Biggest withdrawl ever on here.

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CT Klonopin .5mg, Seroquel XR150mg, Cigarettes, and everthing. I going to restrict myself with no phone and on call support for meals, and I did pay for 2 years of bills today. And food for three months in deep freezer and eat to make meals. I'm prepared for the worst like my health anxiety, and best on normal ground to deal every day stuff. I only took drugs for sleep but sleep dep and sleep med side effects, WD and sleep anxiety cause al sort of s***! No normal human should indure. I have been off K  before 3 weeks and moderate sx's. My last WD.

I been through it all already. F-it.

 

P.S. I have been up in the past with insomnia for 22 days straight documented in med history. So what do you think is worst! Your stomach, or sweats, or a nightmare, I have had it all. So I"m burnout and say F_it!

 

P.S. I went through 16 meds for a month at a time each with dieffernt doasages, and highest recommended strengths for sleep this past 13 months. EX: Ambien CR 12.5 at 2 at bedtime. I have taken sleep meds to the max extreme also this last year. And it only prolonged the insomnia with side effects and wd from them also. To me a 12-pk of beer and a 1/8 mg of K is fine by me.

[[Li...]]

TrenchMob,

 

I am worried about you. That is a lot to quit all at once.

 

Do you live with family or have family close by to double check on you?

 

Please be careful and stay safe.

[[Pe...]]

I too am worried. You do risk having to reinstate which may cause more issues in the future. Is there a reason you want to jump from such a high dose? I highly advise against it. I was on .5 milligrams of klonopin as well and cut it to 50% and it was very difficult. I then cut to .125 and i had to updose it was  so bad. I know you have likely read your share of horror stories and I’m not trying to scare you. I just know what it feels like and you are at a pretty high dose to jump from. If you don’t have to, I wouldn’t.

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CTs are not the way to go. They aren’t safe despite what you hear on here from one person in particular but others as well. You’re creating a situation where you’re at a really high risk of losing your life when you CT not to mention psychosis that can complicate and screw up your mental health for life. It’s a fact that once you have one attempt or a psychotic episode you’re at higher risk of having them again throughout your life. Don’t do that to yourself. Do a rapid taper if you need to and get in person support to minimize those risks but a CT is just harming yourself. People are here to support you and there have been so many who’ve gone off the medication some of which didn’t make it but we’ve benefitted from their experiences and you can too.

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Well I can't CT tonight, drinking hard for one normal night in a long time, But will not take meds tonight. Will wait with  hungover 1-2 days.  Than continue taper at Seroquel first than K. Yes, I do live with family and well off. Everything is paid for the house,cars, and everything else. $$$$$$$$$. But if need to i'm a hard ass extremist but I don't to view that now since Benzos affected half of my life so far now with tolereance WD and now taper. F-it its a low dose CT now with 4 other CT's.

 

[[Pe...]]

This sounds like a very unstable plan.  Drinking hard for one normal night?  I understand this is difficult for you but drinking is 100% not going to help you out here. I’m not sure if any advice given to you is even considered at this point. Good luck to you!

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I been through the extremes of hell anyway. Why not one night to not worry about all this s*** for one day. Wouldn't you want that day sooner than later.

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No. I wouldn’t. I want to heal and that’s why I’m here and tapering safely. Surely you understand my concern for your talk of C/T while intoxicated. I’m just here to offer advice and support. I do wish you luck.

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I got a living will a nurse on site for anything. She knows what Im doing. I may have mild stuff.Who knows!

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I understand the drinking bc I used to do it. Tomorrow is my 2 year sobriety date in fact. I would get off the booze first and re-evaluate. Try and build or strengthen your support network. I see you post on here a bit but what about in your life? Do have people close who care about you or would help you?

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I've tried the drinking thing... its makes things worse in the long run.  Try Seriphos for sleep. It evidently

somehow stabilizes cortisol.... has been working for me.  You can order it from Amazon

 

https://www.amazon.com/Seriphos-Adaptogen-Adrenal-InterPlexus-capsules/dp/B00747NHTI

 

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I agree with what Lily said. I once tried the all at once approach and failed miserably. It is best to slowly tackle one thing at a time. You do not want to over stress your already fragile CNS. This could backfire on you!

 

 

[[Fo...]]

Trench

Please let folk on here know how you are today.

Your frustration has been evident for sometime but I hope you can see that tapering is the only option rather than intermittent oblivion.

Dick

[[Cu...]]

I've tried the drinking thing... its makes things worse in the long run.  Try Seriphos for sleep. It evidently

somehow stabilizes cortisol.... has been working for me.  You can order it from Amazon

 

https://www.amazon.com/Seriphos-Adaptogen-Adrenal-InterPlexus-capsules/dp/B00747NHTI

 

I, too, am concerned about member who started thread.  Need to reign it in, as best you can.  Fast/impulsive not the track to take.  We may not have a lot of control, but you've got to try not to escalate.  In this instance, it is true that slow & steady wins the race.  Or, so, I'm hoping!  But, I've just resigned myself that this is how it's going to be.  I resigned myself during my taper that I was going to be enduring pain.  I was put on it for pain management. Unfortunately, there is no easy way.  And, no fast way. 

 

I'd like to address the above poster re: the Seriphos?  First, congrats! on your JUMP!  - We're just days apart & ativan was the prescribed benzo devil for me, too. - I did click the link & went to Amazon.  Lots of people there complaining over new formula vs. old formula.  {More confusion}  I seem to be going about 1-1/2 days w/out sleep, then I'll get some, then may have another day w/3 hours here, 4 hours there, awake for about 6-8 hours, then a nice, 10 hour sleep, followed w/another 1-1/2 days awake.  Roughly.  It's pretty erratic.  I feel I'm not getting anywhere near enough sleep, like this & that's just making all w/d sxs worse, due to being sleep deprived.  If you care to, you can PM me.  There may be others on the thread, though, who are also interested in help w/sleep.  Either way; up to you.  Would appreciate. 

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I’m okay. I did CT K or Seroquel. But may have to after all off both. The reason I found out I have obstructive sleep apnea. And both meds are making it worse on top of it breathing at night. So the drugs are making my apnea worse. Dr. said weight the options. WD and not sleep or take meds and sleep with greater chance of respiratory depression. And one day not wakeup from sleep. So I am waiting on CPAP machine and will try CBT-I for insomina. And WD from drugs. No choice. I rather be awake and alive than I in my sleep from meds than worsen my medical condition. Dr. Will help me through acute WD as much as possible. Wish me luck in the future and no more alcohol for me. This’s will be my last entry for awhile.I need to focus on myself and be as worry free about it, and accept the conscenques and regain my life back. I posted in a few months.

[[Cu...]]

Sounds like you're doing okay today.  It's all a big, scary situation. There will be peaks & valleys, w/physical & emotional.  Try to remember that most likely whatever you're experiencing is w/d sxs.  Check Ashton Manual & here for w/d sxs, when unsure. 

 

Glad to see you have a doctor who will be benzo w/d cooperative w/you.  They're not easy to come by!  Regard this as fortunate.  Remember to pat yourself on the back for every accomplishment, regardless how those things may have been second-nature, before this. 

Come here often to review w/d sxs & for emotional encouragement. 

Good luck & healing...