Bed bound?

[[jo...]]

I have been mostly bed bound since last April (my 3rd use of benzos).  After I came off that time I just thought it was depression and me being comfortable working remotely.  It wasn't until my final use this February that I found BB and learned what was happening to me. 

 

I have been extremely bed bound since then.  I forced myself out yesterday due to necessity and felt much better afterwards.  Please chime in with your experiences.  The only comfort in this nightmare is learning about other people's experiences. 

 

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  Who here is still mostly bed bound after jumping off benzos?
  
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  If mostly bed bound, for how long?
  
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  If functioning 'somewhat' normally and able to get out of bed, how long did it take you to get there?
  
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  Any other tips about creeping back into the world?
   
  

 

J

[[re...]]

Well I was never bed-bound, probably because I had a job and I couldn't afford to lose it. But I can see how people would want to just go to bed and stay there until they felt better. I think if possible we have to force ourselves to get up, get dressed, and get out, because if we do that, we usually feel better. I'm not sure why that is, but it does seem to improve the mood.

[[mo...]]

I was never bed bound.  There was no comfort in my bed. I wake up too early (2:30-3:00am) and I am in terror. I try to lay there for a couple of more hours (counting to 12, meditating, praying, begging for help, wishing I had died during the night). Finally when I can't stand it anymore I get up, get washed, and start exercising walking in the house. And so the damn day begins (again) - distracting, walking (outside and inside), eating, trying to rest on the couch, etc. - blah, blah, blah. When I walk outside I listen to music to keep me moving and this is the highlight of my day. By nighttime I feel so exhausted, my fear and anxiety actually quiets down and I can watch something on TV. I just can't believe, in the early morning it just starts all over again. But I am grateful for music and my ability to walk...

[[jo...]]

I was never bed bound.  There was no comfort in my bed. I wake up too early (2:30-3:00am) and I am in terror. I try to lay there for a couple of more hours (counting to 12, meditating, praying, begging for help, wishing I had died during the night). Finally when I can't stand it anymore I get up, get washed, and start exercising walking in the house. And so the damn day begins (again) - distracting, walking (outside and inside), eating, trying to rest on the couch, etc. - blah, blah, blah. When I walk outside I listen to music to keep me moving and this is the highlight of my day. By nighttime I feel so exhausted, my fear and anxiety actually quiets down and I can watch something on TV. I just can't believe, in the early morning it just starts all over again. But I am grateful for music and my ability to walk...

 

Walking and music is nice.  Looking forward to that.  How many hours of sleep do you get typically?

 

J

[[Ma...]]

You’re not alone. I’ve been bed bound for a couple of weeks. It’s quite legitimate. When you can, just try to walk outside. Then maybe walk a little further the next time! You’ll get there. And please, do not be too hard on yourself. Just do your very best-that’s all that’s expected of you!

[[mo...]]

I was never bed bound.  There was no comfort in my bed. I wake up too early (2:30-3:00am) and I am in terror. I try to lay there for a couple of more hours (counting to 12, meditating, praying, begging for help, wishing I had died during the night). Finally when I can't stand it anymore I get up, get washed, and start exercising walking in the house. And so the damn day begins (again) - distracting, walking (outside and inside), eating, trying to rest on the couch, etc. - blah, blah, blah. When I walk outside I listen to music to keep me moving and this is the highlight of my day. By nighttime I feel so exhausted, my fear and anxiety actually quiets down and I can watch something on TV. I just can't believe, in the early morning it just starts all over again. But I am grateful for music and my ability to walk...

 

Walking and music is nice.  Looking forward to that.  How many hours of sleep do you get typically?

 

J

 

I get probably 5 hours of restless sleep with many awakenings. But at least it's better than the three I used to get when I first started with this whole mess.

 

[[dj...]]

Well I was never bed-bound, probably because I had a job and I couldn't afford to lose it. But I can see how people would want to just go to bed and stay there until they felt better. I think if possible we have to force ourselves to get up, get dressed, and get out, because if we do that, we usually feel better. I'm not sure why that is, but it does seem to improve the mood.

 

No offense, but I think most of the people here who are bedbound are that way because that have so much muscle pain, weakness and fatigue that they really can’t move around much.  Not a depressive thing.  Even if they had a job they couldn’t afford to lose, they would have to lose it.  It’s simply not in the cards.  And for some people, even getting up and going into a workplace would be incredibly taxing physically and won’t make them feel better. 

 

Then there are people that are mostly housebound due to a combination of a lot of things - anxiety/terror, pain, depression, sensitivity to light/sound, you name it. 

 

These are the worst of the worst cases but they do happen.  I’m sure some people here have severe mental problems, but that most led productive lives until their tapers/discontinuation.  I don’t believe people came to this site because they were horribly depressed and needed an excuse.

 

Also, the ranges in severity of BIND symptoms is wildly different.  You may find someone here who has the same symptoms as you but are wildly worse, or a lot more benign.