How do you continue to live in this hell?

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Every second of everyday is complete despair and fear. How do you find the strength to continue with this?

I can't continue with this for another month let alone years. Instead of the death penalty they should give people the benzo withdrawal penalty.

[[Fa...]]

The worst part is not knowing when it will end I don't know how much longer I can take it either seriously! I hope things get easier for you soon. What symptoms do you have?

[[vi...]]

Find a way to get through your day.

 

That's all I can do. I want to survive this.

[[ro...]]

Hi faery

 

I have constant panic attacks 24/7, scared to go outside incase I see somebody I know, horrible negative thoughts about my past and future, depression that is out of this world, tinnitus, pain in my legs that feels like acid is running through them.

 

How are you coping? What symptoms do you have?

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I just take comfort knowing I'm not the only one going through this.  If others can go through this & get better, so can i.  It's taught me a new patience & a new perspective.  Something that helps is watching comedy.  Also coming on here & being of service by replying to posts helps keep me out of my own head when I'm thinking of others & not myself.

[[Fa...]]

One day at a time...that's the only way out of this. I have insomnia, weight loss, hair loss, health anxiety, depression, burning pain, GI issues, head pressure and pain, fatigue, dizziness, lack of emotions etc. Did you taper or ct? How long have you been going through this? Sorry it's still so bad...it has to let up at some point right?

[[ro...]]

I cold turkeyed 94 days ago. My symptoms are getting worse by the day. Taking everything one minute at a time.

 

I've just spoken with my local drug and alcohol team on the phone for the first time. They said that withdrawal doesn't last 90 days. I just put the phone down 😔. This truly tests the human endurance to maximum capacity.

 

I wish there was a retreat where we could all go and recover from this nightmare. I just spend my days alone trying to survive.

 

You are all very strong people 🌊👍

[[vi...]]

You are also very strong 🙂

 

49 days today. I wish I could step into my old self just once a day for a short while.

 

I try not to count symptoms, it's more stressful.

[[Th...]]

Hey rollercoaster hang in there buddy. At 4 and 5 months my symptoms settled down quiet a bit and i did a Ct. it's gona be good one minute and bad the next but if you go back or add other drugs it will last even longer. Eat clean no msg, caffeine, sugar, stay away from stress, sick people, don't do strenuous exercise and read some success stories.

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Hi fairy

 

Thanks for the pep talk. Need a lot of them at the minute. My life is one massive stress at this moment. Divorce, loss of job etc.

 

My doctor gave me serequol for sleep yesterday. Made me even worse last night, one big acid trip throughout the night. ( never again )

 

My future was so bright, now it looks so dark 😔

 

Thanks again

[[Kl...]]

I said all the things you are saying and while I'm not fully recovered yet, things are so much better and I continue to improve every week. My bad days are not even close to how they were at 3 months or so.  You'll start to see more and more better days as you go and it will get easier. Stay strong, you can do it!

[[be...]]

Survive each day. The time will come when you don’t fear the night. I went though being terrified at the end of the day for the panic which was coming with no sleep. Month 4 was really tough for me but I made it through. The sleep aspect is a bitch, I’m just starting to get 5 hours. It’s getting better, it’s just glacier slow. I too divorced, and quit my job. Now I’m looking at a brighter future starting with a new company next month. One day at a time

[[Sw...]]

Every second of everyday is complete despair and fear. How do you find the strength to continue with this?

I can't continue with this for another month let alone years. Instead of the death penalty they should give people the benzo withdrawal penalty.

 

Dude, I am right there with you!

 

Sweet pea

[[Sp...]]

Time will heal, hang in there. I too was in hell for a while. I've not been well this week but I get up and go.

 

Keep fighting!

I hope you feel better sooner than later

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I've just gone into warrior mode. I KNOW I'm going to come out this stronger. There is no way one can't. I want a happy life and my health again so bad there's no way I'll give up. Excersize everyday, get close to nature, find out what REALLY matters in life. Try and try again. Breakdowns all my preconceived notions of life. Grow wiser everyday in this struggle. We will heal and life will be beautiful again, that's how I continue.

[[...]]

I don't know really, just survive each day. I've managed to continue working and I swear I'm done, but I have to. Just totally exhausted and scared to be honest.

[[ec...]]

Hello

I am the wife and carer of my husband who stopped benzos about 2 months ago....his life, mine and our children's has been radically transformed by the terrible transformation my husband underwent and who is still suffering terribly. He used to be a pretty normal guy...incredibly active both physically and intellectually before taking benzos and now barely comes down the stairs...I am in mode single parent now. I am the one who put his taper in place with no help or understanding from the medical world who gave him that stuff that wreaked o much havoc on our lives.

