I keep forgetting I'm in withdrawal...

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Hey!

 

I've been on and off this site for some years, now (mostly off). Ignore my signature - it's out-of-date. I'm currently on 12 mg Diazepam daily, having tapered from 40 mg daily about, er, 18 months ago? I can't remember...

 

And here's the thing: I have some emotional and psychological issues (what a surprise!), so I tend to attribute my mental and emotional problems to those; and I FORGET to factor in the benzos.

 

I still drink a lot, and I'm signed off work medically. I'm kind of OK, but I experience a general level of terror / anxiety / depression with which I have become so well acquainted that it's just... there. I still have fun sometimes, but I'm definitely not ok. (I could be far more specific, but it's almost irrelevant.)

 

I guess I'm just curious about anyone else who may also "forget" they're in withdrawal, or perhaps who doesn't take their withdrawal seriously enough. (I realise this is probably the wrong place to seek an answer!)

 

Anyway...

 

Wishing you all peace and ease,

 

Tim

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For me, the symptoms I am having in withdrawal are the same symptoms I've been having the last 20 years while I was taking klonopin.  I always though that it was anxiety and there was nothing I could do about it.  Now, I really think I never had anxiety like what I thought I had.  I think it was all caused by benzos.  Now I have  reason for feeling these weird things and it's much worse when I make a cut and now I can see the cause and effect going on.

 

Especially when I've been holding for a while, I feel no different than I did when I was still just taking benzos regularly.  I mean, how different can we expect to feel with just a cut and hold.  Eventually in a hold, you are just a benzo taker at a different dose.

 

 

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Thanks, Greencup... And this is kind of my point. I mean, how will I know what were preexisting issues until I'm off this sh*t? But I keep falling foul of assuming it's something preexistent.

 

I like your reminder that the holding between cuts eventually becomes like regular usage (and the ongoing tolerance withdrawal which accompanies it...).

 

Cheers!

 

Tim