Sort of had it

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The last thing this page needs is another sad-assed post, but I've been sick for years in tolerance w/d and I have no friends and am still too sick to work so I have no one to talk to about anything. Have tried therapy but no one knows anything about benzo illness anyway. New doc is nice enough but doesn't understand totality of the shape I'm in. Kind of done with feeling sick and being scared, sick and scared on and on and on, one thing after another. Thought getting off the stuff would be the hardest part but not much has changed for me so far. I don't want to bring anyone else down cuz everyone on here is having trouble but if anyone can muster up the remotest kind word I could use it at the moment.

 

Thanks,

pickl

[[Sa...]]

Pickl,

 

We are in a pickle.  The only way out is through it.  I’m 4.5 months since CT was forced by prescribing docs.  The hours (or days) I think I can’t do this pass to a couple hours of maybe I can do this.  It’s exhausting, but I can’t logically go back to face this at a later day.

 

You are doing great!  You can do this!!

 

SaraSue 

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Pickle,

You are early days in recovery.

It does get better!

Prepare for non-linear healing but you will improve; and in time, you will reconnect with people And hobbies and your community all in a meaningful way bringing much joy and purpose. It just takes time and more time than we ever wanted to dedicate to this journey.

 

Stay hopeful and stay connected here on BB until you feel healing lifting you back into your world.

You are always understood, here.

 

With compassion,

Ss24

[[Sa...]]

Ss24,

 

A perfect post.  Everything I was thinking and couldn’t get out.

 

We are healing.

[[Fo...]]

I wish you well Pickl

I think I am lucky as I have almost got away with poisonous stuff, but BOY I do know what a sudden awful 2-3-4 days can be like.

I feel restless, but tired, nauseated but hungry---the body sensors are up the creek without a paddle.

 

SO --if you feel awful tomorrow POST again.  We cant physically hold your hand but can share your discomfort across the WWW

Yours Dickie

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Thanks everyone. Really down day today.

[[pr...]]

Hang in there Pickl it will get better as time goes by. Feel free to PM me any time as most of the time I am sitting in my recliner  watching golf or reruns of golf with the volume turned down or watching a sappy movie. I went through cold turkey also and I know what it means to be alone. The first 4 or 5 months I was scared out of my wits. I ordered every supplement anyone on BB would mention in anticipation I would need them. I know I spent at least $1000 on supplements but was too scared to try them thank God! It does get better. Sometimes I think being alone is helping me heal. I get my heavy sleep blanket and cover up in my recliner and rest.

 

 

Blessings

 

PG

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Ss24,

 

A perfect post.  Everything I was thinking and couldn’t get out.

 

We are healing.

 

Hope you're feeling some healing today, SaraSue.

Day by day until one day we no longer feel our bodies and then we will know that healing has completely taken place!

 

ss24

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Hang in there Pickl it will get better as time goes by. Feel free to PM me any time as most of the time I am sitting in my recliner  watching golf or reruns of golf with the volume turned down or watching a sappy movie. I went through cold turkey also and I know what it means to be alone. The first 4 or 5 months I was scared out of my wits. I ordered every supplement anyone on BB would mention in anticipation I would need them. I know I spent at least $1000 on supplements but was too scared to try them thank God! It does get better. Sometimes I think being alone is helping me heal. I get my heavy sleep blanket and cover up in my recliner and rest.

 

 

Blessings

 

PG

 

........ re: supplements.  Completely understand!!

 

much healing to you

[[de...]]

Sometimes the bad assed posts are good Pickl, because you are telling it as it is for you....at the moment. 

 

I hold great hope for our futures Pickl.  And I know how you feel. 

 

Dee

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Thanks again everyone who responded. Yesterday was a bit better, today worse. Not sleeping, weird symptoms, unmitigated panic, convinced that I'm dying, again no one to talk to so doing another little mini-vent. Hope you are all doing alright today!

[[Sa...]]

Thanks again everyone who responded. Yesterday was a bit better, today worse. Not sleeping, weird symptoms, unmitigated panic, convinced that I'm dying, again no one to talk to so doing another little mini-vent. Hope you are all doing alright today!

 

Pickl,

 

Those “better” days help me get through those not better days.  I believe it shows me that healing is taking place.  Come here and vent!!

 

SaraSue 

[[Fo...]]

Vent away P

You are being remarkably restrained considering how dire you feel.

Lets pray for a window soon and a touch of joy again

Best wishes---and to Sue

Dick

[Guest [Pi...]]

Vent away P

You are being remarkably restrained considering how dire you feel.

Lets pray for a window soon and a touch of joy again

Best wishes---and to Sue

Dick

 

That's because I deleted the bit about how badly I want to sue my doctor... LOL!!

[[Fo...]]

I want to sue my psych but he was a family friend-)))