Is any of this normal? 10 1/2 months off and getting so much worse!

[[Ma...]]

I'm sorry to keep bothering everyone but this just keeps getting worse now over the last month I have been hit with the most severe level of symptoms both physically and emotionally I have ever experienced and I don't know what is Benzo WD or what the Zoloft is doing but the suffering is unbearable and I don't feel like I'm healing just getting worse everyday!

 

The physical pain and head pressure has become so unbearable I can not sleep or function in anyway at all! Can't hardly get out of bed for more than a few mins and have to lay back down so much extreme pressure pain numbness burning and tightening in my brain this is the 2nd night in the last week I've had to get a ice pack for my head just extremely nauseous and in so much pain! It's hard to describe but it feels like my head is about to explode and burst open and so much pressure and pain I can stand extremely nauseous feel just physically sick like the worst migraine who could possibly imagine x 10 and burning sharp shooting and dull pain in my forehead my temples above and behind my eyes top of my head both sides of my head down the right side of my face and neck it's horrific and the worst it's ever been!

 

The emotional symptoms are so severe extreme anxiety feeling of crawling out of my own skin severe DP/DR depression fatigue and horrible intrusive thoughts feeling like I'm completely losing it and losing all touch of reality!

 

Can't breath curled up in a ball on my bed in so much pain and torment I can't stand it and it's getting worse and very scary to be this bad after being 10 1/2 months off that evil drug and I don't know if trying to cut the grass yesterday helped at all but today and now tonight is so bad I tried to watch a movie and distract but there is no distractions for this kind of pain!

 

Im losing hope and I'm trying to hold on but this is too much!

 

Can I take ibuprofen? Will it hurt me this is so bad!!!!

[[be...]]

:'( Damn man that sounds horrible. Well I'm going to suggest that a lot find to be very controversial but it seems you're in the position to try anything at this point but... Here goes. Have you considered medical marijuana man it seems it can at least help with the migraines and head pressure maybe even your emotional problems too oh and I forgot your nausea.  Again this is highly controversial because for a lot of people it makes their dp/dr and anxiety worse but I want you to find some relief man I really feel bad for you. When I think I got it bad I look at your posts and am blown away by what I read.

 

Love and peace man

 

[[Ma...]]

No, this is not normal at all. It's sick is what it is. It takes the breath away if you actually have the ability to empathize with it. You don't deserve this. Just go get help please. I know what it's like to live with no hope Maize and it isn't right. I'm trying to get help with my issue. I see a new doctor today. My problem is different but were both basically in a really bad place. I know how much energy it must take you just to type on here and how sick all of this must make you. Just hang in there bro. Go see a new doctor and devise a new approach to your problem. Advil doesn't help for the type of pain you have unfortunately. At least it doesn't for me. You can try.

[[Ca...]]

No bother - that's what we are here for. Sounds like hell on Earth. But that's quite similar to me at 10 months. The physical symptoms were not quite so severe but the emotional stuff - absolutely. By month 11, I was suicidal at some point of the day - usually late at night. It is mental anguish no two ways about it. You have come this far and deserve a hell of a lot of credit. No doubt you will succeed. I'm at month 12 and still having a rough time but not as bad as it was. Take it easy and away from stress as much as possible. I was hypersensitive to stress and it really knocked me around.

[[Ma...]]

It's really been bad the last few days and nights the extreme pain and pressure in my head is honestly just about more than I can bare and the worst it has ever been! 

 

The last two nights have been so bad and so severe just extreme pressure burning numbness tightness and physical pain in my brain in my forehead my temples top of my head literally feels like my scalp is on fire and the sides of my head and forehead are about to explode literally can feel my heart beat the last two nights in my brain the pain and pressure has been so severe it has never been this bad and just seems to be getting worse and not better!

 

I tried to cut the grass two days ago and it made it worse night before last then just tried to play with my sisters dog just throwing some nerf balls to him and I literally got so dizzy and light headed and nauseous and felt so much pain and pressure in my head and even my face that I felt like o was gonna pass out and had to come home and lay back down it was so bad!

 

I mean this is crazy to have these symptoms be so severe I literally can not function in anyway and can't even do the simplest of activities without making it worse it's horrible!

 

The emotional symptoms are quite severe as well severe confusion DP/DR brain fog cognitive ability affected horrible evil thoughts intrusive and SU/HM ideation I just feel like I'm completely losing my mind detached from myself and reality and my brain is not my own anymore consumed by the evil that these drugs have done and I'm losing hope!

 

I know that obviously over the last month and even the last few days I've got a major wave and increased level of symptoms with the Benzo WD related issues but I'm really starting to wander what role or part the Zoloft is playing in all this with the head pressure and the increased level of anxiety and horrific emotional symptoms this is just over the top bad and the worst level of both the physical symptoms and the emotional symptoms I've ever experienced!

 

The last two nights and days I feel like I've been holding on by a thread for dear life and have had to take ibuprofen and ice packs and that doesn't even really knock the edge off of these horrific symptoms!

 

I'm really starting to lose hope and this is getting so severe I don't know how much longer I can hang on with this level of suffering if it continues like this?

 

I'm holding on the Zoloft at 87.5mg and I'm now 10 1/2 months off or out form a CT from Xanex and it just keeps getting worse!

 

Can the Zoloft be causing or contributing to the head pressure as well as the emotional wave of symptoms at this point or is this simply a horrific Benzo wave?

[[Th...]]

I'm 10 months off and getting worse. Been in a wave for almost six weeks.  I'm holding on to the fact that I had an almost three week window before this where I felt great and if we where truly brain damaged as some say, we wouldn't have any windows at all. Any little thing triggers symptoms it seems. My symptoms have been all physical with maybe five or six bouts of depression and get the hell away from me or I'll punch you in the throat.

[[Ma...]]

Trigger warning ⚠️

 

Not good but still here! This wave or whatever it is over the past 5 days is still pounding me pretty hard!

 

Extreme head pressure burning and numbness in my head deep dark depression and intrusive thoughts confusion DP/DR feeling completely overwhelmed and detached from my surroundings both the physical and emotional symptoms have changed and increased over the last week and extremely fatigued light headed and dizzy can't hardly move or function at all!

 

I'm 3 weeks away from the one year mark still holding on the Zoloft as suggested but this is the worst wave I have ever experienced and I know I've said that before but just when I think it can't get any worse it does and leaves me feeling hopeless and like this is never gonna end!

 

Got my neurologist appt Thursday but don't now what that's gonna do this has knocked me on my but and I'm wander if I'm ever gonna get better?

[[Th...]]

Was it really hot when you mowed the grass and did you feel exerted?  It seems if we do something to excite our central nervous system it gets stuck there.  Like we're unable to calm back down for days or weeks presenting as a wave.