Having a freak out day

[[iv...]]

I've done so well keeping it together, but today is not one of those days. I've had this dull pain hanging around my left rib cage and under my left breast for a week. I don't know what it could be. I've been abstaining from googling things because that took me down a dark road before. I have a doctor's appointment next week and I'm trying to hold out until then.

 

I've been shaky again. I haven't been shaky in awhile. It comes and goes. I don't even have to be anxious. I'll go to reach for something and see my hand shaking AND THEN I get freaked out.

 

My acid reflux is acting up. Doesn't really matter what I eat. I don't want to feel nauseous any more. I had thought my stomach issues were better.

 

I took a shower earlier and noticed all these little bruises on my legs. I don't remember banging my legs against anything or if the dog jumped on my too hard, or if they're from doing some chores yesterday.

 

I just don't know. Every strange thing my body does is making me think the worst. I just want to be okay. 

[[Fi...]]

Hi there,

I had a lot of the same symptoms plus more that would just come and go.  Pain and bruising in various places. Sometimes shaking and then gone only to return again. I know it is scary but just keep telling yourself you're healing.

You're doing great, stay strong 

[[iv...]]

Thank you, Fighting the Good Fight! I'm having a hard time ignoring the irrational thoughts today. Worried something more is wrong. Panicking over every little thing I feel isn't right. I hope this passes soon. Thank you again. 

[[Fa...]]

Same here I feel like everything is something serious. Having a really hard time right now. I'm sorry you are suffering too. I hope it gets better for you soon!

[[iv...]]

Same here I feel like everything is something serious. Having a really hard time right now. I'm sorry you are suffering too. I hope it gets better for you soon!

 

Thank you! I hope you feel better soon too, Faery! This just... sucks.

[[Fa...]]

Thanks...yes it does! So bad. Worst experience of my life!!!

[[Iw...]]

Hi

 

I've had the pain under both ribs and breasts.  I had it do bad I could not get into a comfortable position to sleep.  I also had a hard time wearing a bra, bending over-zig was bad.  I also had a lot of flutters in that area or some people say internal tremors or vibrating that started about the same time the pain started.  I had a horrible time with this so symptom.  I did take ibupropin that helped from time to time. 

 

Bruises  I wouldn't worry about-could be low iron. 

 

I am so sorry -keep Dr. google at bay-just  makes the mind worse.  I went to the doctor for mine and it wasn't anything. 

 

Sending warm thoughts of healing and hugs. 

 

 

[[Fi...]]

Hi again,

The thoughts are overwhelming and crazy aren't they? At times I thought "that's it! I've lost my mind!" Remember our benzo brain is causing all this nonsense because it is healing. I found that distracting myself really helped.  It was definitely a challenge, sometimes barely doable but we have to push ourselves to redirect our brain on to something else. Somethings that worked for me were:

Reading (when I could), games or puzzles, tv, listening to music (when I could handle it). Some of our buddies on here were able to go for walks or even exercise vigorously (wasn't an option for me because my symptoms would get worse if I did).

Hope this helps, all this pain will slowly calm down. Somethings will disappear as fast as they came on. Stay strong, you're doing awesome