Think may be addicted

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Hi, I am 49 yrs old in Ohio. I have had depression, ADD, anxiety and Insomnia for many years. I have tried many medications over the years and the current sleep med I take is Triazolam AKA Halcion I believe. I started at 0.25 mg but was not effective so now on 0.50. It helps me sometimes but I am doing things whilst asleep that I have no memory of. On a recent vacation something really bad happened but I do not remember everything and now my children will not talk to me, nor will a couple family members.

 

I can not get any sleep without it but even on it my sleep is erratic and I have frequent wakenings. I have tried skipping some nights and it is no sleep unless I take them. I am scarred of the things I am doing when I take them, this includes sending emails, cooking meals, eating and who knows what else.

 

I got out of compliance on my meds, I take over 30 including creams and supplements. I have been experiencing extreme anxiety and depressed episodes wanting to die, abused inhalants, anger and rage outbursts and everything inbetween. I have been having extreme pain all over and no energy, feeling exhausted all the time.

 

Some of my other meds include Gabapentin, Norco and Adderall.

 

Could I be experiencing some adverse effect from my meds and going into some kind of withdrawal that could cause extreme anger and rage. I even drove drunk 3 times. I sometimes add alcohol to try and take the edge of how I feel. My last episode of huffing butane lighter refill gas was 2 nights ago.

[Guest [Le...]]

Hello, Nobody - welcome to BenzoBuddies!

 

It's pretty scary when the drugs cause you to do things in an essentially blacked-out state. It's sometimes hard to know where to begin when coming off of several drugs, but having been on both Ativan and Adderall at the same time, I personally believe it's best to taper off the Adderall first, because if you're still on an amphetamine during a benzo taper, you're going to have a really tough time sleeping. This is a great place to sort that out and begin your withdrawal and recovery. 

 

I'm so glad you decided to join the forum - you'll find plenty of information and support here. Our members have gone through all aspects of benzodiazepine use and withdrawal, so you'll be able to connect with others who understand what you're going through.

 

Let me give you a few links to boards that may be a good starting place for you to post your questions:

 

  General Taper Plans

  Withdrawal Support

  Other Medications

 

Please take the time to Create a Signature. This will allow members to see where you are in the process, so that they can better support you.

 

Looking forward to seeing you on the forum!

Leslie 

 

 

The Ashton Manual is an authoritative resource on what to expect during withdrawal and recovery. It provides a great deal of information that can be very reassuring during any stage of this process, including a list of common symptoms with helpful explanations.

 

For those who are currently tapering, a starting guideline is that the dosage not be reduced faster than by 5-10% every 10-14 days - some taper even more slowly than that. One exception: very short-term users of a few weeks or less may be able to taper somewhat faster