Jumped over 8 Weeks Ago - My Thoughts

[[kp...]]

First of all, for some background on everything that happened before the jump, go here: http://www.benzobuddies.org/forum/index.php?topic=220153.0

 

I took my last sliver of Klonopin in mid March and braced myself for what was to come.  After reading so many posts here, I didn't know what to expect.  I had already been so much throughout the taper that the thought of going through a whole new thing was very scary.

 

The first few days I was just so happy to not be thinking about when I was going to weigh and take my daily dose.  I didn't feel great but no worse than other times during my taper.

 

I didn't know what to expect and started to feel like I may not feel anything but after about day 6, my body did start to react.  It wasn't the same sfx as the taper.  I would describe the effects as much more physical... a sense of my whole body slightly vibrating, a dull headache and of course not sleeping great.  In some ways, these symptoms were pretty bad but it was outweighed by the fact that I was so happy to be off of it.  I would say the symptoms were the most uncomfortable during the second week.  I also got a cold which turned into tonsillitis after that second week which made everything much worse.  I'm still dealing with some throat issues which I can't help but wonder if they are related as my throat was pretty ok through my whole taper.

 

After that second week, the vibrations and general discomfort I would say slowly wound down.  As I write this, I would say I'm feeling better than I have in a very long time.  I wouldn't go as far to say that I feel healed but I am enjoying my time more and every second of every day isn't a struggle like it used to be.

 

This is just to say that jumping is definitely a big adjustment (I found it hard to believe my body could feel the difference after jumping from .01mg) but I felt that all the coping skills I developed during my taper more than prepared me to deal with the jump.  And you can't underestimate the feeling of knowing that even though you feel awful, there's no more klonopin in your system.  I can't see any situation that I would ever take any dosage for any reason. 

 

The other element to the jumping process is also trying to suss out what feelings and symptoms are just there anyway despite the withdrawal.  I had very bad anxiety and insomnia which is why I started taking a daily dose.  Now that's all blurred.  I definitely feel better but I also feel like a lot of the way I feel now is related to my original issues.

[[Pe...]]

Thank you for sharing this. I’m in the middle of my second week post jump from klonopin. I am feeling more physical symptoms as well. I didn’t feel anything new my first week either. So I’d say we sound like we’ve had a Similar jumping experience... as I type this I now need to go and read your story before the jump. I hope my healing continues to mirror yours if you’re already starting to feel better. I know I know. I shouldn’t compare. Lol.

[[de...]]

Great outcome, kpinwarrior.

 

Was great to see you would never take again, under any circumstance.  I feel same.  It would have to be a pretty extraordinary set of circumstances before I could see it happening again. 

 

Well done. 

 

Dee

[[in...]]

I am a little past 8 wks myself from jump off klonopin after 30 years on it. Did a two year taper. Taper was tough but mostly emotional and fatigue. Now, too, it seems more physical symptoms; muscle and joint pain mostly. I have zero desire to go back to klonopin even if post withdrawl is difficult. I also am glad to have it out of my system and no longer have to worry about daily dose and even more so, worrying about what would I do if I could not get my med?!

 

It is good to know one is not alone and I have sympathy for anyone going through this. Hang in there.

[[ba...]]

You will succeed! Hold on! ☺

[[J ...]]

congrats warrior,

 

I too jumped about 76 days ago (mid March). The taper down had its tough days but nothing like some describe. I also tapered down from Serazone which during the jumps I would get so paranoid. I jumped from it mid April.

 

I didn't really feel much for the first week or so but soon I began to have feelings on days. Days where I could reflect/think of the screwups I made and what made me think like that. My main issue now is lack of sleep, memory and cognitive issues. I do have a few physical things going on like muscle tone loss and I have to itch my body on occasions.

 

Good luck and keep us posted as there are many of us in your position too.

Stone

[[Cu...]]

I'm so happy for all of you.  You all seem to be doing much, much better than I am.

I'm getting more & more concerned that my sxs are not only not getting better, but they're worsening. 

The neuropathy is throughout entire body (not the numbing part; the tingling & burning).  Additional trigger points throughout left thigh.  Same w/eyes...figuring it's neuropathy in optical nerve.  Scalp itching's so bad.  I'm awake = I'm scratching.  Clothes just touching skin in private areas, further irritates.  Only peace I have is sleep, which is hard-won.