I can't think...

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I can't think, I can't stay on task. Then I get overwhelmed wondering if/when this will stop. Then I cry...this is awful.

 

Anyone having a good day today? I'd love to hear about it compared to your bad days, it'll maybe give me some hope.

 

Does anyone read the success stories and think to themselves "yea, but they didn't CT like me.."

 

Rough day today.

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I'm sorry that you're having so much confusion today.  I remember giving an astronomy lecture when I was in acute withdrawal, and sometimes not being able to remember what sentence I was saying halfway thru the sentence (thank goodness for Powerpoint).  It does get better, but it's really easy to get frustrated when there's so much confusion.  Just try to keep tasks simple (especially on challenging days). 

 

People do survive C/T's  (I did).  Yeah, it was really bad for a while.  Try not to anguish about how long this will last.  That kind of thinking doesn't usually make people feel better.  Instead, do your best to live as 'normal' a life as you can, all things considered.  Try to stay busy doing stuff - it helps the time pass, and time is what you need right now.

 

You're going to be fine.

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Thank you so much badsocref. Ive been confused and scattered and crying  all day. Your note helped a ton.

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I think it's tempting, in a terrible way, to say, "but I'm not like the others who have succeeded." I think the body tends to create new reasons to get back to the awful homeostasis of the benzo, by sending us all this information that basically is summed up by "I'm not going to be okay."

 

I pretty much CT'd, too, and deal with the cog fog, the confusion, the disorientation. I'm a teacher, so it's pretty hard not being sharp all the time. Even so, I'm a better teacher than last year when I was on Ativan, despite the wildly distracting symptoms. I find that acceptance of this place and allowing my body and mind to go through the ringer without intense fighting or resistance, makes it a little bit easier.

 

I guess I just wanted to say, it's going to be okay. There's no rule that says a CT leads to permanent damage. From what I read tapering is really, really hard too. You're going to be okay!

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Thanks Markidee. I woke up feeling reasonably well today. However after that the confusion set in, crying fits/rage, dizziness. It's so frustrating.

 

I'm a fitness/nutrition coach, so like you I have to be "on" all the time. So this is brutal.

 

I'm a type 1 diabetic, so my health fears and anxiety (what started this whole mess) actually have some legs. I played football in college and was a ranked amateur boxer - so concussion complications scare me too - as I've certainly had quite a few. Sometimes I think it might not be benzo WD and that it's permanent. It's been a horrible week for me. I hope yours is better than mine. You message above helped a lot. Thanks bud.

 

 

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I CT'd too and I am healing. I just hit my 1 year mark a couple of weeks ago and although I still have symptoms that I'm dealing with, I am enormously better than I was a year ago. It was brutal but now I am living my life pretty well and I know that there is more healing to come! Hang in there!

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Thank you blackeyedsusan, reading this lifted me up a little this morning.

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One thing I try and remember on my bad days is I have already gotten through a day much worse in comparison.  Everything is temporary. Things tend to come in waves.

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One thing I try and remember on my bad days is I have already gotten through a day much worse in comparison.  Everything is temporary. Things tend to come in waves.

this is such good advice. It's like stic philosophy and I love it. Thanks.

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Glad you got something out of it. The reason you agree is because most likely you already knew it was true

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I'm almost 3 months out from a C/T and I have had a relatively good day today. I used Kratom today and have found it really lift my mood and relieve some of my anxiety. The only negative for me is that it increases the illusions I see, but at this point I don't really care. I also have thoughts about how C/T might have permanently damaged me given that I was doing the equivalent of over 150mg of Valium everyday for 6+ months. I was very frightened for awhile I had permanent brain damage. You'll get through it man, like others have said your mind comes up with a lot of excuses to make you want to go back to using benzos.

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I'm almost 3 months out from a C/T and I have had a relatively good day today. I used Kratom today and have found it really lift my mood and relieve some of my anxiety. The only negative for me is that it increases the illusions I see, but at this point I don't really care. I also have thoughts about how C/T might have permanently damaged me given that I was doing the equivalent of over 150mg of Valium everyday for 6+ months. I was very frightened for awhile I had permanent brain damage. You'll get through it man, like others have said your mind comes up with a lot of excuses to make you want to go back to using benzos.

 

Be careful with that stuff.  Some people find that it back-fires the following day.  I'll be interested in hearing how you feel tomorrow.

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I'm almost 3 months out from a C/T and I have had a relatively good day today. I used Kratom today and have found it really lift my mood and relieve some of my anxiety. The only negative for me is that it increases the illusions I see, but at this point I don't really care. I also have thoughts about how C/T might have permanently damaged me given that I was doing the equivalent of over 150mg of Valium everyday for 6+ months. I was very frightened for awhile I had permanent brain damage. You'll get through it man, like others have said your mind comes up with a lot of excuses to make you want to go back to using benzos.

 

Be careful with that stuff.  Some people find that it back-fires the following day.  I'll be interested in hearing how you feel tomorrow.

I feel fine today. Luckily I tend to never have any problems with Kratom, unless I eat too much!