Please help

[[Le...]]

Hi guys I am a real mess I'm keeping busy but am that stresses and worn out every part of my head is killing is hurting I can't handle any form of stress even listening to people chronic anxiety feels like my mind's gone.this is the scaredist of ever been brain feels the size of a pea. I am really worried can't sort things in my head.please has anyone else felt like this.i feel Im going to breakdown because can't deal with anything  have appointments can't even deal with going to them.ive got to get away

 

[[Ho...]]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time! I felt similarly a few months ago, totally overwhelmed, worn out, and unable to handle anything. I think it was in part from pushing myself too hard and expecting myself to be more healed than I was. Can you cut back on how much you are doing and perhaps practice some more self care? Is there anyone you trust that you can talk to about your worries?

[[Le...]]

I was reading a post where someone said if you took benzos before you dont recover is that true because I have for 10 years

[[Wh...]]

Sorry Lee, that doesn't even make sense.  What I have been told over and over is that everyone recovers and from what I've seen, I believe that is true.  No fear.  You will be okay.

[[pi...]]

Hello Lee02,

 

I've seen many people who have been on benzos for years, much longer than you, and have healed completely.  The central nervous system wants to return to balance and will work towards that goal.  It may take some time, for me it took far longer than I wished, but you will be OK.

 

As Whoopie said, keep believing in your healing.

 

pianogirl 

[[Le...]]

Thanks guys I have no one I am scared and don't feel safe on my own I am desperate I want to live but can't go on like this and need to get away from my family.i am so desperate I live in Australia does anyone know anywhere in America I could go and get help.

[[Le...]]

Please I am scared to be on my own have no help here and am desperate to get away from my family I live in australia.does anyone know anywhere in America I could get help.i don't want to die and I don't want to get any worse.

[[Gr...]]

The idea that you need to get away is most likely anxiety, caused by withdrawal. I'm sorry you are feeling so awful, but I doubt leaving the country is going to help much.  Honestly the best healing for most people happens inside the place they live.  It's really hard and I'm sorry you are suffering so much right now.

[[Su...]]

Hi Lee,

          Im sorry to hear youre having a rough time. I can absolutely relate to the stress/anxiety, feeling like you cant handle everything and strange urge to just pick up and take off far far away.

At my peak, I felt like I counldnt handle anything, I mean anything even remotely stressful. I was afraid to go to my mailbox, in case I got a bill or something that might be stressful, afraid to look at my e-mails in case a got a message that was stressful. It was really over the top.

I had a window the other week and those feelings mostly went away, even though they have crept back, its a good reminder that my crazy thoughts are withdrawal.

As for fleeing the country, I wouldnt recommend it, although believe me I understand it. Do you think being in a foreign country where you dont know anyone, while you're going through withdrawal well diminish your stress, I doubt it. Someone gave good advise and that was dont make any major life decisions while in withdrawal, just wait.

Maybe you could look into some sort of help/counsilling where you live?? What can you do to minimise the stress in your life right now?

 

I know this process is hard and cruel, probably the hardest thing you'll go through, for me it is. There is light at the end of the tunnel, Its just a damn long tunnel. 

[[Le...]]

Thanks for your feedback guys

[[Ca...]]

I had to move during my wd. I do not recommend it. Also, I live in America in a major city... cant seem to find a single doctor that will help w wd. And, before I knew I was in wd, I went to the ER so many times they sent me to a psych ward...I got out after 2 days, but the whole situation was bananas. They could have held me for 14 days plus. Stay home or go to the beAch If you can. The beach has ions and ions are healing. Sounds silly but...

[[An...]]

I have been on benzo's for 25 years and I am healing. I am almost done with my taper and I can tell you that the need to run is just w/d. I felt that way too but it has now passed. There are very few doctors anywhere that are going to be able to help you w/d. You just have to ride out this storm. Try to distract yourself as much as possible. Get the focus off your symptoms. It will seem impossible at first but you must try. Watch TV or read or meditate. Take an epsom salt bath. Anything and everything to get your mind off how you feel. This will pass. Take a walk if the urge to run is still there. Walking is good exercise and will calm your mind. If you can, go to the beach. I hope you feel better soon.

[[Wh...]]

I have been on benzo's for 25 years and I am healing. I am almost done with my taper and I can tell you that the need to run is just w/d. I felt that way too but it has now passed. There are very few doctors anywhere that are going to be able to help you w/d. You just have to ride out this storm. Try to distract yourself as much as possible. Get the focus off your symptoms. It will seem impossible at first but you must try. Watch TV or read or meditate. Take an epsom salt bath. Anything and everything to get your mind off how you feel. This will pass. Take a walk if the urge to run is still there. Walking is good exercise and will calm your mind. If you can, go to the beach. I hope you feel better soon.

 

Lovely post, so right on and such great advice.  I played various types of online games like solitaire while listening to audio of Buddhist dharma talks, Ted Talks and youtube videos online to get thru the days and nights.  Find what works for you and survive. 

[[Le...]]

Hi thankyou guys.although I'm trying different things having counsellor.found abit of a cleaning job. I am still getting worse mentally not eating no friends even going to churchi think because of been dealing  with this alone for ten years going different places to get help like private hospital a not normal rehab called grow where I was harrased for months by another resident.this has been crazy and then all the abuse from my family isolation.if I had have had the rite help from beginning all this wouldn't have happened.im not feeling sorry for myself but too my has happened and I am going crazy.i feel I need to be someone safe not hospital and away from all the pressures.weekends I sit here on my own.im scared I won't recover because too much has happened I'm sure I've also had a breakdown.i don't want to go insane or die I'm trying to get into a rehab but it's going good to take months I don't really want too but I can't go on like this anymore