Taper is taking so long

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I tried to go down to .33mg of ativan per day and failed. I have to stay at .36mg for now due to massive wd symptoms. I'm feeling really depressed my taper is taking so long. I've been tapering for more than a year and the derealization won't go away. I've been crying alot lately and wishing I was better. I'm tired of going through withdrawal. It's a struggle to even eat food. I'm dropping weight fast. Thank goodness I've got some fat to lose.

 

How do I keep coping? It's probably going to take another 3 months to taper and another year after that for me to feel better. This nightmare won't end. My stamina is at an all time low.

[[4G...]]

I know how you feel. My taper is taking forever and then I have other drugs go come off. I suppose we just have to keep going. There is nothing else we can do. Wish I had a magic wand....Gx

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True. I just keep on having dark trains of thoughts. It seems like my depression is really bad atm for some reason. Must be because I'm almost off the drug.

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C

I know the feeling.  I'm only reducing by .001 a day-at this rate I have another year!  I'm thinking about holding...which just prolongs it even more.  Someone said that the depression gets bad the lower you get-but I think only to a point.  I know everyone is different but I've heard after you get so low it disappears. 

 

I think GB said "what choice do we have"-we don't really have one.  I don't think anyone wants back on this poison.  So the only solution sucks and that's time. 

 

Hope tomorrow is better for everyone. 

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C

I know the feeling.  I'm only reducing by .001 a day-at this rate I have another year!  I'm thinking about holding...which just prolongs it even more.  Someone said that the depression gets bad the lower you get-but I think only to a point.  I know everyone is different but I've heard after you get so low it disappears. 

 

I think GB said "what choice do we have"-we don't really have one.  I don't think anyone wants back on this poison.  So the only solution sucks and that's time. 

 

Hope tomorrow is better for everyone.

 

You would be surprised to see how the depression can actually lift when you get to a lower dose. It's not for sure the depression will get worse on to the end of your taper. I've done it plenty of times on Valium and the depression came and go. And when it was gone I did feel better. Withdrawal is just so weird, all logic goes totally out the window really. In my last attempt I held on 4 mg for several months and almost no depression but I had severe depression on 15 mg or even 10. You should think like "does your body really register a low dose anymore if you been on higher dosages for such a long time ?" and "is it possible that the low dosages mean almost nothing anymore and the body already starts healing at 4 mg of Valium or the low dosages of other benzo's like you guys are tapering ?" Just think about it. I always felt less depressed on a low amount of Valium. By the way I do have all the symptoms you guys are talking about here and still have a long way to go too and also other medications to taper off of after I'm done with Valium and Zolpidem I have 75 mg of Sertraline (Zoloft) to tackle. There's just not a single day that goes by without me asking myself several times during the day : "What is this good for ?", "Why am I still trying this ?", "Why am I doing this ??, "How much of this can I still endure ...", list goes on ....

 

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TR

 

Love your avatar!  I feel like doing that every day!  I sure hope the depression lifts because it truly sucks.  I have never been this depressed that it interferes with daily activities-I was always in the go, very active even with depression.  I have to PUSH myself every day now. 

[[bi...]]

I was on .5 ativan for a month and tapering was truly horrible because of interdose withdrawals. I crossed over to liquid valium and it got waaaay better. I will say though, going from 3 mg to 2 mg and getting below 2 mg was PURE HELL. Things are so much better now that I am at 1.38 mg but still suck. I can only taper .02 mg a week so it is taking forever and being on diazepam for so long is not good for me. I am really hoping that once I get below 1 mg a day things will rapidly improve and I won't feel so tired anymore.

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TR

 

Love your avatar!  I feel like doing that every day!  I sure hope the depression lifts because it truly sucks.  I have never been this depressed that it interferes with daily activities-I was always in the go, very active even with depression.  I have to PUSH myself every day now.

 

 

  Thank you so much binaural.

 

 

 

It's footage of me doing a life Skype session with my doctor ...   

 

 

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