Best window yet or new baseline

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Wow, yesterday evening about an hour or so after my daily run I was relaxing & got the most amazing feeling of euphoria. I could feel this warm fuzzy feeling start down the left side of my head & gradually move down the left side of my body, down my left leg & then spread to the rest of my body. Instantly, the constant numbness I have had since day one just disappeared. I felt completely content & not only as I did before benzo’s but better. I’ve had feelings like this the past couple of month’s & they recently started to happen more often. But this was awesome. Completely free of any lingering background symptoms. This proceeded the entire night & I felt so good that I ended up staying up talking with my girl until 3 am. Once I realized what time it was I did get a tad worried bc it’s usually lack of sleep that really messes me up. Well not this time. I fell asleep by 3:30 am woke up about 2 hrs later only to fall back asleep until around 8 am. When I awoke I realized I felt fine. No residual discomfort or anxiety, some minor numbness but not even enough to care. This is more than just reassuring. This is spectacular. I really don’t even care if this is just the best window I’ve had or my baseline has actually moved up, I’m just going to enjoy every second of it & not change one single thing I’ve been doing. I truly believe that my choices have brought me to this point & I honestly never expected to feel this great at just under 9 month’s from a CT, & 7 month’s from a rescue dose. Just 6 month’s ago I was convinced that I had permanently damaged myself to the point of never being the same again. I was sure that the person I was, was never going to b seen again. This is only true in a sense. I say that bc I’ve become a better person than I was. Stronger, smarter, resilient, empathetic, & grateful. Healing is happening whether u believe or not & things can go from bad to great in the blink of an eye. Those out there that get tired of this everyone heals crap, well maybe u should start really believing it & see what it can do for u. I know for a fact that if u told me even 5 month’s ago that I would b feeling this good rn, I would’ve called bs. But I was wrong, & I’m sooo glad that I was. To all those out there that r still struggling day to day, hang in there, recovery is slow but that doesn’t mean it’s invisible. Enjoy ur day & make the best of with what u can. Take care, & all the best in healing.

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Congrats on your window. That's awesome that you had one. I hope your baseline is much better.

 

I've noticed that anytime I feel any better is usually on the weekends in the morning and occasionally on week nights. Symptoms never fully disappear but I sort of notice that I don't want to think about this stuff anymore and I get some interests back and want to do other things.

 

I wish I could stop doubting healing. I'm 14 months off now and still struggling with depression, intrusive thoughts, negative thoughts, lack of ambition, and anger. Sleep is improved and that's about it. I really hope everybody heals like the experts and people on this forum say.

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Can’t believed I’m seeing this post today! I woke up this morning feeling exactly the same, awesome way. It’s fantastic. You used the word “content”, and that’s it exactly. I hope this continues for us. For all those who are struggling, know that it does get better. Thank you for sharing this post.

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Can’t believed I’m seeing this post today! I woke up this morning feeling exactly the same, awesome way. It’s fantastic. You used the word “content”, and that’s it exactly. I hope this continues for us. For all those who are struggling, know that it does get better. Thank you for sharing this post.

 

That’s wonderful! I’m so happy for u. The feeling is so wonderful it’s hard to explain. I’m so glad that u were able to relate as well. I to hope this continues for us, take care.

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So cool! So happy for you and so nice to know even windows of a normal happy life are possible.

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Easy,

 

Wonderful news!  I’m so happy for you (and me), it gives me more hope!

 

SaraSue 

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Easy, wonderful news and I hope this is a light that continues to shine for you. And thank you for sharing as it is very reassuring for the rest of us. Hopefully, recovery will happen for us all!

 

Hugs!

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So cool! So happy for you and so nice to know even windows of a normal happy life are possible.

 

Thanks a lot! Much appreciated, I hope all is well with u too! Take care

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Easy,

 

Wonderful news!  I’m so happy for you (and me), it gives me more hope!

 

SaraSue 

 

Thank u so much! I really appreciate the positivity! A little bit can go such a long way during this horrible process! I hope that the same goes for u! Take care

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Easy, wonderful news and I hope this is a light that continues to shine for you. And thank you for sharing as it is very reassuring for the rest of us. Hopefully, recovery will happen for us all!

 

Hugs!

 

Absolutely! It’s my pleasure. I truly believe that we can recover from this & that there is always hope. Thank u! I greatly appreciate ur kindness. Take care, & all the best in healing!