Fear of Future Events

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I know I've posted about this before, but whenever I think of a future event that should be fun, I freak out and get really self-defeated, thinking there is no way I can do this now. If not that, I worry about how I'm going to feel at that time. For instance, I might go to a work-related conference in early April but I'm scared to go alone, thinking what if I can't do it. Also, there is a concert in May in Spokane that I really want to go to but I'm scared of going. In 2014, I did the exact same drive to Spokane to see the same artist and enjoyed it.

 

I have the exact same fear when thinking of having the whole summer off because I'm a teacher. Like I'm scared of the off time.

 

Is the fear of future events ever going to go away?

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Anybody?

[[Ch...]]

Anticipation is nearly always worse than reality for some time post withdrawal. I can say it went away for me a long time ago, but I’m nearly 8 years out now and can’t remember when it stopped.  Things quietly fizzle out and you don’t really notice when they’re gone for good. 

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I also experience this. It is a feeling that everything becomes overwhelming. I know I’ll not solve these problems by burying my head in the sand (for example, a visit to the dentist). But right now, this is the only thing I can do. Otherwise, I get so nervous and stressed. This is not normal, but I can't handle it any other way. I want my life back when I work in a more realistic way.

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I relate to this, I have to say at 32 months off now I’m seeing some improvements. Earlier on I would dread most upcoming events and usually try to get out of it. I mine who knows how I’ll be feeling, I could be in a monster wave and stuck on the couch. I’m a little better now, I’m not as fearful, although I don’t have anything upcoming so who knows. I’m not at the point of looking forward to things, one day I hope to get there.

[[Be...]]

Yes, I've had this fear of upcoming events. As you start to feel better it starts to diminish. You start to going to these events, concerts, weddings, conferences, etc. without any wonder of what if? At some time after that you start to challenge yourself a bit more and do even more (travel). I still have issues with dentist/doctor stuff but not as bad as it was. I have to go and get a root canal tomorrow and I have a bit more than a normal dread. It will pass.

 

Becky 

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I relate to this, I have to say at 32 months off now I’m seeing some improvements. Earlier on I would dread most upcoming events and usually try to get out of it. I mine who knows how I’ll be feeling, I could be in a monster wave and stuck on the couch. I’m a little better now, I’m not as fearful, although I don’t have anything upcoming so who knows. I’m not at the point of looking forward to things, one day I hope to get there.

 

It's really hard going through this for so long. I know you have been struggling with depression and fatigue. Are those things getting any better for you?

 

The same thing is going on for me. I just don't have the excitement towards upcoming events that I once did. The main one I notice is concerts. I just don't want to go anymore and I used to love them. Then when the feeling lifts and it seems like I want to go to them, I start having a really hard time with the anxiety about the event.

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Yes, I've had this fear of upcoming events. As you start to feel better it starts to diminish. You start to going to these events, concerts, weddings, conferences, etc. without any wonder of what if? At some time after that you start to challenge yourself a bit more and do even more (travel). I still have issues with dentist/doctor stuff but not as bad as it was. I have to go and get a root canal tomorrow and I have a bit more than a normal dread. It will pass.

 

Becky 

 

How has the remeron helped you, or has it?

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It only helped with sleep, but I wake up groggy and feel like a drank whiskey for a few hours last night. Made me fat, lazy, joint pain, blurry eyes, blah blah blah, the list goes on.

 

Becky

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Okay. None of this stuff seems to work long-term. I'm really dealing with anger, sadness, apathy, and fear now. No energy. I wonder when any of this actually goes away if it ever does.

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I relate to this, I have to say at 32 months off now I’m seeing some improvements. Earlier on I would dread most upcoming events and usually try to get out of it. I mine who knows how I’ll be feeling, I could be in a monster wave and stuck on the couch. I’m a little better now, I’m not as fearful, although I don’t have anything upcoming so who knows. I’m not at the point of looking forward to things, one day I hope to get there.

 

It's really hard going through this for so long. I know you have been struggling with depression and fatigue. Are those things getting any better for you?

 

The same thing is going on for me. I just don't have the excitement towards upcoming events that I once did. The main one I notice is concerts. I just don't want to go anymore and I used to love them. Then when the feeling lifts and it seems like I want to go to them, I start having a really hard time with the anxiety about the event.

 

 

My depression is a lot better, I still find it hard to feel excitement or joy but I don’t have that black despair that used to haunt me. I still have fatigue, I have some days when it’s less, but I don’t have my old energy. I used to exercise a lot and be busy with something all day, now I need to rest a lot and almost never have energy to do anything outside of work (and I only work part time). Fatigue is definitely my most enduring symptom

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Again we have the same symptoms boom....

And then when I actually go do things I worried about, it turns out fine

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Meganz, do you get out of the house and do things? I'm still working so I don't really fear going to work. I fear doing anything outside the ordinary.