Toxic persons

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Me and my mom went away from home Because my father was drinking since Long Time and it was not possible to continue like this.

My dad still drink and is totally depressive and cry each time I got him on phone or I see him... And its like he have cognitive problems too and his way of being is really  scary sometimes.

He stresses me and give me lot of anxiety at each contact... I dont know What to do with this, I Just cant handle any stress right now, anxiety is Just around the corner waiting to set in my mind when I get stressed !

Should I avoid this toxic contact even if its my dad ?

I dont want to let him down but I have to heal

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Sorry bud, that's terrible...

 

Dealing with withdrawal and other inevitable life stressors can be very very difficult. Maybe others will have a different view but I think that you come first. You need to recover and find yourself.

 

At the moment I can't do much, pretty much dragging myself around the house. There is so much of family politics and nonsense going on it instantly makes me sweat and even more weak.

 

It's difficult to block it out, however there is also nothing I can do about it so I'm trying very hard to ignore it. I went out for about two hours with my dad, he was consuming alcohol and wanted me to drive. I didn't drive, I couldn't drive so he drove under the influence. This was extremely stressful and found myself in a deep pool of anxiety.

 

I rather just stay at home, in the yard till I heal. People just don't understand what it's like to be on a benzo and be in withdrawal.

 

Good luck, you come first!

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Seriously I really hate alcohol, I think more even than benzos

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I hate both, benzo's more.

 

I've watched my dad in and out of alcohol addiction.

 

I never consumed more than a beer or two because of my experience with him. Who knew today I would be sitting in benzo withdrawal. Alcohol really doesn't compare to this beast. Say this over and over, I hate the Dr's for has happen to me.

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Hi Yong. I feel for you. Last year I decided to stop interacting with my mom because she was abusive and toxic for me. It's a hard decision to stop seeing a parent. There is a lot of social pressure to stay with your family no matter what. Just know it is OK to take space from ANYONE who is having a negative affect on you EVEN family. I believe it is a healthy choice. Difficult, but healthy. I wish you the best.

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Hi yong,

 

It sometimes helps to be able to talk out things that bother us.  This is a public thread and anyone outside the forum can read it.  Would you like to start a blog so you can discuss this in a more private setting?  Blogs are not seen by the public.

 

Here's a link to Buddie Blogs:  Buddie Blogs

 

This is also a good way to chat with people you've met here or get extra support.

 

Challis 

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Thanks challis ❤️