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[[va...]]

Changes in appearance during withdraw. Good times

 

http://anxiousinklings.com

[[pi...]]

Changes in appearance during withdraw. Good times

 

http://anxiousinklings.com

 

That's a good one vaartist!  Although I think I looked pretty "normal" during the process which is surprising given the way I felt. I can tell you how many times I asked my husband if I looked different. It's funny, or not so, how withdrawal can be hidden in plain sight.

 

 

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[[va...]]

Thanks piano,

 

For me my perception of how I look is so distorted. It is verging on something like body-dysmorphia or anorexia. Really screwed up!! Mirrors are a challenge!

 

Hope you're doing well! 

[[pi...]]

Thanks piano,

 

For me my perception of how I look is so distorted. It is verging on something like body-dysmorphia or anorexia. Really screwed up!! Mirrors are a challenge!

 

Hope you're doing well! 

 

I'm doing well thanks!!! Some day that will be your answer to the same question, it's worth the wait. 

[[va...]]

Trying to hold on to that North star of recovery! It's all I got right now! Thanks

[Guest [ha...]]

Great one...yes, I don't even recognize myself anymore in this...

[[va...]]

Surreal stuff!! Here's to healing!

[[NY...]]

Awesome drawings!  I love the derealization one.  Nice work 

 

Re: body dysmorphia.  I really think most of us experience this, especially with DP/DR etc.  I had it terribly, thought I looked atrocious.  Then one day it lifted, I was able to look into the mirror, and all of the image distortions were proven to be just that.  I still get it in waves, but know it's untrue, so generally avoid mirrors until my next window

[[va...]]

Thanks NYC!!! Hope you are doing well!! 

[[NY...]]

Thanks NYC!!! Hope you are doing well!! 

 

Thanks.  I've been better, but soldiering on here.  Just in an especially bad wave.  But it will pass.  It always does.  Hang in there 

[[va...]]

I hear you! I'm in the same boat!! Looking forward to healing!!!

[[al...]]

Your drawings makes me scared... I guess that's benzo withdrawal 

[[va...]]

Sorry about that, Alokin. Not the intention, although this withdraw stuff is insane. Keep telling myself this is healing!!

 

Hope you're doing well! 

[[Fi...]]

Lmao! You're a pro at truly capturing our reality! What a relief to find its not only me. Nice to finally laugh about it instead of cry.  So enjoy you're work buddy, always look forward to clicking the link to see what that creative mind of yours has come up with next. Thanks for sharing with us!  I can draw a stick figure for you if you want.. 

[[va...]]

Thanks Fighting,

 

Working on the burning head one! Hope you're doing ok today.

 

Best vaardigst

[[Fi...]]

Can't wait to see what you come up with for it! Still physical pain but smiling  How are you doing through all this? Bad of me not to ask! For shame! All I ever do is comment on your art, so sorry!

[[Bu...]]

I can totally relate to changing appearances.  On some days, the dark bags under my eyes make me look like a hound dog. On other days, my eyesight is so blurry, they don't look so bad...   Hang in there everyone.

[[Fi...]]

So true about hanging in there, too bad once we were all healed we couldn't all get together and celebrate. That would be one big party buddies! We can do it! I pray everyone starts to see more improvements every day 

[[va...]]

Can't wait to see what you come up with for it! Still physical pain but smiling  How are you doing through all this? Bad of me not to ask! For shame! All I ever do is comment on your art, so sorry!

 

Hi Fighting,

 

Thanks for the note. I am having a ROUGH day. My DP/DR are horrible. I am obsessing about the past, feeling debilitating regret and almost unable to recognize myself!!! So scary.

 

Hope your day's going better!! 

[[Fi...]]

Hi Vaartist, I'm so sorry you are having such a brutal day. I really really feel for you. I hear you about the regret and not feeling like yourself. The dp and dr are unreal. Funny that I just literally finished having a meltdown about the exact same thing and was going to post about it. Is there anything that you do that helps? 

Just got to keep hoping that tomorrow will be better. Do you ever get other days where your anxiety is stupid crazy and you can't calm yourself down? As I write this I'm trying to stop crying and can't catch my breath. We all need a miracle, or at least some relief man. I'm so sorry you are in pain, if you ever need to vent feel free to message me. The past is so brutal, I wish our brains would just erase it from our memory. All these traumas and ordeals just add to the anguish. I send you a big hug and know that if you ever need to just have someone listen I'm here for you buddy.

You can get through this, you are strong and always have such kind words for everyone. Your art is so calming because we can all relate and that in itself allows us to recognize that we aren't alone in this battle. That we haven't completely lost it, it's our brains and body healing. I just wish that it wouldn't be such a long drawn out process. Hang in there buddy, I say why not at the end of all this get your work published into a book about this is a benzo brain healing?  I would so buy it and hand it out to my family and friends who cannot remotely understand this in the least. Your drawings express so much and no words are needed. Just a thought.

If this message is all over the place I apologize, but I'm sure you understand. Keep pushing forward Vaartist, you got this man.

[[te...]]

Hi Vaartist, your drawings are really amazing. Please keep them coming! Hope you begin to see some improvements soon. Hugs to you 

[[va...]]

Hi Vaartist, I'm so sorry you are having such a brutal day. I really really feel for you. I hear you about the regret and not feeling like yourself. The dp and dr are unreal. Funny that I just literally finished having a meltdown about the exact same thing and was going to post about it. Is there anything that you do that helps? 

Just got to keep hoping that tomorrow will be better. Do you ever get other days where your anxiety is stupid crazy and you can't calm yourself down? As I write this I'm trying to stop crying and can't catch my breath. We all need a miracle, or at least some relief man. I'm so sorry you are in pain, if you ever need to vent feel free to message me. The past is so brutal, I wish our brains would just erase it from our memory. All these traumas and ordeals just add to the anguish. I send you a big hug and know that if you ever need to just have someone listen I'm here for you buddy.

You can get through this, you are strong and always have such kind words for everyone. Your art is so calming because we can all relate and that in itself allows us to recognize that we aren't alone in this battle. That we haven't completely lost it, it's our brains and body healing. I just wish that it wouldn't be such a long drawn out process. Hang in there buddy, I say why not at the end of all this get your work published into a book about this is a benzo brain healing?  I would so buy it and hand it out to my family and friends who cannot remotely understand this in the least. Your drawings express so much and no words are needed. Just a thought.

If this message is all over the place I apologize, but I'm sure you understand. Keep pushing forward Vaartist, you got this man.

 

Thanks So much Hard,

 

I am so glad that the drawings bring a smile or some comfort however dark some of them may seem. So sorry you are having a bad time today. I am right there with you. It's otherworldly! The DP/DR is nuts. I just got back from a hot yoga class exhausted. I was in pain for a lot of it, but glad I did it. The end of yet another brutal day. I hope we all have some windows. soon!!! I will keep drawing. Thanks for the encouragement! 

[[Fi...]]

Thanks Vaartist, you're still able to do tough out Hot Yoga?! I wish! Any exercise and I get so sick. I'd probably be out for the count, face down on the floor if I was even in that studio for more than two minutes! Heat intolerance is just another joy of all this! Awesome that you can handle it even though it's painful, you deserve an award for doing that right now champ! 

[[va...]]

Hi Fighting,

 

I don't think I have the heat intolerance, although it IS brutal!! Yesterday was extremely rough. Everything ached and the fatigue was horrible. Made it through.........barely.

 

Hope you are doing better today!!! Another day closer to healing!!

[[Fi...]]

It so refreshing that even though you are going through so much you are always so positive  thank goodness for that and for the other buddies on here who are the same!