fine motor control issues anyone had this

[[Ru...]]

Sometimes I feel so confused or so out of it that it feels like I can't make my hands do what I want them to . It is an odd feeling almost like having ms as if I am loosing control of my hand movements and strength. It drives me insane. Like typing is hard and I get everything all mixed up. Has anyomne else experienced a loss in fine motor control mixed with confusion? Is this from wd. Also I can barely even sort out papers into order let alone write a letter cause I feel so confused has anyone experienced this?

[[sm...]]

 

My penmanship was bad enough before wd's, for a long time my wife couldn't read anything I wrote, it was mostly scribbles. And typing was a mother. Not only were my fingers doing the wrong thing but my benzo brain couldn't build a sentence in less than an hour. Things are getting better.

[[pu...]]

my fine motor skills go out the window especially when I am anxious or standing up and trying to do something. I get all jerky and look like someone with MS or some other disorder. It is one of the things that disturbs me the most.

[[Ru...]]

I just feel so incredibly out of it that I can barely function at all literally feel like a totally brain dead vegetable nothing around me makes any sence can't follow conversations or understand them can't make sence of what I read let alone write it I am so scared how severe this is and I don't know what to do anymore I don't know I can stand this for much longer thru the rest of my taper let alone after I just want it to all stop and be normal again and I can't seem to break out of this horrible wave. I just keep thinking how much better I was even a few months ago and how bad I am not. Am I doing this to myself?

[[Ru...]]

Hey smoke were you seriously that out of it and confused that it literally took you an hour to form a sentance? Were you terrified?

[[sm...]]

Hey smoke were you seriously that out of it and confused that it literally took you an hour to form a sentance? Were you terrified?

 

Yup,, for many many months I couldn't even sit in front of the computer to send an e-mail. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't relax my mind or body. That waxes and wanes now and I never know when I'll be hit with it.

 

 

[[La...]]

I now feel like I have dyslexia, typing at the keyboard is hard, I have to constantly check what I type as the letters are constantly reversed, this was through tolerance and now withdrawal and I have been on benzos for over 20 years, I somehow managed to work and keep a position that you really need all your wits about you, I have been off work for 6 months, non benzo related and I am dreading going back as I fear it has gottoen worse in withdrawal. hang in Ladygrace

[[Ru...]]

Hey guys thanks and smoke did you also feel severly confused most of the time?was this also why you couldn't form a sentance or was it just anxiety causing it I feel both the confusion and the anxiety. I am so fogged and confused I reel I am losing touch with reality lost in my own hesad and I can't even piece together any actions or rational thouights its insane I am terrified that my brain is completly fried it is like the moments of the day are all choppy and don't flow in normal reality and also I am so cofused even following step to step actions is almost impossible as I forget the next step before I even start it its like I go totally blank, is this all from anxiety. Or has anyone ever felt such extreeme confusion? This is insane

[[Ru...]]

I literally feel I am in psychosis almost totally losing touch with reality and being able to function normally in it. And this is from a slow taper what is going on with me I desperatly need help.

[[sm...]]

Hey guys thanks and smoke did you also feel severly confused most of the time?was this also why you couldn't form a sentance or was it just anxiety causing it I feel both the confusion and the anxiety. I am so fogged and confused I reel I am losing touch with reality lost in my own hesad and I can't even piece together any actions or rational thouights its insane I am terrified that my brain is completly fried it is like the moments of the day are all choppy and don't flow in normal reality and also I am so cofused even following step to step actions is almost impossible as I forget the next step before I even start it its like I go totally blank, is this all from anxiety. Or has anyone ever felt such extreeme confusion? This is insane

 

Yup, making decisions was nearly impossible. Just shutting off the little heater in our bathroom put me in a tizzy.

 

Emotions raged in every direction. It'll drive a person mad. Down deep there's still a voice that say's "Hang on, you'll make it".

 

 

[[Ru...]]

Hey smoke you were that confused that even trying to shut off a fan was confusing? Did this confusion obscure every action to the point that you just wanted to curl in a ball and rock back and fourth cause everything confused you so much every action step process etc even like writting a paragraph or even vaccuming unloading dishwasher etc. I can't even get the steps right to load a dish washer put soap in and press start let alone trying to function at work. My surrounding also feel so confusing were you really this utterly confused and out of it. Sorry for all the questions this is just so extreeme it is teRrifying.I don't know if I can even express in words the severe confusion I am feeling. It is like my brain is firing such mixed message and my memory is so bad that I am beyond repairable. Also if this severe confusion goes away in windows does this mean I still have a chance in hell of ever being normal again? And smoke why did just shutting off the bathroom heater put you in a tizzy

[[Ru...]]

Feel like my brain has totally shut down and can't even think or remember anything from minute to minute will totally loose my train of thought mid sentence I totally forget what was going on around me every few seconds . My rational mind does know what is going on around me but irriational mind keeps firing like crazy so I have absloutly no focus what so ever and therefore forget minute to minute and feel the day is so choppy anyone else experience this is this from extreeme panic . Has anyone else felt this way?

[[sm...]]

I have a trail system in the trees. There were many times when it was hard to make up my mind on which trail to walk. I would go home and try to sit only to have a fit after a few moments and I'd head back out to walk again. I've walked many many miles in the past couple of years with my head driving me nuts. Walked a lot of it bare footed which took my mind off things for a while.

 

Before benzo's I could repair anything and have a small shop to do it in. while in my worst condition I couldn't for the life of me do anything right. When I tried to do anything that took both physical and mental concentration I'd go bonkers. At times I would totally lose it for no reason. One example, I  had to check tire pressure in the wifes car, by the time I made it there with the hose and tire gauge I was shaking and completely blew my cool. The fancy tire gauge that I've had for nearly 20 years (not replaceable) got thrown in a fit of rage.  Boy am I glad things are getting better.

 

 

 

[[Ru...]]

Anyone else ever feel what I have tried to describe?

[[sm...]]

 

You need to empty your pm's. Capacity is very limited.

[[Ru...]]

So has no one else been this cognitivly and mentally and memory impaired from minute to minute other than me and smoke . This is insame is it just extreeme dr making me feel so out of it and forgetful and like I can't think my way out of a paper bag. Feel like I can't even write or read or make sence of anything around me the flow of reality and cognition seem gone

[[Ru...]]

I do find as the panic starts to receed all these horribly impaired feelings back off a bit could this crazy confusion and memory probs and motor skill probs be created out of extreeme panic?