Totally forget what it feels like when feeling good

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When in periods of feeling better I totally forget what my symptoms are like and even doubt I ever had them.  This sounds crazy to write right now b/c I am in heavy cog fog, but when my head feels good in the near future I will question whether there is anything actually wrong.

 

Am I the only one or does this mind trick happen to others too?

 

spatler

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I just don't remember what feeling good is like at all. This suffering is the only thing I know now. It's been so long, I'm not sure how I'll ever get it back.

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I've had this feeling in windows, Spatler, but right now, I feel like Coop.  

 

Good wishes to you both.

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Yal, I get this allthe time, like what the hell was I thinking, I am fine, then two hours later ready to got to the ER. You are not crazy(unless I am too).

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Yal, I get this allthe time, like what the hell was I thinking, I am fine, then two hours later ready to got to the ER. You are not crazy(unless I am too).

Same here, flea, same here...

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It,s windows... Then they close.  Just hang onto that you are getting windows.  The will stay open longer in time.  Pattylu

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Well, I got a glimpse of what normal is like in Dec so I am holding ot for more!

Its what keeps us going.

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Well, I got a glimpse of what normal is like in Dec so I am holding ot for more!

Its what keeps us going.

 

I as well.

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I see things through my present mood.

Lately I see life in blue.

I wish I could remove these shades.

But that's not the way this game is played.

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I'm right there with you,

Seems when I'm feeling OK I can scarcly remember how "bad" feels.  It seems to fade away so quickly and almost completely that I find myself questioning if it was as bad as it really was.  Unfortunately, the same thing applies when I'm feeling like crap.  No amount of imagining can bring to mind what "good" used to feel like.  I suppose in a way the fact that we can't remember how bad this is will turn out to be a blessing. 

 

I've actually wondered if this "amnesia" is one of the reasons why so few people return to write success stories.  Although I say I will write one, when I am feeling well the last thing I want to do is conjure up memories of just how bad things were.

Anyway, you are not alone on this one.

 

Take Care, Scott.

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I'm the same way.  When I am in a window, I feel like a normal person with simply normal problems and think "I'm better.  Whatever happens, I can handle it.  This is who I am."

 

When I am in a wave I think "I am never going to get better.  My life is ruined, and I am going to go nuts and kill myself."

 

I'm guessing that this is why so many people in withdrawal get diagnosed as bipolar

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well put  pfeff.