poor judgement / out of character behavior

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Has anyone experienced poor judgement or out of character behavior either while taking benzos, during tapering, or in withdrawal?

I remember going through a rather long phase of doing a lot of shopping while on high doses of clonazepam.  I'm usually careful about how I spend my money and cannot remember what drove me to constantly spend money during this time.

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during my withdrawal i would obsess over buying things. i spent thousands of dollars on clothes, shoes, etc that i did not need. i would obsess over something - convinced i needed it, buy it - and then move onto something else in the same exact manner. i feel that this is the OCD part of the withdrawal.

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mmgc,

 

I had some poor judgement while tapering the Benzo, as far as on it.. not that I recall. The shopping lol, is part of the OCD the Benzo throws at us. I know while tapering; I spent alot of money. I bought things I no longer care about.

 

Billy.

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Let me preface this by saying I've gambled responsibly and simply for fun througout much of my adult life but I went onto Ativan just as Texas Holdem' poker casinos went online.  Disinhibition and gambling...BAD combo.

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While I was tapering Xanax from fall 2009 to fall 2011, I was just me. Fairly hardworking, sensible. Got a little over the top with distress over sx (and wasn't connecting any of the emotion or sx with w/d), but got quickly upset and then calmed down.

 

Oh how things appear to have changed now, but only some of it is related to the experience I've had on K and trying to go back to X. Had to fix the furnace 3 times this winter and then the gas fireplace just went out. So therefore, I bought a new furnace, fireplace and air conditioner. And now the kitchen is being remodeled.

 

Some of it was planned tentatively in talking stages to happen in a "couple of years," but it's happening now. Not irresponsible; just couldn't have seen this happening before this experience of last 3 months. My husband also can really go on spending sprees, and when I'm struggling (this has happened before), he can take advantage of my weakness.

 

So it's a combo of that. But really, life is passing me by with all this benzo obsession. Better now than later with this I suppose. Oh yeah, the computer went blooey in Oct. Also got that too. Sometimes I feel fine about this when the logical mind is working cause I'm not getting any younger. Then when I'm feeling weird and vulnerable (which have become frequent feelings), up and down, I just get very obsessed and worried.

 

I've written my usual novel to answer this simple question.

 

Intend

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Poor judgement affects me too.

It's one step forward, two steps back.

I put obstacles in my own way.

It fills me with despair, wondering what stupid expensive mistake I am going to make next.