Really hurting bad and terrified

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Hi! I am just about into week 10 of being totally off all my psych poisons.  Over the past 3 years I have come off Gabapentin (2 years ago), Zoplicone (1.5 years ago), Seroquel (10 months ago) and Remeron (9.5 weeks ago).  Also, as a child and young adult I was heavily addicted 2 benzo's 4 about 26 years.  I have been off these 4 about 25 years now and have never gone back. 

 

At the present time the symptoms I am experiencing r:  chronic insomnia, burning, tingling, numbness, vibrations throughout body and head, adrenaline surges, dp/dr, blurry vision, hearing difficulties, burning brain etc. and the list goes on.  I am going through a horrendous protracted w/d from both the Remeron and Seroquel.  There is now way I could ever go back on them or any psychiatric drug as I am extremely paradoxical 2 all most all of them and the rest I just plain react badly 2. 

 

I am terrified this will b as good as it gets 4 me and I will have 2 live like this 4 the rest of my life, totally expecting 2 go out of my mind or drop dead at any moment.  I have tried various things 2 get through the rest of my w/d, but nothing seems to help only makes me worse.  I don't know how much more of this my mind and body can take as I constantly 247 feel like I am going 2 drop dead from all the horrendous symptoms.  I would really like 2 chat with anyone who has either gone or is going to do this as I feel like I'm losing my mind from all the symptoms and constant lack of sleep.  Thank you

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You can PM me if you like. I know how scary this is. I'm in the thick of it as well.

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This will not be your baseline for the rest of your life.  It will get better.  Very slowly but it will.  I'm better than I was 10 months ago. (Even though I have a long way to go) I promise the torture will lessen but you have to remain vigilant.  Write gratitude lists.  Meditate.  Hot baths.  Yoga.  Prayer.  Patience.