Major wave @3.5yrs is it a sign of healing?

[[Be...]]

I have been in a big and nasty wave for the past 2-3 months with intense return of most/all physical, mental and psychological symptoms, Is it a sign of healing?

Is it the "so-called" one last wave before the total and complete recovery usually actually takes place?

 

I'm trying to give myself hope or make sense of what's happening to me!

Although, I doubt it because this wave threw back into acute and left me feeling completely frustrated like all the healing I thought took place just vanished like ashes in a windy dessert.

[[gu...]]

You and me both! I am at 34 months and the last two months on and off have had terrible waves, just like you I feel like I’m back in acute. The depression is my worst symptom, but I’ve had some brand new symptoms even now… So strange. Severe shoulder pain that disappeared in three days. We should communicate!

[[Ni...]]

I’m almost 56 months off a cold turkey and have been in a wave since June basically due to stress. Stress is my main trigger for big waves it seems. Withdrawal & recovery from this drug has been one of my toughest life battles.

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Hopefully!

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I'm at 45 months and huge wave after a pretty good window.  So healing is what I'm hoping as well!  My tinnitus is the worst it's ever been

[[ss...]]

Is the bad wave been worse then ever for you bedridden non functioning?

[[NY...]]

I was thrown into one about a month ago, also acute-like.  It's hellish on so many levels.  I'm just hanging on here by a thread.  Sorry you're suffering too.  :'(

[[ss...]]

What are the symptoms?

[[Me...]]

Bump. How are ya’ll doing now?.......I’m having the same issue at 35 months and looking for people who understand / have been there.

 

 

[[di...]]

Hey Meganz, I just actually read your signature. Wow 

 

If I'm reading correctly and you're med free after being prescribed quite a substantial cocktail... as well as being somewhat functional in your life even though it's very intense and difficult to deal with... you're practically a superhero! I am not worried about your recovery, put it that way. The shoots of repair and recovery as well as your drive and determination are clear for all to see. What is obvious is life will continue to defy your expectations for a while but my prediction is that you will start to become more excited than frightened. Your world will open up in ways that you hadn't imagined possible. My confidence in you is in recognising that your darkest days by far are almost certainly behind you. You made it. Whatever is to come will not compare to what you have already endured in terms of suffering.

 

It's cool if somebody from the future comes back to tell us what's going on, how they're living a normal life. But don't worry if it that person has moved on. I bet a few benzo survivors go through some sort of rebirth experience where they leave the past behind. If someone calls for me after I have moved on, it's only by chance that I might see it. I often spot these things randomly months/years later. I'm not that organised. I might not answer assuming that everybody else has moved on too.

[[Be...]]

42 months off and back in severe mental torment the last month after some bad stress, I am

Barely hanging on, praying for relief

[[Me...]]

Hey Meganz, I just actually read your signature. Wow 

 

If I'm reading correctly and you're med free after being prescribed quite a substantial cocktail... as well as being somewhat functional in your life even though it's very intense and difficult to deal with... you're practically a superhero! I am not worried about your recovery, put it that way. The shoots of repair and recovery as well as your drive and determination are clear for all to see. What is obvious is life will continue to defy your expectations for a while but my prediction is that you will start to become more excited than frightened. Your world will open up in ways that you hadn't imagined possible. My confidence in you is in recognising that your darkest days by far are almost certainly behind you. You made it. Whatever is to come will not compare to what you have already endured in terms of suffering.

 

 

 

You know exactly what to say to make someone feel better Bam....WOW!!! I screenshot this!!

[[Me...]]

42 months off and back in severe mental torment the last month after some bad stress, I am

Barely hanging on, praying for relief

 

We will get through this beans....

[[Su...]]

I’m 42 months off and have been in a wave for the last few months. I was doing much better through months 30-36, it’s really upsetting to have to deal with acute like symptoms all over again. Please please please let this be it. I just want a chance to have a life again. Lying on the couch is not a life.

[[Me...]]

I’m 42 months off and have been in a wave for the last few months. I was doing much better through months 30-36, it’s really upsetting to have to deal with acute like symptoms all over again. Please please please let this be it. I just want a chance to have a life again. Lying on the couch is not a life.

 

Sunshine

 

I literally thought I was DYING this month. My symptoms were getting so much worse. I could barely see this week. Barely move. I was vibrating intense like acute. My muscles were like lead. I felt like I was being crushed. No idea how I pushed through work but I faked it. It was awful. I haven’t felt that bad since acute. I did nothing to trigger it. I had a few moments of symptom free but they only lasted an hour tops.

