Scared

[[Ki...]]

Irritable and moody sometimes to the point that I don't recognize myself. What's happening to me? 

 

I think I might be just a little bit angry at life.

 

Has anyone else felt the same way going through wd and healing?

 

[[Tj...]]

I am also having an issue with this.  It's my first week off of everything and I don't know what im going to do if this doesn't stop but I guess it's all part of it.  I went through the manual a bit and it tells you to treat this like a war.  Fight the battle.  I find it helps to find little thing like that.  Once that kinda fades out find something else then something else.  Keep arming yourself with distraction.

[[Re...]]

You are not alone in this, I too have experienced extreme case of anger and irritability. In the beginning I was scared of my self a few times because I became so enraged at things before that I would easily have shrugged off. We have three boys, all under 7, and there loud playing and screaming set me off into extreme fear and terror, and my body would go into fight or flight action. I had to ask for a lot of help from my wife and others during this time so as to keep everyone safe. Also, spent a lot of moments apologizingand asking my boys for forgiveness as soon as possible, and kept trying to let them in as much as possible, and let them know how they could help. There is hope, those moments have become less frequent and less intense, but they still pop up out of no where, yet I'm able to cut them off sooner, and have started removing myself from situations a lot quicker. It's required a lot of grace with myself during this process, and thankfully a lot from others around me. Hang in there, your true self is healing and will return with more passion, purpose and peace than you ever had before.

[[Ma...]]

Irritability and moodiness are hallmark symptoms of benzo withdrawal. And yeah, I get the anger thing. This part is different than the irritability and moodiness. I'm angry that my life has been so derailed by anxiety/depression/benzo withdrawal. I'm angry to have lost so much. I'm angry at the doctors who prescribed me the drugs in the first place. I'm angry at psychiatry in general. For me, there is a difference between this (often justified) anger, and the fight or flight that can cause little fits of rage or anxiety. The former, I find, is somewhat constructive. It's motivating me to get my life back and stay away from everything and everyone harmful.

 

You matter so much! Keep fighting--as Tjm1986 said, it's a war and each day is a battle. Take it one day, one hour, one sandwich at a time.