Found a new dr.

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Finally found a dr. Who was willing to write me a prescription but he treated me like I was a pill seeking addict and told me I shouldn’t be having withdrawals at such a low dose. He told me that klonopin is actually what they switch people to when they want to taper off because it’s least likely to cause symptoms. I stopped listening and got my prescription and left. I hope I never step foot into another doctors office.  Oh  and he also told me I “need” to be on meds and I shouldn’t be trying to get off of them. Thanks for taking my money. Bye. 🙄🙄🙄. My sister also told me today that maybe it all is in my head. Im exhausted.  People look at me like I’m crazy and/or they pity me. As if I’m so messed up in the head that I’ve now created fake withdrawal symptoms. I understand that people who haven’t gone through this have a hard time understanding but I’m tired of trying to educate people who don’t actually want to learn. They think they know and they are even more sure that I dont....  just trying to keep my head up. Needed to vent.

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I know the feeling, my pharmacy told me they needed to verify my prescription and basically dismissed me. I swore I would get off of benzos and I know I will because I never want to be put in that position again. Needless to say my prescription was verified by my doc, but instead of calling me the pharmacist put it through the texting system, I’m guessing so she didn’t have to talk to me in person. I find the whole situation disgraceful.

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I know the feeling, my pharmacy told me they needed to verify my prescription and basically dismissed me. I swore I would get off of benzos and I know I will because I never want to be put in that position again. Needless to say my prescription was verified by my doc, but instead of calling me the pharmacist put it through the texting system, I’m guessing so she didn’t have to talk to me in person. I find the whole situation disgraceful.

 

 

Oh wow I’m sorry that happened to u. I went though a similar situation before. Pharmacies and doctors want to crack down on the controlled substance epidemic by cutting off all the people they caused to become dependent on this stuff in the first place. It’s a sick system. Tell us we need these meds and then condemn us for “needing” them. I’m so tired but I am proud of you and all of us for getting off of this poison. May we learn from this and protect ourselves in the future.

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And a good vent at that...!!

 

You know the story... So all I wanted to say is -trust in yourself..

 

I seriously bit back the other day with some people, It kinda shocked the hell out of me, -well everyone, but im starting to feel it was a good release... I couldnt do that while on benzos and all brain fogged, and it probs wouldnt have been the right time either...

 

I hope your Dr pressure is off, and that family will come around as they see things progress with their own eyes...

 

Know your truth, and keep up the good work...

 

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And a good vent at that...!!

 

You know the story... So all I wanted to say is -trust in yourself..

 

I seriously bit back the other day with some people, It kinda shocked the hell out of me, -well everyone, but im starting to feel it was a good release... I couldnt do that while on benzos and all brain fogged, and it probs wouldnt have been the right time either...

 

I hope your Dr pressure is off, and that family will come around as they see things progress with their own eyes...

 

Know your truth, and keep up the good work...

 

Thank you so much for the well wishes. I definitely have held my tongue for the most part and I have secluded myself a lot. I feel it’s for the best.  I don’t think they will come around.  They’ve always seen me as a hypochondriac. It never occurs to some people that other people are different than they are.. that just because their life experiences don’t Someone else’s, doesn’t mean they are crazy.  I am lucky in that my experiences have made empathy come easy to me. I see this as a gift for the most part but some days I’m just tired and want to be free from this.

 

I’m definitely glad the dr. pressure is gone. That will be the last time I need a prescription for a benzo ever again. Thank you all for being here for me and so many others who are doubted. I truly do believe that the world is what we make it. So no matter all the negative, I still always fight through to find the positive.... even if that means being tired and needing a break at times.

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You got it..!! -We can come out of this so much "more"...

 

Best wishes..

 

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Hi

I was so sad that my GP in UK today admitted to never having heard of Prof Ashton, yet the 6 partners are on a drive to reduce benzos.

I have also pointed her towards Joanna Moncrieffs work.

So so sad

Dick

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Hi

I was so sad that my GP in UK today admitted to never having heard of Prof Ashton, yet the 6 partners are on a drive to reduce benzos.

I have also pointed her towards Joanna Moncrieffs work.

So so sad

Dick

 

As long as you’re spreading the word you’re doing your part!

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its unbelievably frustrating isnt it?

 

I think we're all victims of "crying wolf" in the sense that years ago I would say, "ugh panic attacks, i feel like im dying" and now its like, woah there, no, this ordeal is 10000 times worse, but everyone around us just equates it to the same old anxiety, depression or whtvr. I try to explain how physically crippled I am, how poisoned this feels, how deeply dark my brain has become, but theres no words that quantify whats happening to us.

 

people just do not even begin to understand the hell this is even after trying to explain it - they just think its the same old kinda anxiety symptoms cause it sounds like that to them.