 

 

And it lifted today. Knock on wood but I’ve never had a window last this long. And it’s wonderful.

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Hello Fellow Warriors!

 

Oh, Buddies... yes... I am in my 43rd month right now and all I can say is that after a lovely 3-day window, my 4th year has been the hardest. It feels like I've slipped into a wave with physical stuff adding onto the mental! I used to be physically 'functional' (more or less), and look at me now...!!!

 

Like you, Meganz, my muscles feel like lead, my body feels as though it weighs tons... my head is filled with cotton-wool, I am either half-asleep/woozy or revved up with mental akathisia and thoughts just whirling around inside my brain - most often it is the two together!!... I have trouble thinking, I can't take the simplest of decisions... even working out how to make a salad feels like nuclear science - and a huge physical effort! Needless to say what it feels like after I've made my bed...  ...heck, getting into bed is also an effort when I'm the worst of the day! (midday then again later in the evening...)

 

I am 38 going onto 83  :'(

 

Coping actually used to be easier when I didn't feel as limited, physically...  :'( I've been in this wave more or less since the end of the summer, so a good 4 months now  :'( it's hard, so so hard... yet I remain positive that this is healing and that we will emerge from this healthier and happier than we have ever been since taking that very first pill... I sure do!

 

Another big push...

 

Come on, Buddies, come on Warriors. We can do this. We have come a long way already. Over three years, that's a lot of healing-time! We have gotten through every single second of what has been dealt to us, so keep strong, keep believing, keep going. It will all work out! And keep taking good care of yourselves too 

 

Warm healing hugs,

Julz xx

[[Me...]]

Julz,

 

I have full confidence that when this lifts, you’ll be healed! I think there must be a last NASTY wave before final healing....

[[Be...]]

Love you Julz hang in there

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Julz,

 

I have full confidence that when this lifts, you’ll be healed! I think there must be a last NASTY wave before final healing....

 

Thank you so much, dear Meganz 🙏🙏🙏 May your words be heard by the mighty King of Healing!!! 🙏🙏🙏 It's been a long fight already... but of course, you keep finding the strength to go on, right?

 

Oh, I was so happy to read about your 24-hour window! How have you been doing these past fesw days? Has your baseline come up yet some more? 🙏🙏🙏

 

Love you Julz hang in there

 

Oh Beans, thank you so so so much, Buddy! Love you too  :smitten:

 

Keep strong everyone. We are healing!!!

Warmest hugs! 

 

Julz 

[[Me...]]

Yes Julz

After my 24 hour window that actually lasted about 40 hours - I had a wave for a couple of hours with dizziness. It went away, back into a window that lasted 12 hours. Then this morning I’ve been window/wave every other hour it seems.

This has never happened before to me.

From one hour to the next I feel great, vs in waves I feel dizzy. That’s my only remaining symptom. I think I’m almost done.

But god that wave last month was nasty. There aren’t words. It was the worst wave I’ve ever had and now I’m like almost done with this.

 

These rapid cycling symptoms are easier to push through because I tell myself an hour from now I won’t feel like this. And it’s true.

My symptoms used to last months so I must be toward the final finish line now

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Could seroquel be the culprit ? Seems like alot of people who took that take a long time to heal.

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I’d say likely. Any mixing of meds is likely a culprit. There are no studies on med combos and some of us were guinea pigs

[[bo...]]

I've been in a terrible wave for a week now. It started with insomnia for no real reason. Now I'm back into an akathisia state with head pains. Can't feel love for my family. Only feel comfortable when not moving at all or walking at a slow steady pace. Can't laugh or feel joy. I've tried doing all sorts of things to feel better including working out, therapy and crying. Nothing is helping. The worst part is I'm not stressed at all. I'm 33 months off today.

[[An...]]

I hope this is the last wave for you. I'm new to this, they say there is a big last wave? I pray this is yours. Afraid mine must be in the future. I keep faith by thinking that each day of withdrawals brings me closer to the end. Each wave brings me closer to the end. I can eat the withdrawals with that knowledge. It will end. I will get there, and so will you.

[[Me...]]

Boom....I had the worst waves from October, November and early December that felt like acute

When I was 33-34 months. I had 5 hardcore symptoms in each one.

 

Now I’m having more windows than waves. And my waves now only bring 1 symptom which is dizziness. I’ve been in a window from 3pm and it’s now 10pm.....I had a window all day Saturday.....

 

I’d bet money you’re almost done. This is your final last few months