Agoraphobia, physical and emotional pain

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Really bad day today all around feel like crying all day but havent.

 

Started off very tired this morning still managed to get a good nights sleep tho.

 

Feel really sad low depressing anxious and in pain all day.

 

Fell asleep on the couch and in between waking up and being awake could not move head pressure was squeezing to the point it felt so real and my head was nearly going to explode all the time breathing through it, then i woke up and everything was fine

 

Tried to walk to training to get a bit of exercise for an hour felt so afraid and sensitive to everything people cars etc. (pretty much agoraphobia literally cannot leave the house sitting there with the curtains closed afraid of the outside world crazy right) managed to walk home without having a panic attack really just horrific that im afraid of something so simple.

 

Anyone experience anything similar??  :'( :'( :'( :'(

 

 

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Yes, yes, yes. This is my life every moment of every day, except I can't exercise or leave my house bc I'm so sick. All classic wd symptoms. You haven't been on a large dose for a long time so you'll  be fine really soon. Take care and try not to worry.

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Everyday is a struggle in this some more than others

 

So messed up but yet reassuring in some way, (not that i would wish this on my worst enemy) that there are literally 100s of thousands going through this process/nightmare whichever is more accurate id say that latter.

 

Appreciate your reply

 

Best of luck

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YES YES YES !!!!!!!   

 

Everything that is related to leaving the house is becoming D-day. Even shaving or showering I get upset about. Just any simple task I get afraid of doing it on forehand. You just can't imagine how small these chores are sometimes but to me they are the holocaust. I really don't know how much of this I can take anymore ... Yesterday I had to leave the house during the night for delevering some envelopes into the mail boxes of my neighbor's. Just a small chore ! I got like really worried and upset on forehand to leave the house and came back totally fatigued, anxious and out of breath for just making a small walk a few houses down the street and back all energy and power got sucked out of me. Today I had to go for groceries and food in the local supermarket. Same story, it turned into a real nightmare. Maybe I should get hospitalized but I have my dad to take care of lol.

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Yes, I am currently experiencing this.  I have a history of anxiety disorder, and going through the taper process has been hell.  I'm very fortunate that I've been able to take some time off of work, but I do go to graduate school.  I only have to physically sit through classes two days a week, but just getting through those classes is a massive struggle for me because of the withdrawal sensations and panic attacks.  Doing small things can really make me out of sorts, even driving has become a nightmarish experience. 

 

You're not alone.  I don't know if it's available to you, but some people with these sorts of issues find that therapy helps.  I realize that there are a lot of physical processes going on that contribute to various symptoms, but there also is a psychological element, and the physical aspects can definitely have a traumatic psychological effect.  I had good luck with cognitive behavioral therapy in the past, I had these sorts of problems as part of my anxiety disorder in the past when I wasn't even taking meds or going through withdrawal.  I'm starting CBT again next week and we'll see if it helps me at all.  Just a thought, some people find it useless, but it assisted me in the past when I had similar (though non-pharmaceutical) issues.

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I can certainly relate to all of this. The agoraphobia is horrible...it's sad to think of how relatively GOOD my anxiety was before Klonopin.  I was afraid to post on forums...to log into Facebook.  It's so insane but so overwhelming.

 

I think about it in terms of Newtonian physics.  An object at rest will stay at rest until acted upon by an outside source.  A guy in benzo-induced agoraphobia, once isolated, will stay isolated.  I can spend months alone, stuck in my thoughts, and each day makes it harder and harder to move.  It feels like you're stuck, and getting out of your own way can seem impossible.