Day 9. I could use some encouragement

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The nausea and vomiting got so bad that the doctor put me on a liquid diet. No more vomiting, but my stomach still isn't terribly excited about the situation. My fibromyalgia is flaring horribly out of control, but I'm afraid to take my Vicodin, for fear of throwing it back up. My whole body is just screaming. I genuinely don't know if I have ever, in my life, felt as bad as I feel right now.

 

My dreams are ridiculous. Long, vivid, cinematic productions, like I got when I first started taking Zoloft. Last night, I was a medical student doing a surgical rotation. While there wasn't anything particularly upsetting about the dream itself, I hate dreams like that because I don't feel rested when my mind plays such crazy movies while I'm trying to sleep.

 

I'm cranky and snappy and irritable. My dogs are annoying me. They're not doing anything wrong, just being in the room with me.  Today is, by far, the worst day I've had so far. I just feel miserable.  :'(

 

 

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I'm sorry you're suffering.

Hang in there. 

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Hi Cat. I'm sorry sits a flare day.

 

I have a fibro ddx, as well. Not convinced it isn't all just benzo. I don't know.

 

I started ton lose some of that burning pain when I switched to Valium. And then lower I go, the better it gets.  I have very far to go, but I rarely feel completely hopeless anymore.

 

Have you explored switching to Valium?

 

Hang in there!

Flip

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I wish I had the perfect thing to say to make you feel better.  All I can say is that I am now approaching 7 months off of Benzos and seeing improvement.  I had a very difficult taper, full of nausea, lack of appetite, chills, aches, nightmares, heightened anxiety and MANY more...and although I still am not fully "healed", it was amazing how quickly I began to see some improvement once I finished my taper.  I know your taper has just begun (from what I see in your signature), but taking it slowly and being patient is the way to go.  What you feel right now, does not mean you'll feel this way throughout your entire taper.  I found I had many ups and downs and my symptoms changed from time to time.  Remind yourself the side effects can't hurt you.  They can make you feel horrible and uncomfortable, but they can't do anything bad to you.  And these feelings never last.  I constantly reminded myself these things and it made things more bearable. 

 

Hang in there.  I made homemade ginger tea for my stomach and it often helped - even just to ease the nausea a bit.  Some people use the "Sea Bands" on their wrists (sold normally at your local pharmacy).  Nausea can be so debilitating - I know it well...but it does pass.

 

All the best,

Schatje

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Thank you so much for the kind words!

 

I've started feeling better.

 

My husband's co-worker brought her two kittens to his office and I got to go snuggle them!  They're like furry serotonin.

 

Now I'm teaching my night class (the kids are taking a break) and I realized I haven't felt symptomatic (except for a headache) since I got off the couch. Tomorrow, I am going to try to do more distracting activities instead of just watching endless junk on Netflix.

 

I was scared to push myself too hard, but it turns out a push is EXACTLY what I needed!

 

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Thank you so much for the kind words!

 

I've started feeling better.

My husband's co-worker brought her two kittens to his office and I got to go snuggle them!  They're like furry serotonin.

 

Now I'm teaching my night class (the kids are taking a break) and I realized I haven't felt symptomatic (except for a headache) since I got off the couch. Tomorrow, I am going to try to do more distracting activities instead of just watching endless junk on Netflix.

 

I was scared to push myself too hard, but it turns out a push is EXACTLY what I needed!

 

 

Kitten therapy is the best!

 

I'm glad your feeling better. We're here for you, Cat. You're not alone. 

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Glad to hear you're feeling better.