Skin and muscles

[[Ka...]]

This is more just having a rant than asking for advice really (although any would be really greatly appreciated)

 

First I want to apologise because I know that some of you are in litral hell with the after affects of these drugs and my issues are nothing compared to some of you but it's really getting me down.

 

My skin has been horrible since I went into tollerance, in fact it was the first thing to make me sit up an take notice that something was up. It lost the tugour almost over night. It became soft and doughy and it held none of the fleshly parts in, everything just drooped and sagged and oh my gosh, the cellulite. It's dry from the inside making it wrinkely and it has a weird colour to it, it just doesn't look healthy. I have always been almost ocd about my skin, and at 45, I have been told  by dermatologists that I have the skin of some one in my 20s...but not any m more, I'd say this is what I expected skin to look like in my 60s. It doesn't help that despite going to the gym four times a week and being incredibly toned, the muscle disappeared almost over night as well, add in the weight loss and well, I'm sure many of you can relate. The weirdest sensation that I've had with my skun is almost being able to feel the moisture being sucked out of it.

 

I'm in month five now from a cold turkey and most symptoms have either rectified themselves or there on the way out. I've found meditation has really helped with the weird brain buzz / fog that's cause by stress episodes but the skin issues are still there for me to see.

 

Some days are better than other's and the other day, my skin seemed for the first time to be producing it's own moisture but it stopped. I'm hoping that my body is starting to learn how to function again.

 

I know this will heal but when, how long do I have to put my life and sex life  on hold because I'm too ashamed of my body.😢

 

I used to get botox and fillers before this, just for a little refresh and I've continued to get them because I couldn't have coped with it other wise but even so, my face doesn't look the same and I'm losing more and more volume and my face looks long?

 

I guess on the plus side, my horrible muscle ache I get in my back once I ovulate wasn't anywhere near as this month.

 

I can deal with everything else, just not this. It's almost like the tablests akes your deepest fear and says yup, I'm going to give you that as your main symptom. 😔

[[Sa...]]

Kam,

 

No advice (except keep hydrated and active).

 

I’m 60, had no wrinkles before CT (had beautiful skin)).  Lost 25+ pounds month 1 after CT.  Deep wrinkles appeared, cellulite, my glowing skin no longer glowed.  I’m at the end of month 5 and my glow is coming back.  Wrinkles are not as pronounced.

 

Maybe Botox is causing the distress?  I’ve read about others on BB that have used Botox and had problems.

 

SaraSue

 

 

[[Ka...]]

I'm really glad to hear that your glow is coming back and I'm not that far behind you time wise.

 

I'm drinking water like it's going out of fashion at the moment and I think it does help and I am going to the gym occasionally.

 

I know I am healing because my lips seemed to turn in on themselves when this first happened and there mostly back to normal now although they can turn slightly occasionally.

 

My skin also has this weird motteling to it, my dermatologist was worried that I had a connective disorder but every test known to mankind came up negitive and he was stumped to what was causing it (this is before we realised it was the stupid drugs) but assured me that things like this sometimes happen and they resolve themselves as quickly as they go wrong. I've held on to this.

 

I'm normally super positive about everything and I know I'm healing and will completely heal but today it's just got to me. I feel horrible complaining about skin when I know a good percentage of this board would jump at being in my position 5 months off a cold turkey but it's getting anxious about this that can send me into an anxiety loop. I've stood in front of the mirror studying every imperfection convincing myself I'm a hag...I'm not but nothing  like I was.

 

I've seen a few people talk about botox on here but I honestly don't see how it can cause issues. It's only injected into the muscle and if done properly, it shouldn't leech else where. The actual botox is out of your system with in 24 hours. I've never noticed any worsening of symptoms when I've had the injections and my injectors are drs and are aware of my condition. There are a couple of things I want done but they won't until they see what my skin is going to do over the next few months but this they say is fine as it doesn't cross the brain blood barrier.

 

I wish I would stop brusing so easily as well 😢

[[jo...]]

Bruising cuts that take months to heal. Skins dry and flakes off regardless of the amount of water I drink. Muscle wasting in legs.