Acceptance

[[ka...]]

When I first jumped, I knew it was going to be hard. Like the hardest thing I've  ever done. It turned out to be far more difficult than I'd ever imagined. So when I jumped I surrounded myself with people who knew what was happening. I talked with those people all day every day. I searched frantically through these forums and asked the same questions over and over, seeking something, anything that might be the magic answer to my suffering. Until finally I realized that there wasn't one. I knew what this was. I'd read that every symptom both mental and physical that I was going through were normal for this. I was desperate for something to fix it. But there is no magic answer that's going to solve my suffering. Time is the only cure. And I actually figured out that reading hundreds of posts and staying in crisis was only making me panic harder. So now I'm going to make a concerted effort to calm down and accept what's happening. It's just a thing. It's awful, but it's life. Stay safe friends.

[[SS...]]

i think you are on the right path.  i came to that conclusion 3 weeks ago and then had an 18 day window as i stopped reading too many posts.  like you i came to realize there were no answers but certainly appreciated belonging to a group of people who understand what is happening to me and believe it. i am grateful the information is here so we can be assured this is normal and we are not alone.  it was a good decision for me to stop reading lots and lots of posts.  i am now back in a wave last 4 days but i am still just doing a quick look and getting out - i just wanted to provide reassurance that i think it will be a good decision for you.  it is lonely and isolating but i just made a commitment to do other things.... and with that - i am signing off and figuring out what movies and shows to watch.....

[[va...]]

I hear you Kat,

 

I know personally that focusing on my symptoms and fighting the thoughts is like pouring gas on a fire. The only thing we can do is ACCEPT and move as best we can in the direction of things that matter.

 

This is experience is the epitome of "bizarro world". Our thoughts belie reality.

 

Accept, accept, accept. We will all heal

[[Ch...]]

Absolutely agree with you.  Fighting it makes it worse.

 

[[be...]]

Kat I agree that Acceptance  of the Process of Healing is key, it has helped me so much. Fighting it seems to make it harder to move on, and Fear also is something that keeps one down the rabbit hole. You will be surprised how letting go helps. Stay Strong.

[[Fi...]]

Exactly Kat, acceptance is key but hard to swallow when we are in such hell. Once I accepted that this was the reality everything seemed to calm down.

Hope your healing nicely