feel that much bad at 4 months out

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Hello buddies,

 

I'm near 4 months out, i was only 4 months on 1mg xanax as needed... I've endured a lot of symptoms.

 

And i still endure a lot. I have anxiety, toxic sleep, toxic nap, muscle strong stiffness, dizziness, tinnitus, DR, extreme weakness, lot of GI issues, intolerence to stress. Sometimes i feel like i will die or fall and end in resuscitation unit.

 

I'm very not functionnal at all, some days the only thing i can do is lay in the bed...

 

I'm afraid of my condition regarding the short time use and the low dose i was on. I dont feel recovering at all, i'm just so little better than 2 months ago.

 

Do you felt that much bad too at 4 months out ?? Do you think it is normal to be so bad with so little time and dose taken ??

 

I feel so hopeless I know i'm negative and i shouldnt be but its really hard to have no life anymore. Take care all.

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I am just over 4 months off and still suffering with a huge list of symptoms as well. I don't know if it is normal but I know that it's possible. I was short term too...only 6.5 weeks so it is really hard to believe that all of the symptoms I am having are still going on. Only my sleep has improved a little nothing else so far. It's all still really bad. I feel hopeless too after all the time with no progress. It's impossibe not to be negative at times during this. I try to stay positive and think that it will end soon but it doesn't seem like that will happen. I'm not really functional at all right now either. Sorry you are still suffering and I hope it will get easier for you soon. Did you ct or taper?

[[Be...]]

Sorry you are still feeling bad, but yea 4 months is still pretty early and for me I didnt feel Ok until month 5, hang in there it does get better every month, just slowly.

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In fact you pointed the problem out Faery : it's hard to believe it's only benzo

[[Gr...]]

In fact you pointed the problem out Faery : it's hard to believe it's only benzo

Hi Yong, ai see in your signature you were on a few antidepressants earlier this year. Those can have withdrawals too and could possibly be making benzo withdrawal tougher. Things get complicated when you are recovering from multiple psych meds.

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Some one, I can't remember who posted that they had brain damage from an accident when younger and took a while, a year maybe to get over it and why would we think brain damage from benzos should take less time to get over?

I took that post to heart as it is probably the truth.

 

2trusting

 

 

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That's true grapejuice, i was on a low dose of AD too, and i quitted all together. I only want to be functionnal again

[[Ho...]]

I am here with you brother..short term intermittent use destroyed my life. I am a mother of 4 and can barely function and my parents have to watch my children. I have 24/ 7 severe anxiety and uncomfortable nerve sensations....absolute torture. Praying everyday to God to have Mercy on me. I am so scared also but we WILL heal. Your body is made to HEAL.

[[Ca...]]

Yes it’s normal,4 months is early and it will get better

Hang in there!

[[Be...]]

Hey Camela how are you feeling at 8 months?

[[Ca...]]

Hey Camela how are you feeling at 8 months?

 

 

Thank you, i'm still feeling the chemical anixety constantly in the background,but I've noticed improvements..toxic naps/morning anxiety,face pressure,akathisa is gone and anxiety is lower, those "terror attacks" with self awareness and heartburn is much better.

So it's still bad,but not as bad as it was

 

how are you feeling?

 

Hang in there!

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I'm in Month 5. I'm stuck in a constant state of perpetual anxiety. Everything is terrifying, whether it be being alone, showering, sleeping at night. I feel like a miserable waste of a human and worry that it's all just me and not withdrawal. I don't know how to tell the difference. It feels like I'm always on the verge of a panic attack that never comes and my mind just isn't normal, I can't control it or the constant negative/worrying thoughts. I had a "window" during Month 4, where the anxiety became very mild and I was basically living a normal life, albeit fending off thoughts here and there.. But I was in a much better place. I don't understand why it came back. It actually feels the same, if not worse, than acute (1-2 months). Can this really be happening in Month 5?

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Me too. Same stuff. 4.5 months from 5 months of 1mg or less klonopin. I was making progress but quit a very low dose of bp med (whittling down for months, for migraines) and boom, crappy, unrelenting wave with a whole added bonus of new symptoms in the form of toxic, early morning rush wakings. Sometimes I look back on acute and it was actually better in some respects. I have tinnitus too and that is the killer right now. I know this is all temporary but temporary to me should have been over two months ago.

 

Hang in there. I had the pleasure of talking to Baylissa on Monday. She had all these symptoms. All the rotten ear stuff and it's gone. She was extremely reassuring. We'll all get through this. We will heal, it's inevitable. We just have to find the strength to endure.

 

McS

 

 

[[Be...]]

Hey Camela how are you feeling at 8 months?

 

 

Thank you, i'm still feeling the chemical anixety constantly in the background,but I've noticed improvements..toxic naps/morning anxiety,face pressure,akathisa is gone and anxiety is lower, those "terror attacks" with self awareness and heartburn is much better.

So it's still bad,but not as bad as it was

 

how are you feeling?

 

Hang in there!

 

Doing much better than I was 2 months ago! Still have waves of fatigue, sleep is worse this month than last but overall getting better. Hope we are healed soon!

[[Su...]]

Hi yong and others,

                            Im in month 4 off xanax, and right now in feeling horrible. I dont understand it because last week I had a window and actually felt almost normal, It was beautiful. Now akathesia, tinnitus, depression, anxiety feeling like there is acid in my veins, I feel like Im in acute again. I hate this process, its so discouraging to feel better and then get really sick again.

I know we'll heal, but looking at the timelines on most peoples success stories, 4 months is early days and we have a fair way to go. Just take care of yourself and healing will happen.