Feeling HORRIBLE after best night sleep since this whole thing started

[[Fa...]]

so I went to bed early last night.  About 10:00.  I think I fell asleep immediately and I did not wake up at all until 6:15.

When I woke and looked at the clock I was like "HOLY COW!".

but then I had to get up because I had to be at Quest to get blood work done (testing my hormones re: possible menopause).

As soon as I got out of bed I knew I was in a wave.

I got in the car and headed to Quest . . . in a brain fog that is indescribable.

Managed to let them take my blood without passing out or anything.

Then I had to go into the grocery store to get a few things.  THAT was a nightmare. I couldn't find anything I needed; I walked around the store SO spaced out and feeling like I'm in another universe....

I managed to head to checkout after finding about 10 items, checked out and got to my car.

I closed the door and sat there and bawled my eyes out for a good 15 minutes.

 

Why would i feel SO horrible after such a good nights sleep?  Is it the brain healing?

 

I'm also struggling with the possibility that I'm through w/d and this is just perimenopause now.

 

ANYBODY out there go through menopause that had horrible brain fog; feeling like you're in a different universe?

 

I feel SO spaced out.  disconnected.  Weird.  Like I'm not myself.... I just want to be MYSELF again.  I want my life back!!

 

How do I figure out WHAT THE HECK I AM GOING THROUGH???

 

It's like this whole experience has just scrambled my brains and I can't make sense of any of it.

 

i want to live SOOOOO badly!!  I LOVE MY LIFE.  I WANT MY LIFE BACK.  But I don't know how to continue living with this brain that's in my head that's not doing what I'm telling it to do!!  My "old" self could pull myself out of ANYTHING...a bad mood, sadness, confusion, whatever.  I could think it through and solve it.

 

I've lost that ability!!

 

someone please tell me you can relate, but not in a triggering way.

 

Thanks.

 

Fakeit

[[La...]]

Am Cortisol Spikes are normal, especially noticeable when in WD- I'm thinking the am cortisol spiked when you were in a rush to get to your Dr's appointment- Hang in there- it will pass!

[[Fa...]]

And go figure.  Last night I got ZERO sleep.  Tossed and turned the entire night with anxiety.

 

This is ridiculous.

 

[[Ne...]]

Fake it...sounds like the anxiety of getting up and realizing you had to be somewhere may have triggered your symptoms. Wow, you got a lot of sleep by most BenzoBuddies standards.

But then being startled could have set you in the wrong direction. It takes so little to set by CNS in the wrong direction. I am 60 and so through meno but I certainly do believe that hormones play a big part in our brain healing.  I try to Breathe through it, do gentle exercise like light walking, and read positive posts. Keep going, we are all going to heal from this, we are strong and we’ve got this👍💪🙌❤️

New Girl

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Hi FakeIt,

 

Do you recall if you dreamed? I've recently started to sleep more normal hours but with some super dreaming nights. Super as in excessive. That seems to wipe me out and give me benzo flu. It feels like I've physically done everything that happens in the dreams which includes some nightmares.

 

Try to stay calm (hard to do I know) and remind yourself that your brain and CNS are healing. There are strange blips. It can be a step forward and then another back. But, it does improve over time. I'm much better than in Jan-March. The extra sleep helps even if it is sometimes exhausting.

 

I'm sorry that your long night of sleep was followed by the stress and anxiety of a wave. I'll bet that will level out soon.