 

ive told my folks - if anyone felt like what I feel like at my worst for even 1 freakin minute, theyd be shocked. theyd suddenly feel like they were on powerful drugs that were trying to kill them.

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its unbelievably frustrating isnt it?

 

I think we're all victims of "crying wolf" in the sense that years ago I would say, "ugh panic attacks, i feel like im dying" and now its like, woah there, no, this ordeal is 10000 times worse, but everyone around us just equates it to the same old anxiety, depression or whtvr. I try to explain how physically crippled I am, how poisoned this feels, how deeply dark my brain has become, but theres no words that quantify whats happening to us.

 

people just do not even begin to understand the hell this is even after trying to explain it - they just think its the same old kinda anxiety symptoms cause it sounds like that to them.

 

ive told my folks - if anyone felt like what I feel like at my worst for even 1 freakin minute, theyd be shocked. theyd suddenly feel like they were on powerful drugs that were trying to kill them.

 

Omg yes!! My sister says “u always feel... (fill in the blank)”. So no matter what I’m feeling she thinks of it as he same as my regular anxiety and depression. Unfortunately the English language doesn’t allow me any other way to describe this. I didn’t know this level of suffering was possible so I guess it’s my fault for using the most extreme words already. Now that I am suffering more than ever I have no way to communicate that. It’s very overwhelming.  Secluding myself has helped actually but I am sad that I can’t have normal relationships simply because people don’t understand.  I also understand completely that I’m not easy to be around. So there’s also that. Someone who is suffering so greatly isn’t exactly a joy to be around.

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Hope things improve Penny, don't become a recluse if possible----I missed interaction and dialogue so a long while. But as you say chronically sad/ exhausted people lose friends remarkably quickly.

I trust you have some folk you can offload to---drug "medicalised addiction" is so lonely and not well suppported in the UK IMHO

Best wishes

Dick

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Hope things improve Penny, don't become a recluse if possible----I missed interaction and dialogue so a long while. But as you say chronically sad/ exhausted people lose friends remarkably quickly.

I trust you have some folk you can offload to---drug "medicalised addiction" is so lonely and not well suppported in the UK IMHO

Best wishes

Dick

 

I feel like I interact with more compassionate people now. That just happened to eliminate a LOT of people. I’m happier for it. I also stopped contacting my ex who is still supporting me after 2.5 years of us splitting up. I am proud of myself for that. I have started to accept what is and while it’s not always pretty it caused me to make some very difficult decisions as far as personal relationships go.  Instead of expecting people to receive me in a certain way, I changed what I could, I can only change me. Hoping for more strength after yet another hurdle in life. This is all this is. A hurdle.

 

Thank you for your response. I appreciate any and all communication through this site. It’s helped me a lot.

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Penny, I basically cut myself off from people as soon as I got back from detox. I knew they would not understand or believe me. My family is the type that would have tried to force me to go to the doctor and get meds or some crazy mess. I simply told them that I had to work on ME and get back to me in a year. I have a 26 year old nephew that I told my story and he believes and stands by me. He comes twice a week and take me shopping or any where else I need to go. i also have 2 friends that take  me to appointments or any where when my nephew has to work.

 

I believe that doing it this way is helping my recovery a lot. When I do not feel well or in a wave I can just relax in my recliner with my dog at my feet. Lol I only go to doctors for physicals, Mammograms, Dentist, etc.

I only see the psychiatrist every 3 months to get my Buspar filled but my GP already said he would be happy to fill it for me.

 

Blessings

PG

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Thanks Guys, I think I needed to hear some of this today...

Out of words

Isolated

More hurdles

Ok to just BE in the reality... (when needed)

Dont eat pizza..

 

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Penny, I basically cut myself off from people as soon as I got back from detox. I knew they would not understand or believe me. My family is the type that would have tried to force me to go to the doctor and get meds or some crazy mess. I simply told them that I had to work on ME and get back to me in a year. I have a 26 year old nephew that I told my story and he believes and stands by me. He comes twice a week and take me shopping or any where else I need to go. i also have 2 friends that take  me to appointments or any where when my nephew has to work.

 

I believe that doing it this way is helping my recovery a lot. When I do not feel well or in a wave I can just relax in my recliner with my dog at my feet. Lol I only go to doctors for physicals, Mammograms, Dentist, etc.

I only see the psychiatrist every 3 months to get my Buspar filled but my GP already said he would be happy to fill it for me.

 

Blessings

PG

 

I’m so glad u have someone to help u trough. I luckily have my brother. I don’t know what I’d do without him.

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Thanks Guys, I think I needed to hear some of this today...

Out of words

Isolated

More hurdles

Ok to just BE in the reality... (when needed)

Dont eat pizza..

 

So glad you found some peace in this. Grateful for all of you.