Questions for those who (sometimes?) manage to see the bright side 🔆

[[El...]]

Hello there. 

I have been inspired to start doing public speaking, in the form of videos, podcast and other possible format later on, with a live audience and one of the main subjects I want to speak about is the complex beautiful and painful experience of being medicated and making the choice of leaving it behind, one bit at a time. 

I have had many experiences with this process that taught me so many valuable things about myself and about life, about how I see the world, a situation, my own situation impacts tremendously my ability to live fulfilled, before I hit another hiccup and I feel the pain all over again and it's this wave of coming and going, coming to realisation with who I truly am and then going with the pain and letting it rip everything that makes up a mask, a pretense, stripping me down again til I can just say "I've had enough" and then once again, the wave of realisation hits me. 

Today is one of those waves of realisation. It's not a matter of "if" I will do public speaking, it's a matter of how and when. 

And as a part of my journey, with my life, as an artist, as someone going through withdrawal, as becoming and learning how to exist within myself in peace, I would like to ask you, very simply:

If you can reframe this experience of going through medication and then withdrawal, and perhaps you're already on the brighter side of it all and you're done with it (in that case, you're ahead of me) then can you tell me what going through this showed you? Taught you? What it gave you? 

This isn't disregarding the utmost pain and feelings of disability I (we) feel. This all coexist at the same time. And that is what I want to focus on and try to speak about. 

 

So if you have stuff to say, I'd love to read you. Everything I do is from a place of integrity and love, so I'm only asking to know that I'm not alone with these thoughts, and to perhaps inspire and feel inspired by others and their particular thoughts. 

I hope to read some of you, I'd love to read especially people's answers to that question who are still going through taper, but not at all exclusively. That's just because it's where I am at, right now. 

 

Alright. Peace out 😂

Ellie 

Edited December 2, 2024 by [El...]

[[st...]]

 

I think you are a very good writer. The world needs more inspirational, motivational people that have experience, compassion and commitment. Adding your personal story makes it even more real and believable in a way that captures one’s imagination to make the impossible possible.

The main thing this experience showed me is that we are stronger than we think. I can now do anything, have one success after another. It made me very stubborn and driven. The drug thought it could mess with me, but now nobody can mess with me. My anger turned to victory, my pain turned to strength, and my fear turned to courage beyond belief.

I wish you the best!

 

[[El...]]

Hello @[st...] and thank you so very much for this heartwarming message. 

I'm having a rough time lately with my body and how much it's processing so I need to break away from phone and computer but I am so glad to read all that you wrote. I understand what you said, I relate too, and I'm so glad that you think, like me, that we are needed to talk about our experience and to make the impossible feel possible. I'm grateful for your kindness, about my writing skills too. 

 

Thank you, in a nutshell. 

❤️