been following your posts and I can totally relate. Hey wtba do you find you get confused on what day of the week it is or feel like you can't tell what time of the day it is. Ugg so many obsessive thoughts and so much panic I literally feel psychotic sometimes when the panic is so bad. When all the sx lessen I do feel slightly more rational but why can't I feel more rational all the time ugg . Feel like I am living on my own planet of lies and obsessions too that I can't even interact with the real world around me . Sometimes I feel I could be stuck in a dark closet I am so out of touch with the world around me. Is this how you feel too. I am so sorry it is so rough for both or you wtba and red

[[Ru...]]

Hey wtba how would you describe your mental dr?

[[...]]

I too feel like this...

 

Do any of you get trapped into these irrational thought loops that seem never ending and are hard to stop?  I had a really bad case of that a few weeks ago.  I would get trapped into irrational rage or fear thoughts FOR HOURS and HOURS and no matter what I did to try and distract myself I could not make it stop

 

I've just started being able to barely counter those irrational thoughts and only sometimes. Like yesterday I had the feeling of terror starting to creep in at ~2 PM, and I was able to think my way out of it...but then it happened again at ~7 PM and no matter what I did, it stayed with me until bedtime

 

[[Ru...]]

Oh lord does that ever sound like what I am going thru mmir everyday I go thru this terror loop and sometimes for most of the day. It's like panic from pure hell and this is also when I can't think strait at all reality becomes choppy can't remember from second to second and feel so spaced I can't even tell what people are saying or doing. When I am like this I feel I am literally living in a choppy reality like an old movie one slide at a time. It's like my brain feels so fried in these times that reality only comes at me in cut snippets there is no normal flow of being with it and in reality when I have the panic. Do you guys feel this way at all too? Once the panic backs off then reality is more fluid I can think more clearly I can type and write again and see the bigger picture. For me these irrational thought loops can go on for weeks day after day, does it go on this long for you guys too?

[[re...]]

Ruby, I'm not clear on your benzo status. Are you tapering? How much are you taking now?

[[...]]

Oh lord does that ever sound like what I am going thru mmir everyday I go thru this terror loop and sometimes for most of the day. It's like panic from pure hell and this is also when I can't think strait at all reality becomes choppy can't remember from second to second and feel so spaced I can't even tell what people are saying or doing. When I am like this I feel I am literally living in a choppy reality like an old movie one slide at a time. It's like my brain feels so fried in these times that reality only comes at me in cut snippets there is no normal flow of being with it and in reality when I have the panic. Do you guys feel this way at all too? Once the panic backs off then reality is more fluid I can think more clearly I can type and write again and see the bigger picture. For me these irrational thought loops can go on for weeks day after day, does it go on this long for you guys too?

Sleep sometimes breaks the loops, but sometimes they last for days too

[[Ru...]]

Oh I am still tapering just started titrating at 5 % am at 1.1875 mgs  was cutting .125 mgs every 2 weeks before that

[[Ru...]]

Really mmir I feel for you do you get any of the other wonky sx I get?

[[...]]

My worse symptoms are terror/fear/phobias, anhedonia, rage and irrational looping thoughts (plus the occasional akathisia ).

[[Ru...]]

Hey mmir do you ever feel so consumed by these thoughts that you don't really even know what is going on around you it's like being off in your own world? Do you ever feel like you are mentally loosing touch with reality. Not physically like dr but mentally you have such a sence of being sucked into your own head that you are loosing touch mentally. It's like a bomb could go off beside you and you wouldn't even know you are so locked in your own thought loop?

[[...]]

Yes, I do...I've actually been out of touch with reality for brief periods of time...happening less and less often though.