Is any off this normal?

[[Ma...]]

Trigger warning ⚠️

 

I'm so sorry to keep bothering everyone but I am really scared and don't know what to do?

 

My symptoms continue to get worse even more so today than yesterday and I don't feel like I'm healing at all and after 9 1/2 months all the way back to the beginning and I'm the last 2 1/2 months I've went from suffering but able to push through and even work to know feeling like I'm completely losing my mind having a psychotic breakdown and back in straight crisis mode all over again!

 

Since the end of month 6 these symptoms have been changing and steadily getting so much worse and even over the last week have become so severe I can't think or function at all feel physically sick and nauseous the pressure burning numbness tightness pins and needles in my brain is so much more severe and these emotional symptoms are off the charts severe confusion DP/DR brain fog can't think clearly feel completely detached from reality and myself and my mind is not my own anymore going to a evil and dark place horrific intrusive thoughts with extreme anxiety and insomnia not helping I feel like I'm completely losing my mind and it's getting so much worse and I feel like I'm gonna die or end up back in the hospital again!

 

This is crazy! I don't understand what's happening to me at all? I've been off Xanex now 9 1/2 months and this wave hit and has been getting worse since the end of month 6 into month 7 then it got worse at the beginning of month 8 and then again now into month 9 and there seems to be no end in sight!

 

I'm really confused and scared I understand that the Majority of my symptoms are Benzo Related but I also understand there is the issue with the Zoloft and the other drugs I had been on before and I don't know what to do this is getting so bad I'm scared to be alone but then I'm scared to be around anyone cause my mind is back in that place where it was in severe tolerance WD right before I went into the hospital last October and I feel like here I am again after all this time right back in that place on here really scared going crazy and completely losing my mind it's nuts!

 

I don't know if this is Benzo WD or the Zoloft but something has to give cause I can't keep going like this!

[[Wi...]]

Im in the same boat maize. Its getting very discouraging yet i still realise i will heal with time. I HIGHLY advise you to read "lostdogs" success story. I read it when im really discouraged and feel as though this will never end. Please read it maize. I guarantee it will help you. Go Blue!

[[...]]

Hi Maize!

 

This will get better. I found another site merryjoyousfree.com I listen to his videos to distract myself. It's really nice to hear from someone that went through pure hell and is completely healed. I am in the biggest wave I've had this entire process and he gives me hope and strength to stick with it. I hope this helps.

 

Tae

[[Bi...]]

Trigger warning ⚠️

 

I'm so sorry to keep bothering everyone but I am really scared and don't know what to do?

 

My symptoms continue to get worse even more so today than yesterday and I don't feel like I'm healing at all and after 9 1/2 months all the way back to the beginning and I'm the last 2 1/2 months I've went from suffering but able to push through and even work to know feeling like I'm completely losing my mind having a psychotic breakdown and back in straight crisis mode all over again!

 

Since the end of month 6 these symptoms have been changing and steadily getting so much worse and even over the last week have become so severe I can't think or function at all feel physically sick and nauseous the pressure burning numbness tightness pins and needles in my brain is so much more severe and these emotional symptoms are off the charts severe confusion DP/DR brain fog can't think clearly feel completely detached from reality and myself and my mind is not my own anymore going to a evil and dark place horrific intrusive thoughts with extreme anxiety and insomnia not helping I feel like I'm completely losing my mind and it's getting so much worse and I feel like I'm gonna die or end up back in the hospital again!

 

This is crazy! I don't understand what's happening to me at all? I've been off Xanex now 9 1/2 months and this wave hit and has been getting worse since the end of month 6 into month 7 then it got worse at the beginning of month 8 and then again now into month 9 and there seems to be no end in sight!

 

I'm really confused and scared I understand that the Majority of my symptoms are Benzo Related but I also understand there is the issue with the Zoloft and the other drugs I had been on before and I don't know what to do this is getting so bad I'm scared to be alone but then I'm scared to be around anyone cause my mind is back in that place where it was in severe tolerance WD right before I went into the hospital last October and I feel like here I am again after all this time right back in that place on here really scared going crazy and completely losing my mind it's nuts!

 

I don't know if this is Benzo WD or the Zoloft but something has to give cause I can't keep going like this!

 

My w/d did not peak until month 9 either.  I reinstated on a lower dose and took another year to taper all the way down. Good move for me.