I am SO ready for this #@$!! to be OVER!!

[[do...]]

Greetings, fellow sufferers--

 

  I do not care if anyone reads this comment. I just need to say that I feel like CRAP. My head hurts, my guts are torqued & I am tired of being a good sport about it.

 

    THIS BLOWS!!

 

    Honestly. I would like to make every doctor who ever prescribed benzos go through this with us. Now. It would make them more responsible & build their character!

 

    My most annoying symptoms--at 4 months clean--include: hideous metallic taste in mouth, torqued GI tract, headache, joint stiffness, & dizziness.

I've also found that my Brain Is On Holiday! I wander from place to place wondering what I meant to do there. My memory is shot. I babble to people & wonder, mid-babble, why I even opened my mouth. These behaviors strain my already minimal social skill set. Luckily, I have two Rottweilers who still think I am great. I can only assume I've managed to feed them semi-regularly. (Big plus. Nobody wants a hungry Rott in the house.)

 

    So, to reiterate, THIS BLOWS!!   

 

      I know that everyone has a different schedule but if any of you Old Timers out there could give a hint, at least, about when you passed through the Four Stages of Benzo Recovery Hell it could give us newbies a ray of hope. Then again, maybe it's better we don't know. It could be quite depressing if there is LOTS more of this ahead.

     

      In closing, I'd like to say that this blows. Thank you. Doveswann

 

     

[[Sk...]]

Hey, I jumped 3 days after you. I'm happy to read your post because I feel like shit also these days, after a month where I somehow managed my symptoms (only mental for me now).

 

I'll be back to read the answers.

 

About the timeline I remembered that last summer, I thought that there was no way this shit show would last 3 months. Now I somehow accepted that it could last 1 year. And when I'll hit the first birthday, I guess I would say "let's wait a little bit more... Maybe it's only benzos and I don't really have a chronic mental illness".

 

My cat helps me a lot too. Animals are such a wonderful emotional support 

Best wishes buddy of july 2019 

 

Edit: it seems I mistake the date format. In my country it's DD/MM/AAAA... Sorry... 

[[do...]]

Thanks for your comment! It's actually encouraging that you're ahead of me on the recovery road.  iI's easier to identify with someone who is just a few months ahead than a few years ahead. The experience of early recovery is much more immediate for you (unfortunately).

 

Yes, animals are where it's at. Having 2 big dogs makes me feel like a person living without Adult Supervision--they get to lie on the furniture & sleep on the bed. Plus, animals seem to suck up bad vibes like sponges which helps a lot during recovery. Your kitty is adorable & the photo is hilarious!

 

Let's see who else is ready for this crap to be over...

[[Pa...]]

My last day was November 22. I thought I would be fine by Christmas. Guess again. I feel worse now then I did a month ago. For the last two weeks I get a shaky weird feeling after I eat. My vision is all crazy. I just want this over already.

[[re...]]

I quit in July and can't say there have been any windows outside a few hours here and there.  Just trying to be patient and not expect quick results.

 

Cheers

RR

[[de...]]

Twelve months off on 1st March, 2020.  Valium. 

 

Thought I was out out of the woods, guess again.  It's BLOWING like a whale again.  Hips are totally killing.  Not good mentally.  So totally over it. 

 

Anger has presented for first time.  Next door neighbour said she'd like to "have a chat" about something.  I wanted to scream, "I don't chat, I TALK!" 

 

There goes the neighbourhood.

 

Disclaimer:  Not everyone suffers still at 12 months off. 

[[Su...]]

@[do...]

You mentioned your guts/GI are torqued. Could you describe that symptom in more detail? Is it abdominal cramps? Is it on both sides?

SG

[[Sk...]]

I quit in July and can't say there have been any windows outside a few hours here and there.  Just trying to be patient and not expect quick results.

 

Cheers

RR

Quit in july, some too short windows also. But this month is nastier than some I had early. Where is the logic ? Will it end someday eventually ?

 

Now I'm beggining to firmly believe that it's not benzos, it's ME the problem and my thoughts. How can I feel like this after using benzos only 2 months. That's nonsense...

 

I'm loosing my patience in this process. I hope I won't live like this for the rest of my life, there are so much things I want to enjoy before I die from old age in 50 years. .. 

 

I'm so ready for this shit show to end !

[[Gi...]]

Greetings, fellow sufferers--

 

  I do not care if anyone reads this comment. I just need to say that I feel like CRAP. My head hurts, my guts are torqued & I am tired of being a good sport about it.

 

    THIS BLOWS!!

 

    Honestly. I would like to make every doctor who ever prescribed benzos go through this with us. Now. It would make them more responsible & build their character!

 

    My most annoying symptoms--at 4 months clean--include: hideous metallic taste in mouth, torqued GI tract, headache, joint stiffness, & dizziness.

I've also found that my Brain Is On Holiday! I wander from place to place wondering what I meant to do there. My memory is shot. I babble to people & wonder, mid-babble, why I even opened my mouth. These behaviors strain my already minimal social skill set. Luckily, I have two Rottweilers who still think I am great. I can only assume I've managed to feed them semi-regularly. (Big plus. Nobody wants a hungry Rott in the house.)

 

    So, to reiterate, THIS BLOWS!!   

 

      I know that everyone has a different schedule but if any of you Old Timers out there could give a hint, at least, about when you passed through the Four Stages of Benzo Recovery Hell it could give us newbies a ray of hope. Then again, maybe it's better we don't know. It could be quite depressing if there is LOTS more of this ahead.

     

      In closing, I'd like to say that this blows. Thank you. Doveswann

 

   

 

Doveswan,

 

You sound as if you have a good fighting spirit and that’s going to be so important to keep.

 

It could be a while before you’re out of this storm but I got to a point where I took back control. When you get to that point - about 8 months for me - the symptoms still come but I found acceptance and patience. Before then I was just at it’s beck and call and feeling very ill.

 

Accept and distract were Sofa’s key lessons for me. Easier to do now though.

 

Good luck,

 

G

[[pi...]]

Hello doveswan,

 

4 months off is very early in the recovery phase of withdrawal. The good thing is that you are off benzos and the farther you get from them, the closer you get to healing.

 

I know, I also expected to be well at 3 months, 6 months, etc.  Benzo withdrawal is not predictable and healing not linear.  I see you are 'shouting' at your symptoms. I did this many times. I remember dog sitting for my daughter and yelling at my symptoms while walking the dog. 

 

Finally I knew I had to have patience and accept the process.  I also used many forms of distraction as often as possible.  It was well worth the effort, IMO. I healed and a healthy life free of benzos is pretty amazing.

 

pianogirl 

[[re...]]

I healed and a healthy life free of benzos is pretty amazing.

 

pianogirl 

 

Those words are music to my ears pianogirl 

[[Do...]]

http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=152232.0

 

 

Hey guys, just in case ya need this thread.  It can be a useful tool.

[[...]]

Twelve months off on 1st March, 2020.  Valium. 

 

Thought I was out out of the woods, guess again.  It's BLOWING like a whale again.  Hips are totally killing.  Not good mentally.  So totally over it. 

 

Anger has presented for first time.  Next door neighbour said she'd like to "have a chat" about something.  I wanted to scream, "I don't chat, I TALK!" 

 

There goes the neighbourhood.

 

Disclaimer:  Not everyone suffers still at 12 months off.

Im 12 months out march 1st as well. I just got done with a wicked wave. keep trucking.