Anyone else experience rapid changes in mood all day before recovery?

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Hey, I'm kind of rephrasing this post to see if any success story people who made it to their major recovery, even if they still had a few lingering minor symptoms, could respond.

I'm at 7 months benzo free, and for over a month now on my bad days (most of my days, that is) my mood changes every 5 minutes. I used to go from bad hopelessness and anxiety to so-so feeling, like I could notice the lack of anxiety and bad thoughts. Now I still change back and forth, but I change from the bad hopelessness and anxiety to more of a good/I want to go outside and do something-type of feeling. But then 5 minutes later the bad feeling returns, and it frustrates me.

One guy said he felt this changing thing all day too, right before his recovery. Anybody else?

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I think the "Hot n Cold" song by Katy Perry adequately sums up mood that is affected by withdrawal.

 

I remember during a rough wave this past Summer, I told someone that one minute I felt like I have lost control... then the next minute it felt like I was able to talk myself out of it and maintain a positive outlook... then another 5 minutes the negative side made a valid point and the anxiety took over again.  It was an endless cycle for awhile.

 

Currently I am better in that area than I was back then.  The cycles are much more gradual now, although during hard waves it gets a little more prominent.

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I am at 1/16 mg Xanax 2x daily and have been holding for the past 20 days.  I used to cut every 7 days.  I have been holding because the last cut from 2/16 mg evening to 1/16 mg was really hard.  I have had an unusual amount of depression though the "usual" amount of physical symptoms. 

 

For the past few days my mods have been cycling every few hours just as you are describing.  it rally sucks.  It makes me want to hold even longer at this level.  I just want to "normalize out".  if I do not normalize at this level after another week (making it 4 weeks at this level) I will simply forge ahead and make another cut anyway.  I just don't know what else to do.  I was actually suicidal a few days ago and dealt with it as best I could and got through it.  I didn't say anything on here cause I knew it was "just" withdrawal and I didn't want to get overly emotional about it.  I am only sharing that because I know how F'd up it is to have your moods changing so much...

 

Wishing the best for you and for all of us!

 

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