Derealisation

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To my fellows, derealised 

 

Seven months out Today and have had partial emergence from the torment.  I hope it continues. 

 

Just to give you hope, as I know how horrible it can be. 

 

Dee

 

 

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Hi. Hows it going?

Could you describe what derealization is like?

I've felt like shit before but i always wanted to know what DP and DR are.

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To my fellows, derealised 

 

Seven months out Today and have had partial emergence from the torment.  I hope it continues. 

 

Just to give you hope, as I know how horrible it can be. 

 

Dee

 

That's awesome, Dee!

 

I just realized that I haven't had any DP/DR for a couple of weeks. That and the really odd visuals are gone now too. Seems like the brain is getting back on track...

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That's great Think that you haven't lived derealised for a couple of weeks.  Your brain getting back on track.   

 

I've had it since tolerance, and where my psych wanted to prescribe an anti psychotic.  I knew that I wasn't psychotic, but could not explain to him.  So lonely being misunderstood.  The break I had yesterday gave me hope. 

 

For me, Aspiring Botanist, derealisation has me feel as though I am looking through a veil, through a pane of glass, where everything is just out of reach.  My eyes try, but to no avail. 

 

Disconnected from the 'real' world.  Any connection I do make has no real depth to it.  I know it's 'there', but I can't seem to connect.  The world does not feel familiar to me.  It's still the same world, but a distant world.  I don't seem to be able to really 'touch' it.  It's lonely and horrible, and wish it would stop. 

 

After it goes away I'm going to love this sorry old world like never before. 

 

Dee

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deadwoodgone That is a great description and has been my state for seven months. It got slightly better after acute but it never seems to lift. So happy for you!  I'm starting to worry its another medication I'm still on making it worse which could be but since you are around the same time off as me and its just lifting for you that gives me hope it may lift for me too soon.

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That's great Think that you haven't lived derealised for a couple of weeks.  Your brain getting back on track.   

 

I've had it since tolerance, and where my psych wanted to prescribe an anti psychotic.  I knew that I wasn't psychotic, but could not explain to him.  So lonely being misunderstood.  The break I had yesterday gave me hope. 

 

 

Yes! People don't realize that psychiatry is a toolbox with one tool in it: meds. And if those don't work, too bad. My psych is really good but she is always stating "I want to go forward in time 100 years and see what drugs they have then."

 

 

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Thanks for links bluepm. 

 

I have experienced a fair amount of trauma in my life, and what with trauma of withdrawal benzo's, and awful reaction to a/d's, no wonder I've exited Stage Left. 🏃 🚴  I'm hoping time will see me settle, and I can touch a flower 🌺 for real one day.  Sooner, rather than later. 

 

I'm glad I could describe my experience to you sunlit.  It's so difficult to explain, and thought maybe I hadn't succeeded. 

 

I'm going to apply advices on links sent by bluepm.  Outside of that, I think it is only Old Father Time who is going to set us free.  My experience from yesterday, says that He will.  And about time a bloke did the right thing by me. 

 

Let's try take it easy sunlit, go with the flow, and take the back roads.  We'll get there in Time. 

 

Too true about doctors and meds Think.  Out of one miserable description of this symptom to my now ex psychiatrist he was ready, script in hand, to prescribe me an anti psychotic.  Shame on him.

 

Onwards we go. 

 

Dee

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I've had DR/DP for 18 months.

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I'm sorry Boombox.  Total crap, I know. 

 

About the same time for me, maybe a bit longer.  Since tolerance, when I told my psychiatrist.  That was March '17, if my memory serves me well.  My experience of yesterday really gave me hope. 

 

Just gotta keep the faith Boombox.  I firmly believe we will eventually be free.

 

Dee

 

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That's great Think that you haven't lived derealised for a couple of weeks.  Your brain getting back on track.   

 

I've had it since tolerance, and where my psych wanted to prescribe an anti psychotic.  I knew that I wasn't psychotic, but could not explain to him.  So lonely being misunderstood.  The break I had yesterday gave me hope. 

 

For me, Aspiring Botanist, derealisation has me feel as though I am looking through a veil, through a pane of glass, where everything is just out of reach.  My eyes try, but to no avail. 

 

Disconnected from the 'real' world.  Any connection I do make has no real depth to it.  I know it's 'there', but I can't seem to connect.  The world does not feel familiar to me.  It's still the same world, but a distant world.  I don't seem to be able to really 'touch' it.  It's lonely and horrible, and wish it would stop. 

 

After it goes away I'm going to love this sorry old world like never before. 

 

Dee

 

Omg, you described exactly what i felt like after taking Olanzapine the first time, back in 2015.

It is definitely a weird and awful thing to experience.

My last doctor told me i was having DP when i told her i was feeling strange. But now i know it wasnt because nothing i've ever felt before compared to that feeling when i took Zyprexa. Thank god i'm off it.

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That's great Think that you haven't lived derealised for a couple of weeks.  Your brain getting back on track.   

 

I've had it since tolerance, and where my psych wanted to prescribe an anti psychotic.  I knew that I wasn't psychotic, but could not explain to him.  So lonely being misunderstood.  The break I had yesterday gave me hope. 

 

For me, Aspiring Botanist, derealisation has me feel as though I am looking through a veil, through a pane of glass, where everything is just out of reach.  My eyes try, but to no avail. 

 

Disconnected from the 'real' world.  Any connection I do make has no real depth to it.  I know it's 'there', but I can't seem to connect.  The world does not feel familiar to me.  It's still the same world, but a distant world.  I don't seem to be able to really 'touch' it.  It's lonely and horrible, and wish it would stop. 

 

After it goes away I'm going to love this sorry old world like never before. 

 

Dee

 

Omg, you described exactly what i felt like after taking Olanzapine for the first time, back in 2015.

It is definitely a weird and awful thing to experience. I remember looking around and knowing everything there was around me, but i didn't feel like it was there. Very strange.

My last doctor told me i was having DP when i told her i was feeling strange. But now i know it wasnt because nothing i've ever felt before compared to that feeling when i took Zyprexa. Thank god i'm off it.