Can’t do this!

[[Li...]]

Hi

I am having so much trouble. It’s been over a week since I tapered .02 Valium mg for 5 days.

I have more than anxiety. It’s panic. Head, ear and eye pressure. Blurry eyes with double vision.

My body aches. Gut issues. Having trouble walking. Stuttering. Nausea. Migraine.

I can’t stay upright, but I can’t sit or lay down. The anxiety is so bad. Akathasia. I’m smoking my brains out. Have no appetite. Everything I eat causes stomach pain.

Completely non functional.

 

How do I get through this? 4 yrs of hell. I’ve had many days I can function, but have never felt normal or good. Dp/dr has never left. My cns is so sensitive. I rode the tractor for about an hour and half Saturday, thinking it would be relaxing. It just made my brain hurt so bad. All symptoms ramped up to the max.

 

I’ve never stabilized since going into protracted wd from lexapro fast taper. Still on 4.3 mg.

 

Don’t know how to proceed. Can’t live like this. Having SI.

 

Do I updose and hold til I stabilize? 4 yrs of this hell and no life is getting to me. I’ve been getting by, taking care of grandkids and some housework. But now I can do nothing. Walking to the bathroom is difficult. My legs are wobbly. It feels like the floor is giving way and I’m losing my balance. I’ve been trying to walk 4-6 miles a day. Now I can barely walk at all.

 

Please need advice. Thank you so much.

 

 

[[Sa...]]

I’m so sorry you are going through these symptoms.  I’ve been going through those and more since my CT 4+ months ago. 

 

Hoping your relief comes quick.

 

SaraSue 

[[Li...]]

I’m so sorry SaraSue. This is barbaric.

Sometimes wish I’d have just ct’d and got it over and done with.

60 symptoms. I’m hanging on by the skin of my teeth.

 

Thanks for responding. I hope and pray you’re healing starts soon. 💕

[[ch...]]

I have had a reaction too. I have just started a DMLT with milk for the last 6 or 7 days cutting .01ml and day from 100ml. I am only on 2mgs of Valium and have been stuck there for 6 weeks and as I so unwell  agoraphobic and housebound on this drug since the end of last March I felt I had to do something to move on down a little further. However today I am feeling so very sick, I have no appetite anyway and suffer endlessly with severe anxiety and fear but in recent time I have been able to force myself to eat, but today I am so off, constipated and sick and wonder is it  the cut or the milk, or what do I do?

I am so sorry to hear you are suffering too. It really is a terrible drug, but we will get off it somehow I am sure .

I hope things improve for you

 

 

[[Li...]]

Chinchuck I am sorry to hear you’re in the same position as me.

So holding did nothing to alleviate your symptoms?

Do you feel more physically sick after the DLMT? Appetite has not been a problem for me for a long time, but can eat nothing today. I have opposite of constipation. I have diarrhea and terrible gut  pain. My stomach is huge.

I’ve also been put on and off so many drugs. I think 6 or 8 antibiotics which I’d only taken maybe twice before in my life.

The anxiety is cruel. I wake between 1-4 am with terror. But the physical symptoms are worse than they’ve been since crossing over in October.

 

I really don’t know how to get off this horrible drug. I still have 10.8 mg to go. I would have thought it would be easier at a high dose. But each tiny cut is horrible.

 

Have you tried any other liquid besides milk? Propylene glycol worked much better to dissolve the tablet than everclear.

 

I hope things improve for you also. Soon. Please let me know how you’re doing. xx

 

Thank you for reaching out to me. This is a lonely experience. And terrifying.