My psychiatrist says.... It's me

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Hi everyone,

 

I know I have still problems in my Life to struggle. Did your doc ever told you that it is you Because you fear to be in real Life when you talk about benzo withdrawal ??

 

I am 3 months off and she say that withdrawal symptoms dont exist or with very few people and tell me to go back on xanax...

 

I'm totally lost in my symptoms. I'm feeling so weird and in pain : derea, fog, weakness, anxiety, panick at night, dizziness and lot of other scariest things including a total emptyness

 

Please help me to see the light, I know i've always been a bit lazy and not so social but never at this point since I quitted all. I have no more Life, she says I have to force me but I cant even move from home or bed somedays.

 

Please share experience if you've been at this point and get better now. I Just want to socialize more but i'm stuck with Lot of symptoms !

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Yong, in one sense she is right...withdrawal is over, but you are still having symptoms from having taken Xanax.  It will take a little while for your body to heal.  This is the part doctors have a lack of understanding about.

 

Pain, intestinal issues, fog, fatigue, anxiety, panic, dizziness...these are all commonly reported symptoms for some months after the drug is gone from the body.  But they will go away with more time.

 

Yes, I have been at this point and I did get better.  It's a frustratingly long and miserable process, but if you understand that it is just your body's healing from the Xanax, it is easier to accept the time it takes to feel better.

 

What you're experiencing is normal for the healing process...scary, yes.  But it will get better.

 

 

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I would much more talk about dependence symptoms you're right

 

Its like my mind Will kill me, its not that I dont want, i'm stuck in fear and symptoms. I want to cry sometimes but I even cant

 

I even had hallucination for the first Time last night, it was like a giant jelly spider in the dark

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It makes me mad that they say these things. Withdrawal is the word we all use but one person said it's actually just recovery. The drug is gone from you, mostly except what's in the fat cells, but the brain takes a long long time to heal. You're not lazy or weak. We are ALL going through the same thing.

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The question is should I force myself to do things against my symptoms and Will... Or stay at home waiting that it get better and then go back in Life.. ?

 

I'm Just so weak physically and psychically

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Your psychiatrist is stupid. It is something that defines them - stupidity... with a pinch of corruption. You don't need psychiatrist. Use Xanax only to get off of that poison if your haven't yet.

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Read my signature, i'm free since almost 3 months...

 

Sorry for being so pessimist in my posts but its so hard to become Like this and cant do nothing

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In fact i'm still wondering Because i feel more bad than 1 or 2 month ago, I really dont see improvement...

Does it come later ? And what if not ?

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Read my signature, i'm free since almost 3 months...

 

Sorry for being so pessimist in my posts but its so hard to become Like this and cant do nothing

 

I'm sorry that you feel that way. These last few days I was also hopeless... I was suffering pure torture. But today even though I feel awful, I'm better than yesterday.

 

Please do not go back down that benzo road. No matter how hard it is always remind yourself that IT WILL END sooner or later.

 

Unfortunately, psychiatrists are not educated at all about poisons they're prescribing to. They are arrogant and stupid and even you and I know more than her, unfortunately. I know how lonely you feel and how horrific those symptoms are. But you will make it through.

 

Don't let them destroy your life with that poison.

 

I also feel worse now after the end of 2nd month than I was during 1st and 2nd month. It is normal thing... very frustrating, debilitating and awful, but "normal" in benzo world. You will improve even if you will have the most horrific wave after 6 months. You will still get out of this nightmare like everybody else did.

 

I know it's hard to reassure ourselves. I'm really hopeless sometimes... it's that bad, but NO MATTER WHAT I will never ever never put inside my body those chemical psychotropic poisons ever again.

 

 

 

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I was only 4 months onto, them fucked me up both benzo and issr.

My body and brain are destroyed for the moment. We almost have the same issue !

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During the first 2 months I was even able to force myself to go out every 3rd or 4th day. 2 weeks ago I had beautiful window and after that horror. So for more than a week instead of going outside my greatest accomplishment is to go to the toilet.

 

Some of us have probably such body chemistry which can't handle psychotropic poisons. Other people can handle them better. Yes, only 3 months of low diazepam doses and I'm screwed. Even I couldn't believe that 2 to 6 mg/day of diazepam for such short time can do something like that.

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Hi folks,

 

Just a friendly reminder to adhere to the forum's guidelines on what you write about doctors, including psychiatrists.  Here's BB's policy for review:

 

Anti-doctor, Anti-psychiatrist and Anti-medicine Comments and Links

 

Thanks,

Challis

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Good to know that doctors and psychiatrists are always protected while their victims never are.

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After reading those rules, I must say then to yong to follow the instructions of his psychiatrist. Yes, I could be wrong. It's possible that his psychiatrist knows better than me. I don't know his condition. I am not doctor and I am not psyhciatrist and I don't want to be responsible.

 

It's possible that my psychiatrist knows better than me. It's possible that we all here are sick because we don't listen to our psychiatrists and don't want to continue to take drugs for the rest of our lives. Or to put it simply - we all imagined this.

So, what is actually the purpose of this board then? To console people when it's way too late?

 

Ok, I think that any of us can decide on our own, but when we are in fragile state and we don't know what is the right thing to do is the silence best answer then when someone asks for our opinion? Should we let him to trust his psychiatrist even though it's pretty much obvious that benzo could be the main reason for his suffering? Of course... his condition could be worsened on its own and not because of Xanax, but what are the chances?

 

Of course that I don't want to be responsible here for anybody's condition or to give any advice if that will make his/her condition worse, but didn't we all learn something till now?

We, the victims will always be responsible if something bad happens to some of the sufferers, but doctors and psychiatrists will never be responsible for benzo epidemy and for our bizzare, inhumane and horrific suffering that lasts for months and months and months?

