On the bottom.

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I am 17m. Off. Last mont I hit myself now I am with neck injury and my CNS collapse. I was in the ER couple times with convulsions like epileptic guy, finally my MRI showed nothing disturbing but my neck is swollen and I have tinitus from broken tambourines. Docs want me on Diazepam/Valium but I refused (I tell them that I am allergic). Now I dont take nothing again but because of Klonopin I have weak musculature and very often now I have joint dislocations or also hypermobility sindrome on my whole bodies parts.

I almost die folks in the ambulance. Also every K. Shits are pop up like stiffness, rigidity, anxiety, health anxiety, insomnia, burning flashes, hyper sensitive, electric shocks, dry mouth etc.etc.

 

With that trauma I am experiencing more brutal stage from acute.

 

I cant do this anymore folks, today I've spoked with other body who's experiencing this shits after 4years off from too much work or sport or whatever!

I cant hide myself at home forever, cant be a glass doll for the outside world.

I was carefull with colds with no any pills with injury' etc. etc. But without wanted I hit my myself on my neck and now this is the result.

After these 17m. Off I was thinking that I will be healed and I will never experience all this fucking sensations and symptoms.

I am on the bottom folks. This nightmare will never end!

After that injury I woke up the devil. Devil who never leaves me!

I dont have any power and strength to continuing....

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I've also been there. I wanted to scream, cry and crawl out of my own skin. My thoughts were horrible. I asked God to pick me up, it was enough!

But now it feels better, and I want to live. You will also get there, even though it seems impossible right now.

 

Send a PM if you need to talk to someone.

 

Hug!

 

Anna

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I was thinking about you for a couples of days ago. Sad to hear that you still feel like this. I know the feeling I am 20 months off next week. Brutal wave caused by Seroquel w/d or what ever it is. I dont know what is what. Give up is not an option Lexsant. We have to do this. Other heal. And our CNS is slowly healing. It takes so long and the energy and hope is gone. I know how it is to struggle. Hate my life. Take care

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Thanks for your answers folks just I don't believe in healing process anymore!

It absolutely possible to get back in every stress event, trauma, injury or medications.

After 17. Off ti hit me like this!

I almost die because my neck cant recovery nornal because of the benzos stiffness and rigidity!

 

Ashton says that the long term benzo users can be in waves or symptoms forever from too much stress.

 

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Lexsant we all know and understand this hopeless feelings. Don’t give up! I have many episodes where I think I will not survive this any longer. But I get normal hours every day now. Sometimes half a day, sometimes full day. Underneath there is something going on, but believe me this afternoon it was bad bad. The good news is that over time waves become shorter. I was there 10 months ago, sounds long but I made to 26,5 months myselve. I pushed myselve to go back to work, which is not an easy deal. But like my first year a forced distraction is always “better”.

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Thanks HopeHope. Just this time it was different. I have real trauma/injury and my neck was swollen and it cant recovery normal because of the waves of stiffness. Later I was with blood pressure in my head, all this brings me broken timpani. Real broken with real tinnitus.

That was the roof of all shits on this ordeal.

I was thinking that I will die but this time was real because of real injury (not big deal trauma) but happening big problem. I was in ER with MRI and now I am suffering without any meds with pain from real injury and the waves brings me more pain in my already traumatized neck.

 

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Hang in there healing comes sometimes its a little longer for some us. I am healing i tried to get out house as much as I could in the  beginning. I remember I was a in actue wave and wife and daughter took me for a five mile hike. So I was hurting bad today I went about  my Buisness today by end off the day  I was in better sprites.

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Anyone way worse at 27.5 months. It’s a living nightmare how bad I am now, all symptoms came back. Co start fear, akathesia ....