Never-ending withdraw

[[va...]]

Ok. I don't know how much more I can take. Physically feel like death. Aches, exhaustion. Mentally I am gone. Nothing but intrusive, horrible thoughts. Depersonalization has gone to another level. This is nuts!!!!!!!

 

My drawring for today:

 

http://anxiousinklings.com

 

Best,

va

[[Fa...]]

It really does feel that way...a week long vacation from this would be great!

[[Ma...]]

"Benzoic era"-->so great! I'm with you on the intrusive, horrible thoughts. I don't even care much about the physical, as the mental is like one constant bad trip.

[[va...]]

Yep. Right there with you, Markidee,

 

They are now on another level as is the fatigue.

 

Praying for healing!!! We will all get there!!! 

[[pi...]]

Ok. I don't know how much more I can take. Physically feel like death. Aches, exhaustion. Mentally I am gone. Nothing but intrusive, horrible thoughts. Depersonalization has gone to another level. This is nuts!!!!!!!

 

My drawring for today:

 

http://anxiousinklings.com

 

Best,

va

 

Hi va,

 

You are not long off what was a pretty high dose of clonazepam.  This is a strong drug,  2mg is equivalent to 40 mg of valium.  What you are feeling is your nervous system reacting/over reacting to the cessation of the drug. This can happen even with a taper. Yours was pretty fast, mine was as well. I was on a much lower dose but still experienced severe withdrawal symptoms.

 

While it's hard to cope at times, coping is what we do. What I can suggest you do is to keep telling yourself that what you feel is withdrawal, it is not you. The Benzoic era will not last for seemingly forever, there will be an end.  Survive each minute, hour and day.  You can do this!!!

 

PG 

[[va...]]

Thanks Pianogirl,

 

It's just horrible. My mind is SO dark. All I can feel is regret, hopelessness, apathy. Obsessed about my appearance. Convinced that I look like a heroine addict and have done irreversible damage to my appearance and body.

 

I have never been on chemo, but I can't imagine it would feel much different then this. Hate that I am whining. Just don't know what to do. Feel physically and mentally ruined!!!

 

God help me.

 

Thanks again for your support.