Anger at 13.5 Months

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I'm wondering how many people are still feeling anger who quit cold turkey at over a year off. Are there any people who had this and it got better for you? It feels like just irrational anger, directed mostly at my family (my wife, daughter, dogs, anybody at my house). However, on Saturday afternoon, I felt unbridled anger at the man taking my order at a restaurant and he wasn't doing anything wrong at all. The same goes for everybody else I feel anger toward. It feels like it's not me on the inside anymore. I'm really scared and wondering if/when this will fade. It's like my depression/SI morphed into this anger. Please advise.

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Does anybody think this could still be withdrawal? Is there anything I should try and do about this at 13.5 months off?

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Healed folks say dont take other meds. It can be and i believe it is withdrawal. You are early in withdrawal. I think that soon things will get better for you. Because you did not take anything other like me.

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Thank you, Yulitka. How far are you along? What symptoms are you dealing with now?

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I am 2 years off from cold turkey. I am severely depressed, anxiery, insomnia. But i dont stop takeing other meds. Also life issues. Cant break the cycle and it is so frustating. You will see improvements soon. Just wait some time.

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Hey Boom,

Sorry to hear you are still suffering. Anger is a result of benzo withdrawal. Just type "anger" in the search box and you will get pages of people suffering with anger and rage and are doing better.

 

PG

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I don’t believe the anger/rage/hate is withdrawal but do believe it is a traumatic brain injury which is the cause.  I am super doubtful that taking more toxic chemicals will make it all better.  What do you think? 

 

It takes lots of time for an injured brain to heal, at least that has been my experience.  I wonder if the folk who recovered within 2 years were plagued with this symptom.  I’d like to hear from some of them on this topic.  Have you combed the success stories to see if it’s mentioned?  I know it’s super awful to live with and I feel for you.  It’s hard work to keep bringing yourself into the present and not believe your thoughts, like you have a freaky monster living in your head.  I’ve spoken with others who have been harmed in just this way so you are sure not the only one.  One day at a time.  Stay the course because the only way out is through.

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Look up "Amygdala Hijack" in Wikipedia.  This will give you some insight into the problem, which undoubtedly involves a benzo-induced impairment of gaba receptor activity in your amygdala.  Understanding this will fortify the ability of your prefrontal cortex to suppress the irrational "fight or flight" emanations from the amygdala - or "Amy" as I like to call it.  In other words you can learn to … Kick Amy in the ass!  Good luck!

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I'm 16 months off and i've had this terrible anger sx for the past 4 months, getting worse, mostly directed towards my husband (probably because he is the only person around now). It's like a demon possesses me and i go from 0-100 in less than 10 seconds. I wasn't like this at all before benzos, so i believe it's wd especially as it accompanies long waves of torturous mental stuff that started at the same time. The weird thing is that once the anger /rage is gone my dp/dr seems better. God this is an unbelievable experience, we are the toughest people on the planet going through this.

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Thanks for all the responses, everyone. I looked up amygdala hijack and read about it. I think I have anger toward my wife, daughter, and dogs because I feel like I have to take care of them through this, especially financially. The anger is so bad after work every day. It doesn't help that I never sleep eight hours. I don't act out on my anger at all, it's just present inside me all day, especially at work and immediately afterward.

 

I don't know if medicating more would help.

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Thanks for all the responses, everyone. I looked up amygdala hijack and read about it. I think I have anger toward my wife, daughter, and dogs because I feel like I have to take care of them through this, especially financially. The anger is so bad after work every day. It doesn't help that I never sleep eight hours. I don't act out on my anger at all, it's just present inside me all day, especially at work and immediately afterward.

 

I don't know if medicating more would help.

 

That makes sense, anger and frustration at no escape from responsibility. Not sure about more medication. Sometimes the side effects can be worse than the illness. I was so angry on benzos. I jumped 2 months ago and have felt a lot calmer since. That may change, though I hope not ...

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Thanks for all the responses, everyone. I looked up amygdala hijack and read about it. I think I have anger toward my wife, daughter, and dogs because I feel like I have to take care of them through this, especially financially. The anger is so bad after work every day. It doesn't help that I never sleep eight hours. I don't act out on my anger at all, it's just present inside me all day, especially at work and immediately afterward.

 

I don't know if medicating more would help.

"Amygdala hijack" is bullshit. These feelings can be managed with better thought patterns.

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What would you recommend, Keagan? What can I be doing differently?

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What would you recommend, Keagan? What can I be doing differently?

 

 

Maybe sometimes its good to have a break from here. I know I find some of the posts quite negative, especially regarding WD symptoms. While I understand why people post for support, not all of us post on here when we're going through a difficult time.

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Boom

Do you find life frustrating and futile.?

Your anger seems to me to be an absence of joy or hope giving rise to entrapment.

It’s horrid.  I don’t always think it’s withdrawal.  Our brains have been coping with this crazy world and sometimes we just can’t hack it.. Then we need professional help in grounding our emotions again, for everyone’s sake.

Entirely personal view, as I too have to face another day.

Fortunately I have faith in God to help me through this feeling of swimming in syrup.

Chin up Boom. I hope you can see a light at the end of this tunnel.

Best wishes

Dick