But the most important thing is that once you have stopped you will eventually get better. Time it would seem is the only thing that can help the damaged brain which will eventually repair. Just keep going........

[[ro...]]

It must be awful seeing a loved one struggle. I'm trying to keep my pain and anguish bottled up as to not hurt anyone.

Caregivers require time for themselves, you must be drained and exhausted.

[[Kl...]]

It must be awful seeing a loved one struggle. I'm trying to keep my pain and anguish bottled up as to not hurt anyone.

Caregivers require time for themselves, you must be drained and exhausted.

 

It's been so hard on my fiance. She has been amazing but sometimes it gets too much for her. I've tried to limit what I share with her now and found some amazing buddies to support each other when times get tough.

[[Fa...]]

I had to stop talking to my husband about symptoms. He was getting way too stressed out and having chest pains and didn't even want to come home after work cuz he knew I would be there upset and freaking out. I don't want to drive him crazy by complaining just wish he knew I was not doing it on purpose just really scared and feel so lonely in this. I'm glad we have each other to complain to here and we can tolerate it and sympathize with one another.

[[Go...]]

Every second of everyday is complete despair and fear. How do you find the strength to continue with this?

I can't continue with this for another month let alone years. Instead of the death penalty they should give people the benzo withdrawal penalty.

 

I have had similar thoughts. Benzo withdraw could be used instead of water boarder, sleep deprivation and other dubious methods... Suffering and loneliness. It's torture.  :-[

[[Ph...]]

Distract, distract, distract.  Immerse yourself in something.  Then distract some more.  Pat yourself on the back for having enough courage and self respect to get off this poison.  Try to re-package your pain.  See it as a form of freedom.  Consider that, as badly as you suffer, there are millions of others who suffer more.  Much more.  Perspective can help.  As I type this the bones in my arms are burning, a symptom of protracted withdrawal.  I can choose to see this as bad or good.  I see it as good.  A stage of healing.

[[Ch...]]

I cold turkeyed 94 days ago. My symptoms are getting worse by the day. Taking everything one minute at a time.

 

I've just spoken with my local drug and alcohol team on the phone for the first time. They said that withdrawal doesn't last 90 days. I just put the phone down 😔. This truly tests the human endurance to maximum capacity.

 

I wish there was a retreat where we could all go and recover from this nightmare. I just spend my days alone trying to survive.

 

You are all very strong people 🌊👍

 

This is semantics as far as the medical field is concerned.  Withdrawal is over, you are recovering now from the temporary changes the benzodiazepine has done to the central nervous system.  Semantics doesn't make it any easier for you, but it might explain why they said this.

 

We go through it because there isn't any other choice to get back to normal again.  Recovering from benzodiazepine use/withdrawal has been compared to the movie Groundhog Day.  If you haven't seen it, maybe it would be a good distraction for a few hours.  It's not an alarming movie, but not an upper either.

 

Cold turkey is tough...but you're doing it, a minute, an hour, a day at a time.  Hang on, it will get better.  Sorry for the platitude...

[[ro...]]

Photo - perspective is a good way of looking at things, I appreciate there are people far worse off in the world than myself. However, when you are in the pits of despair I really struggle to distract and think of anything else. I think I might start sticking post it notes around the house with phrases on them.

 

Challis- the drug counsellor was referring to the fact that I should be healed after 90 days ☹️. I truly believe to be a drug counsellor you have to walk a mile in whatever the drug you are counselling persons shoes. Nobody I have spoken to understands benso withdrawal, they look at me like I'm speaking Japanese.

[[Ch...]]

Photo - perspective is a good way of looking at things, I appreciate there are people far worse off in the world than myself. However, when you are in the pits of despair I really struggle to distract and think of anything else. I think I might start sticking post it notes around the house with phrases on them.

 

Challis- the drug counsellor was referring to the fact that I should be healed after 90 days ☹️. I truly believe to be a drug counsellor you have to walk a mile in whatever the drug you are counselling persons shoes. Nobody I have spoken to understands benso withdrawal, they look at me like I'm speaking Japanese.

 

No surprise there.  A drug counselor told me to jump from Xanax at .25mg before I found BB.  That advice threw me into a level of hell that, had I known better, didn't need to happen.  My taper wasn't easy up to that point, but it wasn't hell until then either.