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Does anyone else have a morbid fear of dying (pun intended) while going thru w/d process???

I swear, I wonder every single day and night if I am going to make it. I have never experienced pain and suffering like I do now. Am I the only one who is afraid they will NOT make it out alive?

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I feel the same way the symptoms I'm having from tapering off klonopin are awful.  Sometimes my anxiety is so bad that I feel like it's going to make me have a heart attack.  You're definitely not alone in having these feelings.

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OMG, I feel exactly the same way. Went to my cardiologist and found out through tests that my heart is perfect. Big relief but still feel as tho I am dying at times. When I walk my morning 3 miles, it is hard to breath, heart racing, tingle all over, and joints ache. But I know the exercise is good for me and my recovery and all doctors encourage me to continue thru w/d. (I used to walk 5 to 8 miles daily) now the 3 miles feel like a marathon I am walking.

 

hang in there and thanks for reply; I am glad I am not the only one.

 

good luck!

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Hi Pooh,

 

Just an observation,  but it looks like you are tapering VERY quickly.....  The Ashton Manual recommends aiming for 10% per Stage (1-2 weeks: although you can hold longer at a stage until you stabilize).  I tried cutting a 1/4 Xanax (same equivalency as Klonipin) every 3-4 days at first, and had terrible w/do symptoms like you.

 

Check out Professor Ashton''s online manual at www.benzo.org.UK and read it.  A quicker tapering sounds good, but Dr. Ashton says it typically leads to "protracted w/d" --- which I definitely want to avoid. So slow tapering appears to be the answer.

 

Hope this helps.

 

Best to you,

 

Wantnomore

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Does anyone else have a morbid fear of dying (pun intended) while going thru w/d process???

I swear, I wonder every single day and night if I am going to make it. I have never experienced pain and suffering like I do now. Am I the only one who is afraid they will NOT make it out alive?

 

Very, very common symptom, Pooh...

 

In a glutamate-dominant fight-or-flight state, our worst "pet fears" come to the fore and all of our thinking stems from, and revolves around, survival-type stuff.

 

That will all fade over time when you become less hyper-vigilant and edgy.

 

All the very best

 

 

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I've been feeling for a few years that a giant hand is going to come out of the sky and pound me. And that the longer I suffer the greater the odds it's on it's way. How could it not be? It's been so long. I've seen people get cancer and pass on while I've been healing here. I was on medical leave for 2 years and then was forced to retire early. You feel like Job.

 

I should say also that I have seen the end of life issues with my step father and my mom over the last 2 years. so that's in there.

 

Might I recommend one thing? An exercise routine of 30 minutes every day in front of the tv and aside from any other exercise you get. Get a PT person to give you a routine for your whole body. You'are going to need this support if you're on your back a lot for years.

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Hi Pooh,

 

Just an observation,  but it looks like you are tapering VERY quickly.....  The Ashton Manual recommends aiming for 10% per Stage (1-2 weeks: although you can hold longer at a stage until you stabilize).  I tried cutting a 1/4 Xanax (same equivalency as Klonipin) every 3-4 days at first, and had terrible w/do symptoms like you.

 

Check out Professor Ashton''s online manual at www.benzo.org.UK and read it.  A quicker tapering sounds good, but Dr. Ashton says it typically leads to "protracted w/d" --- which I definitely want to avoid. So slow tapering appears to be the answer.

 

Hope this helps.

 

Best to you,

 

Wantnomore

 

Thank you Wantnomore for your input. You are correct, I was tapering too quickly in the beginning but it was with dr. directions. When I saw him again and asked about slowing down Ashton method, he said he never heard of it and the lowest dose pill he would give me was 0.5 mg of K. so I have to cut into quarters. I agree with you to slow it down. I am NOT racing anyone in this w/d, that's for sure.

 

I appreciate the feedback . . . have a great day

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Does anyone else have a morbid fear of dying (pun intended) while going thru w/d process???

I swear, I wonder every single day and night if I am going to make it. I have never experienced pain and suffering like I do now. Am I the only one who is afraid they will NOT make it out alive?

 

Very, very common symptom, Pooh...

 

In a glutamate-dominant fight-or-flight state, our worst "pet fears" come to the fore and all of our thinking stems from, and revolves around, survival-type stuff.

 

That will all fade over time when you become less hyper-vigilant and edgy.

 

All the very best

 

Thank you NightWatch for your insight and reply. I appreciate the encouragement: I need all I can get at this point.

 

Best to you, too

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I've been feeling for a few years that a giant hand is going to come out of the sky and pound me. And that the longer I suffer the greater the odds it's on it's way. How could it not be? It's been so long. I've seen people get cancer and pass on while I've been healing here. I was on medical leave for 2 years and then was forced to retire early. You feel like Job.

 

I should say also that I have seen the end of life issues with my step father and my mom over the last 2 years. so that's in there.

 

Might I recommend one thing? An exercise routine of 30 minutes every day in front of the tv and aside from any other exercise you get. Get a PT person to give you a routine for your whole body. You'are going to need this support if you're on your back a lot for years.

 

Hi Drad Dog,

 

I do walk outside every morning: 3 miles. I also meditate 30 minutes a day and work in the yard most days. I used to walk 5 to 8 miles daily, yoga, upper body machine work. Due to the w/d agoraphobia I am unable to go to the clubhouse to work out for a few months.  Someday I will get back.

 

regarding the fear of dying during w/d: I try to distract myself in my thoughts and behaviors but once that loop begins, it just keeps on rolling.

 

I appreciate your reply and suggestions. thank you so much for taking the time out to give me some feedback.

 

best wishes to you

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I've been feeling for a few years that a giant hand is going to come out of the sky and pound me. And that the longer I suffer the greater the odds it's on it's way. How could it not be? It's been so long. I've seen people get cancer and pass on while I've been healing here. I was on medical leave for 2 years and then was forced to retire early. You feel like Job.

 

I should say also that I have seen the end of life issues with my step father and my mom over the last 2 years. so that's in there.

 

Might I recommend one thing? An exercise routine of 30 minutes every day in front of the tv and aside from any other exercise you get. Get a PT person to give you a routine for your whole body. You'are going to need this support if you're on your back a lot for years.

 

You're already a leg up on me. But make sure you do things that stretch and twist your skeleton and joints in a way that they don't get in a run or a walk. Now I got to start meditating again. You just reminded me.

 

Hi Drad Dog,

 

I do walk outside every morning: 3 miles. I also meditate 30 minutes a day and work in the yard most days. I used to walk 5 to 8 miles daily, yoga, upper body machine work. Due to the w/d agoraphobia I am unable to go to the clubhouse to work out for a few months.  Someday I will get back.

 

regarding the fear of dying during w/d: I try to distract myself in my thoughts and behaviors but once that loop begins, it just keeps on rolling.

 

I appreciate your reply and suggestions. thank you so much for taking the time out to give me some feedback.

 

best wishes to you

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Does anyone else have a morbid fear of dying (pun intended) while going thru w/d process???

I swear, I wonder every single day and night if I am going to make it. I have never experienced pain and suffering like I do now. Am I the only one who is afraid they will NOT make it out alive?

 

Yes, morbidity is a daily thing.  I don't think about dying per say, but when I look at people, I see skulls beneath their skins and skeletons, not living faces and bodies.  I also think, what's the point of living if we have to die?  Though it's a common w/d symptom, it's very unpleasant, to say the least.  Brrr..