Are they ever responsible for people who harm themselves because of those suffering?

 

No, they're not, but we will be responsible if something bad happens to anyone.

 

So, dear yong... I'm not a doctor. Don't listen to me. Yes, I have bad experience and I don't trust the doctors, but you should trust your psychiatrist because she is a doctor and I am not.

You are smart enough to decide for yourself.

 

I will certainly not tell to anyone anymore not to listen to their psychiatrist.

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Please do not fight, Just give your advise because i'm lost and i'm surely not the only one

Sometimes I want to die to end it all but I keep pushing forward. I'm just too sensitive to anything

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I don't fight. I just wonder why psychiatrists never take responsibility when they destroy somebody's life while I should be afraid of being responsible.

 

I understand how you feel. As you see, I can't tell you what to do. I can't tell you not to listen to your psychiatrist. I don't know your main condition. I can only tell you that you must decide for yourself.

If I were you, I would simply let these symptoms do whatever they want to do and wait and wait and wait till they're gone. But, that's only me.

 

But I'm sure you'll be better. You can always come here to talk with us 

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Hi Yong,

I'm three weeks ahead of you and yes it has been pure hell. However! I have actually had 3 days when I have more energy and have actually been able to sit outside.  One day I actually had enough energy that I could get several things done around the house which is a HUGE deal considering I am the same as you when I'm ill. So weak, in pain and some days can barely walk but I wanted to tell you that you will eventually have days when you will feel better too.

I also started taking a probiotic everyday and that has seemed to help the depression.

Your psychiatrist is wrong. They have never walked in your shoes and have no idea how this truly feels. Just know that when you feel pain that is actually your brain and body healing.  You must go easy on yourself.  We all want to get better super quick but for us it takes a longer time and a lot of patience. 

It's super frustrating, unsettling and sad but it will get better.

Be kind to yourself, do what you can when you can and when you can't remember you are sick and have to heal.

Stay strong buddy

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I Will stay strong but its not easy sometimes, when you get anxiety + intrusive bad though, you're getting mad and its scary. In addition of all physical symptoms, I Just want To see the light at the end of the tunnel, like everyone here. I Just need support, thanks to everyone who will be encouraging me ❤️

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I've seen 3 psychiatrists and never got any useful advice from them. Since pills are their means of making a living, they are never going to badmouth them.

 

From my personal experience, I strongly recommend starting to see a therapist you are comfortable with. Working with a good one can be a life-changing experience. I have come to see many things about my way of thinking that were causing me a lot of problems in my life. I would say that long term, talk therapy has been much more beneficial to me than any pills.

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Your psychiatrist is stupid. It is something that defines them - stupidity... with a pinch of corruption. You don't need psychiatrist. Use Xanax only to get off of that poison if your haven't yet.

 

 

  Bravo ! I'm a great admirer of your writings ...

 

 

 

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Yong, I feel similar to the way you describe. You can listen to your doctor but that doesn't mean do whatever they say without listening to yourself. Doctors certainly can be helpful, but one thing that seems to be common is their underplaying the impact of benzo withdrawal/recovery. I'm not saying don't listen to your doctor at all but I would strongly advise against going back on xanax after being off for 3 months (I don't think anyone here what disagree with that). Healing will happen, go easy on yourself, you might not be able to do as much as you usually can for a while and that's ok.

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Your doc doesn't know what she is talking about.

 

The farther away you stay from him or her the better you will be.

Bf001

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It makes me sick to Know I Will suffer for months again... Do someone healed from dizziness too ? It seems to be a very sticky protracted symptom . And I hate waking up in cortisol rush every morning, its hellish for the moral.

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It makes me sick to Know I Will suffer for months again... Do someone healed from dizziness too ? It seems to be a very sticky protracted symptom . And I hate waking up in cortisol rush every morning, its hellish for the moral.

 

It must get better. My dizziness almost went away and it was awful... worse than dizziness... like everything in front of me is dissolving suddenly and I thought that I will disappear or fall down or fall into the sky... probably part of derealization, then it returned later, but not so bad... then new symptoms emerged. It's rough.

Right now I'm on my computer hugging my big pillow... awful dr and benzo flu sxs. My mum can't understand. She thinks that I must treat every symptom separately... lol... I feel so alone, so scared and so awful. I'm afraid sometimes that I will lost it and jump thrugh the window.

Cortisol mornings will ease with time... then maybe return... and then again went away... possibly forever.

We're almost in the same situation considering the length of time taking the poison and when we finished it - in June.

These last 7 days are so far the worst for me... even worse than the acute phase that was horrific. I guess I'm still in acute phase.

That doesn't mean that we will have the same symptoms all the way through... one of us could recover in 2 weeks, while the other one may need more months to recover.

The only thing that keeps me alive right now is belief that this hell must end once. It's the only thing I can hold on to.

My advice to you and you can take it or leave it... it's up to you - run away from your psychiatrist and never look back. It would be good to get professional help from some psychiatrist or psychologist who would help you deal with this benzo withdrawal condition. But if I were you, I would never touch benzo again.

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Your psychiatrist is stupid. It is something that defines them - stupidity... with a pinch of corruption. You don't need psychiatrist. Use Xanax only to get off of that poison if your haven't yet.

 

 

  Bravo ! I'm a great admirer of your writings ...

 

 

 

 

The truth about psychiatry hurts, but it should hurt psychiatrists if they have any moral at all. They don't want to admit what they're doing to people with all those poisons. They even don't know anything about the pills they're prescribing to. I'm not saying that certain percentage of people is not helped with medications (schizophrenia, severe depression, etc.) but in most cases those poisons are only destroying lives.