Who updosed and went on to have a successful taper? NO horror stories please

[[Ma...]]

I had a successful taper til 2 mg. Then I went into acute from tapering too fast. Symptoms came on  around sept. 1 and didn’t realize it was wd . (I know, incredibly dumb)so symptoms got worse for 2 months when I almost had a seizure and realized it was wd. Updosed .75 On Nov 3 and Held 3.5 months. Got worse with acute symptoms again. I felt I was dying and had to updose 1 more mg. Feeling better physically but tormented that I wiped out 1.5 year of tapering and I’ve added years taking this poison. I have looping thoughts about this failure many hours a day..Would love some encouragement of stories like mine with a successful taper. Please no negative comments.

[[He...]]

Magnolia

 

I’m not taking Valium.  I take clonazepam.  I updosed a year ago when I was basically ready to stop.  I had a serious workplace accident, list my job, had to relocate and started having panic attacks.  Could have been the stress, or wd, or both.  But I started over.  I went back to my original dose.  Now a year later, I’m way down again and maybe a month from stopping.  It was harder to titrate this time, I hit tolerance faster, etc.  But, I’m still going forward.  It’s not a horror story.  It’s a lesson.  I’m healing.  I will not ever updose it take these meds again. 

[[va...]]

I had a successful taper til 2 mg. Then I went into acute from tapering too fast. Symptoms came on  around sept. 1 and didn’t realize it was wd . (I know, incredibly dumb)so symptoms got worse for 2 months when I almost had a seizure and realized it was wd. Updosed .75 On Nov 3 and Held 3.5 months. Got worse with acute symptoms again. I felt I was dying and had to updose 1 more mg. Feeling better physically but tormented that I wiped out 1.5 year of tapering and I’ve added years taking this poison. I have looping thoughts about this failure many hours a day..Would love some encouragement of stories like mine with a successful taper. Please no negative comments.

 

Hi dear Magnolis. That I know of: Olive Kitty, Begood (reinstated), and Dana reinstated and is tapering. She's not off but she's stable. Don't regret the updose. It doesn't help us at all to regret what's done. The psychiatrist insisted on this in my last visit and it's true.

[[Ma...]]

Val,

Do you think you would be in your positive healing state now without the 2nd updose?

[[Ma...]]

Is reinstatement and updose the same thing?

[[ki...]]

Magnolis, I am doing pretty well with my taper after jumping in mid-October last year and reinstating a few days later (acute hit me about 36 hrs after I jumped and it was rough). I also tapered too fast. At first the rate was fine, but I should’ve slowed down instead of speeding up at the end. After reinstating I updosed from .75 mg to 4 mg and held for a little over a month. I wasn’t perfectly stable when I started tapering again, but good enough that I knew I wanted to start working my way down. This taper hasn’t been as easy as the last, but I can feel that I’m healing and my symptoms are lessening with time.

 

Reinstating = stopping the drug completely and then taking it again

Updose - You never stopped taking the drug, you just increased your dose

[[Ma...]]

Thanks. That’s comforting to hear.

[[Ro...]]

When did you feel, that the amount is enough? It’s a big updose. How did yo do this updose? How do yoy feel now?

 

Thanks

Enikô

 

Magnolis, I am doing pretty well with my taper after jumping in mid-October last year and reinstating a few days later (acute hit me about 36 hrs after I jumped and it was rough). I also tapered too fast. At first the rate was fine, but I should’ve slowed down instead of speeding up at the end. After reinstating I updosed from .75 mg to 4 mg and held for a little over a month. I wasn’t perfectly stable when I started tapering again, but good enough that I knew I wanted to start working my way down. This taper hasn’t been as easy as the last, but I can feel that I’m healing and my symptoms are lessening with time.

 

Reinstating = stopping the drug completely and then taking it again

Updose - You never stopped taking the drug, you just increased your dose

[[ki...]]

Eniko, I went straight from .75 mg to 4 mg V. I didn’t try any doses in between. A friend who is also tapering suggested I go back to the dose I remember feeling well at still. While I felt pretty good up until after I jumped, I realized that I had been experiencing withdrawal symptoms for a while that I had attributed to other things. That’s how I chose 4 mg. I keep a journal so I know my dose and what symptoms I had at that dose.

 

This taper hasn’t been nearly as easy. I have good days and bad, lately I’ve been having more good days though.

 

When did you feel, that the amount is enough? It’s a big updose. How did yo do this updose? How do yoy feel now?

 

Thanks

Enikô

 

Magnolis, I am doing pretty well with my taper after jumping in mid-October last year and reinstating a few days later (acute hit me about 36 hrs after I jumped and it was rough). I also tapered too fast. At first the rate was fine, but I should’ve slowed down instead of speeding up at the end. After reinstating I updosed from .75 mg to 4 mg and held for a little over a month. I wasn’t perfectly stable when I started tapering again, but good enough that I knew I wanted to start working my way down. This taper hasn’t been as easy as the last, but I can feel that I’m healing and my symptoms are lessening with time.

 

Reinstating = stopping the drug completely and then taking it again

Updose - You never stopped taking the drug, you just increased your dose

[[ja...]]

Hi Magnolis. 

I think you are doing great.  Just before I connected on here these last few months,  I dropped too fast.  I went from 3 to 2mg Valium in an attempt to hurry things along. 

 

I was in trouble!  I was struggling to breathe! Muscle spasms, terrible head pain - and so on.  I went to my doctor who is along for the ride and is supportive, and I wanted to quit my taper (I'm about a year and 1/2 in by then!).  I wanted to go back to 10mg/day, admitting failure.  He encouraged me to 5mg/day just in case I changed my mind.  So I jumped back up to 6mg and, within the week - after a wee break from the worst of my symptoms, I realized that I was hitting tolerance. 

 

I wanted to continue my taper!  So my updose lasted for 6 days?  I went right back to 3mg. with no serious problems. 

So now I am at 1mg/day.  My updose was a blip on the screen.  It helped me move forward.