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[Guest [Fl...]]

Hi, I haven't been in this site for sometime. It used to annoy me when people left the site without an update of how things were going but now I understand why, sometimes (not ALL the time) things do not work out well and the last thing  I want to do if leave a horror story that may be a trigger for other people. In a nutshell I have tried every anvenue of help available but git no where. UmIm currently in a homeless shelter, friends and family ling gone. Lets just leave it at that. In conclusion (for me at least) having gone through a benzo cold turkey and also an imposed eight month taper (too fast, but doctrors would not listen. Even after having a siezure in his office which was dismissed as an 'maybe an underlying condition'. Yeah right.) I personally ffound the taper ni different to the cold turkey. In fact once completely off the taper it still hit me, and still does, hit me like a ton of bricks. Obviously  my 'between abodes soup kitchen' existence does not help. Not that I can eat anything anyway. I spend my days in the library until I go and queue up to see if I can get a bed for the night. Sorry, this is just MY experience, my taper was agressive, many people taper fine. Anyway I just thought id leave this last message as, like I say, its annoying when there's no follow up. Good or bad. I am going to delete this account now. Please don't post 'hang in there' quotes or 'this is just tempoary' etc, they really don't work on me. My email is ********************* but I have limited access to the internet. I appreciate all the support given here and wish everyone the best. Duncan

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[[Ma...]]

Hope you get better dude. I have lost my mom and other family. After my mom died I had a life changing injury that won't heal that makes me feel like I'm on the event horizon of the black hole that leads to hell. The pain and injury is horrific but I look perfectly healthy to make it more confusing. All my medical tests have came back normal too.  The situation seems much worse than losing people actually because I feel absolute despair and the bleakest depression imaginable when this pain acts up with this benzo wd bullshit. I'll leave it there. I'm lucky I have my father still to leech off of because I would be homeless too the way things ended up, probably shooting up fentanyl laced dope in a viaduct in the south side of Chicago and eating Klonopin from the free clinic. There is nothing I can do to change the past. All I can do is try to heal and become independent and slowly get off meds and hope for the best. I'm going to look for a peripheral nerve surgeon next to see if there is anything I can do with this pain.

[Guest [Fl...]]

Yeah thanks Mamoot, I hate to be such a downer but I'm just telling it how it is. Like I say I used to find annoying when people just left the site with no followup. Maybe I should have just slunk sway quietlybut, well, I thought about it and decided to be honest this has not ended well at all. But to put a positive spin on it I think I am an exception, I do still think that most get off benzos relatively unscathed. Heh, I have seen my parents in years (I dint fit into their 'religion', if you get my meaning. At least benzo WD completelyeliminates my appetite so having money to buy food isn't an issue. I've lost just over four stone since January. No I've not turned to shooting up or anything but if you were to look at me you'd think different. So, yes, apologies for the dreary post but I just thought I'd leave a summery. U cant really post it in the success stories. I feel like I have brain damage and someone is playing experimental jazz in my central nervous system.

 

Thanks again, I'm putting the request to leave the site in now. If anyone wants to keep in touch my email is ********************* but have limited internet access. Also if there are any philanthropic billionaires out there that is also my Paypal address.

 

No doubt that break all the forum guidelines but, well, I'm off anyway. Reeking of desperation.

 

Best wishes to all.

 

Duncan

 

 

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[[Ca...]]

My Best wishes Fleety..

I so hope you find a way forward...

Would Be great to hear from you as you can..

In the mean time, those of us that can will keep fighting where we can to stop this from happening in the future... Your story counts...

 

My Very Best Wishes...

 

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http://cepuk.org/2017/08/10/cep-2017-prescribed-drug-withdrawal-survey/

 

(Everyone^^^)

 

 

[Guest [Fl...]]

Thanks cantfly