Panic attacks setback, is it a thing ?

[[Sk...]]

I didn't had a lot of panic attack during my life. The first one occured 2 weeks after taking benzos, less than 1 year ago. When I quit all medications, I had some panic attacks here and there, and they vanished for a few months, replaced by a global anxiety feeling.

 

Here I am at month 7, with multiple panick attacks per day since last week. They also seem to morph into something new, it doesn't feel the same. It's like for 1 sec my brain is sure my heart stopped beating and I can't breathe. It happens only for 1 or 2 seconds, then I go deep breathing and feel better... Just for another panic attack to come when I feel relax.

 

This is nonsense. I am the only one who experienced more panic attacks after such a long time ? I'm doing therapy and worked my ass off to control the panic attacks with exposure therapy and CBT. I feel just like everything I did was for NOTHING.

 

I'm so desperated... I don't understand what's going on since last week, it's beyond my understanding. My body and mind are gone totally wild with no apparent reason. I even had my first REAL WINDOW 8 days ago where I was just calm, serene and eager to discover the world, with NO anxiety.

 

It can't be benzo withdrawal, not after only 8 weeks of using them, or can it ?

[[cr...]]

This happened to me three weeks ago driving. I was doing so good and had a panic attack while driving and ever since, I’ve been a mess again. It’s ridiculous. Ever since that panic attack, I’ve had a host of head problems that wasn’t this bad before. Like you, I don’t understand and I want it to end.

[[de...]]

First up.  I haven't been around much because needed a break.  It was helpful, but now....here I am, again.  No sobbing.  Just over it.  Twelve months for me on 1st March.  The ides of March. 

 

I think it is WD Skalliz.  I haven't had a complete return of panic attacks, but feel to be brinking on one daily.  Today is a little better than yesterday. 

 

A return of somewhat vague hallucinations where I don't see a spider, but spiders lurk vaguely in my consciousness, and from my peripheral vision.  I know they are not real, but still very taxing.  When I think sensibly about it I'm sure it's all based in fear, flight and fight, messed up cns.

 

Fear, sorrow, abounds. Scared, and angry.  Will this really end?  YES!  It must. 

 

I don't want to frighten anyone, but this is crap. 

 

I'm encouraged further, in that when walking through the city about a week ago I had a complete return to old self.  Almost.  And then it vanished.  Boo hoo. 

 

Head's not in a good place.  Still derealised.  But for some inexplicable reason I believe I am going to make it out alive. 

 

Also hips, muscle, joint pain. Found it difficult to walk around the other day.  Today improved, which tells me it must be WD.  Things just don't come and go like that. 

 

My best wishes to everyone experiencing this in its intensity. 

 

 

 

 

[Guest [Fi...]]

Well...there is one thing for sure.  This shitty shit shit shit shit is not over until it’s over.  Thank you very much benzo hell for resurfacing this month.  I apologize BBs for being MIA but I have been so darn miserable all I can do is sit and cry...the depression is probably my worst symptom...second would be the shear panic and fear of impending doom...nightmares...restlessness.  Does this story end?!?!?  I know this is a waiting game.  If I would have had the option of never taking these Freaking gosh for saken poisonous drugs and could have exchanged anything I would.

 

Someone, somewhere, somehow, needs to develop a remedy.  This is NOT okay!  Not not not! 

 

Things are incredibly rough over here these days.  I would give anything to have my mind back...I am confused, in pain, depressed...and have zero tolerance for exercise lately...or stress.  I do not feel like eating, and I dont care what happens to me anyone.  I’m throwing up my white flag.  Surrender...maybe something will give.

 

I hope You all are stronger than me these days. I hope I can pass a little of that to you.

 

Love,

FL

[Guest [Fi...]]

I mean Pass a little strength that I dont have...I just wanted to clarify.

[[Ma...]]

It may feel like a panic attack, but when our brains are damaged by benzos, we can have just a sudden rush of neurotransmitters misfiring that feels exactly like a panic attack.  A lot of really strange sensations go on in our brains. It sounds like the breathing exercises are helping you.  Please try not to overthink or get really alarmed over these sensations, as the more you get upset over them the more stress you put on your brain and nervous system.  Hopefully this will pass.