My Brain Is So Weak and Tired All the Time...Normal?

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Every day my brain is so weak. It makes it so difficult to do anything. With my brain being so weak, everything is a challenge. Thinking, seeing, paying attention, remembering, living. I can actually feel how tired it is and it's painful. It feels like it wants to sleep all the time, but of course I can't anymore than the 5-6 hours each night. It's like this every day whether I have the other physical pains or not. I have so much trouble remembering events just from yesterday or throughout the night when I wake up. It's so bizarre. It feels so damaged and I'm so weak and tired from it. Will I ever be strong again? Is it just working so hard to fix everything? It's hurt for me to deal with it on a nonstop basis. I feel so broken...

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coop,

 

So sorry you're feeling this way but it is VERY normal for benzo wd. Your statement 'I feel so broken...' was the same way I felt in tolerance, during taper, and for a couple months post taper. It's torturous to feel so vulnerable, but its our brain's way of making sure we don't overtax ourselves while we are healing...I'm convinced of this. I'm 2 months free and just beginning to feel my strength coming back. Hang on...it'll get better...I promise!

 

Take care XXOO

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Hi coop, what dosage are you on.  I am at the end of my taper (maybe a week left) and I have been feeling the same for a good month

 

I hope this gets better for us when we finish the taper, I have heard that it can get wors at the end

 

Hang in there

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I'm at about .05 klonopin. Thought I would jump on leap day. It seemed fitting. A lot of people think I should hold, but I don't see much point holding this low, especially when holding didn't help before and probably caused me to become more dependent staying on it longer.

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I know it's a hard decision to stop or continue with the taper.... I will give myself another week and keep lowering my dose...and then I don't see the point in staying on it... I am even preparing myself that it could get a little worse before it gets better...It does scare me but I want to heal.

 

When I feel like you are now and I don't think I can take another second I take a small dose (15mg of gravol) it's a childs dosage. I guess it's comparable to benedryl. It might be all in my mind but I do feel it numbs me a little so I can get through the day even it's just lying on the couch.

 

I am not suggesting you take this but wonder if there is anything that you would feel safe taking that could help you through the really, really bad days...

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I actually have a prescription for hydroxyzine (antihistamine). I'm able to sleep so don't really need it for that, but I do sleep even better when I take it. It does seem to help a tad when I'm freaking out though. It doesn't really take away from the physical pain or the headaches, d/p, d/r, cog fog or any of that, but it does calm my emotional worry and fear the tiniest bit. I try and only take it every few days though. I don't know if it will lose it's effectiveness or somehow prolong recovery. I wish I knew how often and how much I could take because that small amount really does help me when I need it. Does anyone know if it's okay for recovery? Doesn't prolong anything, how often and how much?

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Heck, if I could sleep 5 or 6 hours a night. I would consider my self lucky.

 

endeavor to persevere.

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I know exactly what you mean about your brain being tired and weak.  There were times I couldn't concentrate enough to hardly read a leaflet.

 

fg

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I don't know, I had insomnia in the beginning and I thought I was doing bad then. Now the physical pains and torturous mental and emotional stuff are way worse and I barely hang on most days. I think I'm only able to fall asleep from the exhaustion of all I've endured each day. But this ongoing crazy head obsessive overthinking is what is making it so much worse.

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I see that you are at .05mg of K which is equal to .1mg of ativan (I think).... When I was at .1 mg of ativan my symptoms were REALLY BAD, now there a little better just enough to give me hope...I am still always exhausted but the depression and hopelessness are not as bad. I know how you feel, it's torturous, but I truly believe that we will all get through this.

 

 

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Coop,

 

I hope you turn the corner soon.  You may want to hold longer if you think you need to.  Just a thought.  I have been holding at my current dose for a long time because I have been unable to cut down any further and endure the horrific side effects associated with that.

 

Sincerely,

 

fg

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I take gravol (15mg) when I really need it, some weeks it was twice a week and when i had bad weeks I would take it as needed. I don't know much about it so I hope somebody els can help you out with the hydroxyzine question.

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I have taken Vistaril (Hydroxyzine) before (25 mg.) and it did help out with sleep and anxiety.  I think it is to be used short-term, however.  I am currently not taking it, since I don't need it anymore.  Here is an article on it:

 

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vistaril

 

Sincerely,

 

fg

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Hi Coop i c/t off hydrocodone and valium just a small amount i had taken for a short amount of time and bam total obsessive thoughts raicing brain music same song real loud over and over again sweating nausea so severe That was on january 7 im just now coming out of that one. I think its the hydrocodone myself. I could be wrong. I hope you are better soon.