Going to a 28 day rehab tomorrow-don't hate please

[[No...]]

I know this isn't necessarily advisable, but tomorrow I am going to a 28 day rehab facility. They will detox me, but not cold turkey me. I'm scared to death to go, but I'm scared to death to not go. I am afraid. Afraid of not feeling better, afraid of never getting back to myself. This morning I was suicidal and just couldn't get up and go through the day again. Every day I put my full amount of positivity into myself and day and nothing changes. I wake up in the morning with the same sense of dread that hit me around Christmas last year, about two months into taking Ativan. The benzos have caused me to become depressed, which I never was until benzos came into my life. I have been hospitalized twice, and the new psych I got after the hospital, an Addiction Specialist, has really done nothing besides give me a high dose of 80 mg Prozac and put me on Seroquel. She diagnosed me with PMDD, which I'm sure I have, so last week I got out my Mirena and started taking Nikki, which is the generic form of Yaz. I have been a complete wreck since then. I've had horrible nausea and what feels like PMS although my period is weeks away. The doctor says it will take a couple of months to work. I have been allowed to taper by 5% starting last week, but there are no plans to move forward with the taper.  My doc just keeps saying I'm not ready. I've just lost faith. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results. I was driving myself back to the hospital this morning and just decided I wasn't going back there. I'm doing something different. To those who pray, please pray for me, and if you're just spiritual, please send out some positive vibes that this will go somewhat smoothly. Thanks bbs.

 

 

[[Bl...]]

Just make sure they go slow with you!!! Please take care! Positive vibes coming your way right now! ❤, BLL

[[No...]]

Just make sure they go slow with you!!! Please take care! Positive vibes coming your way right now! ❤, BLL

 

Thank you, BLL. I'm terrified. My mother won't speak to me. I have three kids under the age of 14, who have been dealing with having half a mom for the past year and now I'm going to be gone for 28 days. Who knows what I will be like when I get out. The horror stories have literally scared the living daylights out of me and my doctor has, too. She doesn't know I'm going. I just want my life back.

[[De...]]

I am sorry you are going thru this. I know.how you feel. Make sure they go slow. Make sure you kmow what drugs they are giving you in there to be on the safe side. Inam wishing you the best.

[[No...]]

I am sorry you are going thru this. I know.how you feel. Make sure they go slow. Make sure you kmow what drugs they are giving you in there to be on the safe side. Inam wishing you the best.

 

Thank you! We have all been dealt a pretty crappy hand, huh? There is no easy answer when it comes to benzos.

 

[[Ma...]]

How many meds will you be put off in 28 days then?

[[Ma...]]

Nomore, no judgement here.  This is so hard, but the one thing I ask, is you let them know, you are in charge and will be given no drug without a full discussion with you and you will be tapered slowly.  You are paying, they work for you.  I know you are sick but you have to advocate for you.  Sending you lots of my kind of prayers and love.  Please keep us informed.  Mary 💜💜💜

[[pr...]]

Praying for you that it will work out and you will be okay.

 

PG

[[No...]]

Nomore, no judgement here.  This is so hard, but the one thing I ask, is you let them know, you are in charge and will be given no drug without a full discussion with you and you will be tapered slowly.  You are paying, they work for you.  I know you are sick but you have to advocate for you.  Sending you lots of my kind of prayers and love.  Please keep us informed.  Mary 💜💜💜

 

Thanks, Mary. Don't worry. I am going to ask about every little thing. I don't want to trade one dependence for another. I know this will be hard.

[[Ni...]]

I’ve gone from 8mg of Klonopin to 0.31mg right now.  You can do it.  It’s not easy, but you’ll be stronger on the other side of it all.

[[wa...]]

Absolutely no judgment here!

There really needs to be some sort of better way for us to do this, like a rehab dedicated to helping people get free of benzos.

Maybe someday there will be greater understanding and a safe place for this.

Praying for you to find support and kindness here.

[[De...]]

Nope. No easy answer for benzos. Good luck.  Wishing you the best.

[[mi...]]

Just like everyone else here, i wish you the best. I went into a detox as well but I cannot lie, it was not what I thought. They treat you like you are an addict when instead, you are physically dependent on the benzo. These two things are entirely different. Please speak with someone there about this and see if they agree with that assessment. Otherwise, they will have you going to addiction classes and will try to taper you quicker than they should. I say this because it’s what happened to me.

 

Trust me I’m not judging you at all by saying this but just like many on this entire site, I don’t believe very many people can rapid detox from a benzo with success in just 28 days without having lingering issues. I’ve been there, and it didn’t work for me at all, was a terrible experience and I was only on 1

.25 mgs of Klonopin. I feel a very slow taper would work once you stabilize on the amount you are currently on. That’s what I’m doing now. Took me six months to stabilize after detox and now I’ve started a very slow taper of .005 mgs every five days. So far, so good.

 

That being said, Hopefully, you will have a positive experience and it will work for you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

[[An...]]

I wish you the best but I had almost a month stay in one in 2006 and almost died. I will never do this again or recommend to anyone.