Ready for a straight jacket

[[va...]]

Am I officially insane? Intrusive, horrible thoughts are my norm. Also paranoid thoughts that everyone hates me is talking about me and just waiting until I can be put in a mental institution or a straight jacket. Fearing my dog is terrified of me or hates me

 

Spiritually I am worried I am possessed. I get horrible physical and mental symptoms when I am at church. It's like there is no where I can go and feel relief!!

 

Have I totally lost any connection to reality or is this withdraw?

 

Ugh!!!

 

Thanks in advance for any thoughts.

[[Ni...]]

Am I officially insane? Intrusive, horrible thoughts are my norm. Also paranoid thoughts that everyone hates me is talking about me and just waiting until I can be put in a mental institution or a straight jacket. Fearing my dog is terrified of me or hates me

 

Spiritually I am worried I am possessed. I get horrible physical and mental symptoms when I am at church. It's like there is no where I can go and feel relief!!

 

Have I totally lost any connection to reality or is this withdraw?

 

Ugh!!!

 

Thanks in advance for any thoughts.

 

No, you're not insane. This is all perfectly within the 'norm' of withdrawal...

 

Looking at your taper schedule, it appears to me that you went at it rather quickly and with 50% cuts?!

 

Let go to time...

 

All the best

[[va...]]

Thanks Night,

 

Just SO scary!!!!! I workout regularly, do hot yoga, eat insanely healthy, etc. and I just seem to be getting more and more insane!

 

Will keep reminding myself that this is withdraw. These meds are SO evil!!!!!

 

Many thanks!

[[Ni...]]

Thanks Night,

 

Just SO scary!!!!! I workout regularly, do hot yoga, eat insanely healthy, etc. and I just seem to be getting more and more insane!

 

Will keep reminding myself that this is withdraw. These meds are SO evil!!!!!

 

Many thanks!

 

YW

 

I had to cut out/down all exercising - for in the state I was in, working muscle was depleting me rather than restoring me (the body, lacking GABA, just wasn't ready for that). Something to have a think about

[[va...]]

Thanks again!

 

You may be right about exercise, but I do feel a slight relief after doing hot yoga.

[[...]]

You may very well be insane, what ever that means.

I suppose the distinction is delusional thoughts.

I would recommend you don't convince your self of anything.

At least you have insight into your condition.

 

W/D is rather intense.

[[He...]]

in the last 12 motnhs, during at least 6 months I was not myself. My thoughts were nothing of hat Im. my pain was so intense. Then everything started to fade away. Now, at month 12, Im almost myself. I still have some thoughts that are not me, but "most of my thoughts are me".

 

it takes time. I know its hard, but you need to keep ignoring such thoughts. Dont identify with them. They are the result of your brain unbalanced.

[[va...]]

Thanks Health!

 

I know I'm still early in this, but GEEZ!!!!!! So hard to hold to your true self.

 

Tomorrow marks the 10-week mark. So.........hoping for relief soon!

 

God bless you guys!!! So grateful for all the support!

[[Fi...]]

Hi there,

I had the same thing going on, I thought "that's it! I've lost my mind!" but I was wrong.  It has settled down a lot. Now I only get the intrusive thoughts once about every 2 weeks, they only last a day and are far less upsetting which means the brain is healing!  I did research and it's called paranoid ideation (I wasn't fond of the paranoid term). Where the person may read negative meanings into innocent remarks or perceive some sort of threat or persecution against him or her from nothing at all. At this time in wd we are hypersensitive to any form of criticism. Considering we are in a constant state of fight or flight we become hyper-vigilant and it is completely understandable. I just telling keep myself, this is a temporary injury from a damaged brain. I then tell myself that the thought is irrational and that right now my brain is healing.  So "this is due to the withdrawal, not me" seems to help and then distracting myself.  There was definitely a period where I thought I was losing it as well. It will slowly disappear not to fear! 

[[va...]]

Thanks Fighting,

 

It's just crazy. I am obsessed that I am extremely old as well. People call me "sir" and it sends off. Just feel exhausted always and that feeds this narrative that I'm 20 years older then I am or that I am on my last days. Obsessed with regret as well.

 

It's a comfort to know it's withdraw.

 

Thanks again!

[[Ni...]]

"...I am obsessed that I am extremely old as well. People call me "sir" and it sends off. Just feel exhausted always and that feeds this narrative that I'm 20 years older then I am or that I am on my last days. Obsessed with regret as well..."

 

 

That's very common too. There is a thread on it

[[va...]]

I think I read that thread. More fun with withdraw! :ticked off:

 

Thanks!!

[[te...]]

Hi vaartist, glad to see you are still here and fighting. You are getting through the acute phase. Whatever you think or feel, just try to tell yourself that it isn't real. It's your brain out of balance. I know it's just terrible and unreal, but it gets better and eventually goes away. I am almost 10 months and it's SO MUCH BETTER. Mentally I feel pretty close to normal now. Please keep going one day at a time. Hugs to you

[[va...]]

Thanks Tee!

 

Nice to hear from you and glad you are doing better.

I SO needed your encouragement this morning. My perception of myself is just horrible and insane!! Trying to work through  this is even more unsettling.

 

Today marks 10 weeks off, so I am hoping and praying for some light to pierce through this dark veil soon!

 

Again, thanks so much!!